Charm Babysitter

Panic Attacks

The small space was only 3*4 meters, in the corner there was a brown wooden bed with the bottom base began to blacken, and some of the skin peeling due to age eroded. And not far from the bed there was a vault that was covered with curtains, the condition was also not much different, it looked fragile and dull.

On the bed lay a smiling little baby, his body a little thin, even so he was very agile.

And someone there was swinging his legs repeatedly up the floor forming regular small steps, somehow the steps were already swinging, but the perpetrator did not feel tired, he said, there was an unseen awkwardness that was disturbing the recesses of his soul, ignoring the surroundings.

Though this was the opportunity he had been waiting for for these few months, with his son.

Butwhat? his son he left lying on the bed quietly, while he was just busy repeating the same rare, occasionally paying attention.

Many questions danced in his head. Why and why, he felt that something was wrong with the figure of the baby lying on his bed.

Not yet, he found the answer. Cell phones ringing dissipate all the sense of the tan.

***

"Hallo Allin" I haven't had time to say hello, he who was across there was enthusiastic to interrupt.

"Yes, what's wrong, sir?" tanyaku.

"I just got home, you don't worry" she said, calming as if I would worry about her.

I clenched my lips, holding back a laugh.

Sir why do you think I'm going to worry about you, you seem to think of our relationship as a pair of lovers who can't escape communication.

"Who's worried about you, sir?" my fanc.

I know he doesn't like it if I deny everything he says.

"You pretended to forget. Before I go home, you yourself say, You're also careful, sir, don't forget to tell me when you get there"

I gulped, realizing my mistake. "I wouldn't talk so, sir, if you hadn't started. Your attitude this afternoon that provoked me to be sweet, it was just a pleasantries." My base is deeper.

"So you're not sincere about it" her voice sounded disappointed.

"Bu-not that I mean" I said unkindly.

Why do I become sad when I hear the sound of disappointment, I better throw away my ego than to hear him so disappointed.

"Sorry sir, I was really sincere when I said that. But ...."

"But what? Never mind" he just cut that connection.

"I'm not done talking." I'm disappointed.

***

After the connection broke, my mood deteriorated. Hardcore, Vano, Miss Sella, aunt Mia they're alternately stirring my brain contents. Something is wrong, something is not right, somehow, why always spin is not clear at the center of the problem.

Again my phone is singing. Who else? If not him. Now he's on video call.

You know the name of the contact on my phone?

Husband❤

Yep! He himself gave me the emoji and the name when he came home after dropping me off.

"*Whatever kind of wedding we have, tomorrow I'm your husband. I hate the name betrayal let alone infidelity. So now it's my contact name" as she returned my phone.

How do I react when reading the name of the contact, cengo the term village.

"What connection?" my question at the time was a little confused, the name of the contact with treason and infidelity.

"Yes, there's! You're the only one who doesn't know"

"Because you don't know, let me know!" indict me.

"Secret" he replied as he left, not leaving, but avoiding*.

The call ended up dead, because for too long I ignored it. Shortly after that, one message came in, Raise my call Allin😠😠😠 with his devil face emoji.

He always forced.

Just a few seconds I read the message, the call connected again via video call.

With a heavy heart I raised the call of the perverted old man.

"Where are you Allin?" The tone of his voice was so high but it was tucked into a sense of worry when he saw the screen of his phone so dark.

Allin what are you doing. Look at him, whatever your silly behavior he always responds with worry. To her you're a sloppy girl who always makes trouble. You like teasing her.

"I'm here, sir"

"Why is your screen dark?" tanya was so enthusiastic.

I covered the front camera lens with my thumb finger. I just feel weird video call with him, yes this is the first time we did it.

An awkward feeling to me.

"Dead the lights" I replied unconcernedly.

"You lied Allin. I saw there was light" he accused.

I sighed in defeat, and kept my thumb finger away from the camera lens.

"Yes. Why else would you call?" manya lazy.

"Why are you talking about that? I'm your husband, it's up to me, whenever and wherever I want to talk to you" he said.

"We're not married, sir, you're a new candidate" I deny.

"Read the correct one on your phone screen" while pointing to the front of the postel.

My face is lazy

"You're charging me, sir!" He grinned at victory.

"Quick read it out loud!!' exacting.

"SUAMIKU" full of emphasis.

"Happy!" add me with a patterned eye.

"Not yet" he started attacking me again.

"Moreover Sir?" scabbard

He put his thumb and index finger together.

"Gosh, you're not wrong sir"

He just nodded

With a heavy heart, I did what he asked, putting my 4 fingers together to make a love sign.

Over there in a satisfied laugh.

Chortling.

Disgust...

"You're too much into the role of Master" I quipped.

"So I'm no less great dong with Ardio Pamungkas"

As soon as my face turned white as the name that cannot be called echoed in my hearing, numbing my nerves, singing my wounds, all became uncontrollable, my tears just flowed, my chest muscles stirred in search of air.

Panic attacks, sudden fear that makes a person sweat, tremble and have difficulty breathing.

"Allin, Allin, Allin" the voice sounded faintly.

"Allin you need to calm down, quickly take a deep breath, yes clever, now throw it slowly" even though the sound felt faint but I followed his directions.

As my consciousness recovered, I quickly wiped away my tears.

I felt grateful and ashamed, he was beside me when I was in a bad state.

It turned out that his face was also whitened across there, panic and worry were still left in his facial line even though his breathing looked regular.

"Allen. You why? Do you have asthma?" tanyanya was so worried.

Allin again you worry him.

I hate being pitied!

I was silent for quite a while, digesting the question and instantly just nodded.

No, Allin. You can't lie. He helped you but you lied to him. Then what answer should I give, scrape my wounds and expose them, show my weakness, and make him pity. No, I don't want anyone to pity me anymore. Let me stand on my own, beating my weak body, with my pride still tormented.

I don't want to look broken anymore.

Since I recovered, this is the second time, I have experienced the same condition, when I found out Dio's full name, I also had a panic attack, back then there was this thing that calmed me down but it took me a long time, about half a day.

But it took only a few minutes to calm myself, her voice sounding warm and seductive relieving my panic.

"Since when?" tannya

"Open up, sir, I mean I'm short of breath, but I don't have asthma"

It seems he breathed a sigh of relief.

"Then why are you?"

I silently shook my head. Then my eyes turned to look at Tegar who was asleep.

Rigid included being easily approached by me even though we had never met since I left. No, he was also approachable to my distant family, it seemed like my son was good at adjusting, not bothering the people around him.

"Dio, I miss Dio" I replied distracting him.

"Secome" god. "You don't miss the Papa?" with a big smile.

"Relieve it!" seraya. "Sir, why do you like teasing me so much"

"Because you're so hard to seduce. I want to see your face flushed Allin"

"After that, you attacked me and made fun of me" my boyfriend did not accept.

"Yes I want, but your defense is strong Allin, hard to penetrate"

"You know that the master behind the tortoise's hard shell has a soft body, should you learn from it?" reply lirih.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't tease you in this condition. I thought by baiting you you'd be Allin's big-mouth mom again" to be honest, but still slipped something unpleasant to hear.

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