Charm Babysitter

Awaiting you

Suppose he's not someone's husband, if I hadn't hurt someone, if I had the courage.

What happiness is mine, which woman will not be happy when her love is reciprocated, which woman will not be happy if her husband adores her, accepts her as she is.

God, why did you send him as medicine and poison for me. Can I enjoy it? To quench this thirst, the thirst that I had long endured, the thirst that suffocated my neck veins, the thirst that stifled my chest, the thirst that twisted my stomach.

Lord for the sake of my belief in your promise, that I will be happy in the right way, I remain firm in my stand, but you give me this sudden sense of happiness, which I cannot escape.

But why God? This happiness must hurt me, wrapped around me from the outside, tearing me apart from the inside.

Can I be selfish? Accepting all of this in open arms, challenging the world that will later sneer, and throwing away my embarrassment.

No, I can't, my life is not my own. There is a stern that will be hurt. Enough is enough, Steady wound with his presence that is not clear who his father is, I do not want to make him blasphemed because his mother is a snatcher husband people.

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My tears are flowing....

From the eyes that I have not been able to close since, combing through everything that has happened, understanding what decisions I will take.

And he was behind me, holding me tight as if I were going to fall, if he took his hand off. I don't know how much time we spent just lying down without being able to close both eyes. Just hugging and silent in the room, the light is so dim that the heart becomes gamelan.

No Allin, he wasn't silent, he was busy tasting what was rightfully his.

Only you are secretly enjoying, but not with him, all the flavors are shown by him to you.

He adores you Allin! You can't avoid her feelings for you anymore. He had already dared to take a step far beyond his character Allin.

And you stay here, hesitating, pretending.

What else would you use to deny all this Allin. You only think about people and what others say.

Know Allin, you didn't ruin anyone's relationship and didn't take anything. He remained adamant, that you were his that he would not let go.

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No, I can't be tempted, and drift away in this game. I'm gonna finish this thing fast. I've decided I'll get pregnant soon and get away from their lives.

"Sir" called me to break the silence between us.

"Hmmm" he answered.

You know what the tone is? Soft and stirring, he just cleared his throat, but my heart was broken by him. Can I still deny her charm?

"Why are you just hugging me?" manya.

I shouldn't have fished it.

As a woman where your shame goes, Allin.

I don't know! Let him think what, I'll finish this game. Maybe I was a little scared, with what he wanted to do to me, but if I refused all his touches, when all this would be over, it would have to start and it would be over soon.

"You want to let alone Allin, this is already romantic" he replied chuckling as he kissed my neck repeatedly.

Look at her! He has already claimed I am completely his, he is not lord Vano anymore who would normally shy away from any form of physical closeness associated with me.

At first I was so sure the game would go smoothly, as Sella expected, because as far as I knew, she was able to control her attitude towards me, although he never stripped me naked with the look of his eyes, but it was not intentional.

A lie! If I don't drift away, it feels so tantalizing, making me swallow so many times.

"I don't want to be romantic with you" I love her. My hands tried to release her support from my body, slightly pushing her body away, she was too close and tightly supporting me. But my energy lost far away from him, not even the distance between us I was unable to make.

"Why?" again the sound of his joints so touching with his hands and feet increasingly twisted me from behind.

You've completely shed Allin, he just let out one word your heart is already vibrating, your body is sculpting.

"Keep what do you want?" now his tone began to flat and his hand support loosened.

"I want you to haunt me immediately" I said so loudly.

You forgot your shame again Allin

"Basic boy! What's on your mind? You think you're making you pregnant, enough I spit on you suddenly immediately pregnant. Everything needs a stage and process and also should not be arbitrary and need a long time" he said while pinching my nose from behind and chuckling amusedly.

You're exaggerating, sir.

"I don't want it now!" he continued with a crisp tone that still left his laughing voice.

"Why? I'm your wife I deserve your hamili" I said stirring.

"Oh my God, Allin, where there's a woman like you on this earth, asking to be impregnated but not to be spoiled, you think I can channel it through an infusion tube." he said he hugged me from behind and gently bit my earlobe.

"Yes who knows? I want to get pregnant soon!" I said more enthusiastically and did not care what he did to my body.

"No! Before you love me." whispered as he exhaled warm breath in the ear.

"Why so sir, what matters is our husband and wife. Love or not we are good for children. And I can also force you" I said stammeringly, I realized that I was already washed away with her trunk but still I denied it.

"Make child? Jesus Allin? You're talking like a kid asking to buy a toy" his voice sounded angry rather than upset.

"I need to get pregnant soon or I'm forcing you!"

'You want to rape me?" tanya turned my body to face him.

"Y-yeah" I began to doubt. "Emang why?" my challenge.

"Come on! I want to know?" he accepted my challenge with a sneering smile.

I swallowed my saliva, pecked, thinking about how.

"Aaaaaaa.., I don't know how" I cried to her.

"Then?" tanya while holding a smile.

"Yes, you're the one who taught me" I asked him.

" You won't be able to rape Allin's man, look at your little body how to fight me" she belittled me.

"My body can be small, but my mind is big sir." I deny the sneer.

"O, yeah! But it won't affect me." he replied haughtily.

"It's so arrogant of you, sir!"

He just sneered again, "Love me! You'll get what you want!" said challenging.

"Alright Sir. I love you" I said in a spoiled tone.

"I didn't hear your sincerity there Allin! Even if you really love me. I want to see your love destroy your selfishness, throw away your deal, and take away your thoughts of divorce and abandoning myself." she said.

"Your request is too much sir, it's very difficult to love you." I said annoyed.

"If you really love me it won't be hard, it will be your own love that will accompany you to do all that easily" he explained.

"I'll be waiting for you Allin." he continued.

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