Blue Rose
Facts that Are Too Painful
Sometimes, what really happened was too painful to know.
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What did Rey just hear?
Like the flashback of a movie, his brain processes quickly the events of a few minutes ago. Rotating it over Rey's head, similar to a scene shot.
“Because father's name was never on my birth certificate.”
“I was born without a father, Rey!”
Then another trailer followed.
“Papa want the girl who will be your companion is the clear child of her father and mother.”
Overlapping each other, spinning inside Rey's head.
“Because father's name was never on my birth certificate.”
“Papa want the girl who will be your companion is the clear child of her father and mother.”
“Father's name was never on the birth certificate.”
“A clear son of his father and mother.”
“Never been on birth certificate.”
“Yang clear father ...”
“Never existed ...”
“That's ..”
In the next second, Rey's screams echoed in the room that was only her, followed by the sound of a PS console dings that kissed the floor. The man leaned over the chair until his face touched his knees. Squeezing her hair tight, hoping her headache goes away.
Why does it have to be this complicated?
Why is her love story like this?
Various questions began why dancing in the brain, making Rey increasingly buried her head.
***
So, what now?
Rey looked at her reflection in the mirror. A matted face, with eye bags resembling Panda eyes plastered there. Rey has never been this bad.
Restoring his hair back, the man glanced at the calendar on the table, already two days he was absent from college. Choosing to lock himself in the room, ignoring the call of the twin duo, paying attention to the ears from Alarik's scream outside the room door. Rey snorted, sure this is you Rey? Laughing at himself, who turned crybaby just because of a woman. For what purpose should he mourn his fate? Lucky Randy Atmaja was out of town, no need to see his hero turned as soft as cotton.
Taking a deep breath, Rey suggested a thought. He'll be fine, let's start over. A smile engraved on the man's face in the mirror, made Rey pull her lips wider, then the man rushed into the bathroom, the first step of starting the day.
*
“Wuishh, who came?” It was good to welcome Rey with enthusiasm, punching Rey slowly on the shoulder and hugging like a friend.
The same thing Bagas did. “Health you Bro? Yesterday why, loose or again come month?” taunted.
“Damn lo!”
And they laughed, as if what happened yesterday was just an episode to remember. Clutched as usual, without offending anything about Selly.
***
“It feels peaceful yes this class,” Jesica chirps, on the back bench.
“Peace? What about the Jes war?” asked Arman, followed by laughter from others.
Jesica brushed her hair back. “Yes, you all know, riotous culprit in this class already out.”
“Who?” timpal Jojo.
“Yes who else, yes Selly the bastard,” replied Andrea who sat next to Jesica.
At first, Rey was unaffected by the student chatter on the back bench, but when a name was mentioned, the pen in her grip almost crumbled. Lie, if Rey says she's forgotten about Selly. It was just camouflage, a disguise of herself so she wouldn't look fragile. Putting on the mask was unconcerned, indifferent when he did not see Selly within sight.
But when one more reality caught his ear, inevitably he speculated.
Selly out?
Then about the bastard, how did they know?
“Hai, Rey!”
Rey snorted, as a pointed hoofed hand with a gliter-filled red cuticle touched her shoulder, followed by a pungent scent that pierced her sense of smell. Looking up, she saw Jesica smiling sweet honey.
“Lo night no events no?” ask the girl who was wearing the tight shirt, in a soft, feathery voice. It tickles, but it makes Rey want to get rid of it.
Rey stared intently at the girl standing next to her, then lowered her hand speechlessly, making Jesica swallow a spit of cheek.
“It’s okay, if you are busy,” Jesica chatter before turning around, back to the stool.
*
Deheman Rey for the last time, as if the man who was playing the gadget was suffering from strep throat.
“What the hell, Rey?” good Tanya, after sounding deheman again.
“Known, aham ahem rich Mr. Lurah want aja speech,” timpal Bagas.
Rey glanced at the twin duo who were also busy with their respective phones, they sat around a low table in one of the cafes. Honestly, there's nothing Rey has done since. He only followed two of his friends, pretending to be busy sliding the 5-inch screen in hand, although in fact the curiosity of something was more domineering.
“Lo bedua ..” Rey again glanced at Bagas and Bagas who were now looking at her. “Know where he is?”
Good frowning. “Dia? Who?”
While Bagas clucked. “Yes has Rey, weigh by talking Selly aja hard very use ahem-ehem.”
Rey did not respond, she just bit her inner cheek, saying the girl's name was still that difficult.
“A day ago he officially came out of this campus Rey,” beber Bagas.
“Lalu ... how do children know about his status?” Rey recalled how Jesica recited with a boon the nickname illegitimate child for Selly.
“He himself revealed it.”
*
Two days earlier.
“Sorry I'm Rey, sorry for lying to you.” Selly rubbed her wet cheeks. Then turned to Rey who was still unmoved in her seat, as if Selly did not exist, as if in this room there was only her own.
Sighing deeply, Selly stood up, observing Rey one last time. “Although I was born without a father, it does not mean I do not have Rey's affection, whatever I do with you, my feelings for you, all sincere,” he said long, ending their meeting.
Sally walked gontai, setting foot with the remaining energy. Actually, he wants to rest his body. Close the eyes that are too tired to produce fluid, even the heart that has been turned into a formless puck.
However, he still had one dependant, an explanation and clarity for someone.
“I want to talk Ky,” Selly said when she found the person she was looking for sitting on a campus park bench.
“Oh sure, Cell, where?” ask Kiky enthusiastically.
“Here aja, but wait for someone first.”
Kiky furrowed his brows. “Who?”
“Jes, here.” Coinciding with that, Jesica approached, making the frown on Kiky's forehead grow deeper.
“For what is he here?”
“You said what lo?”
Kiky and Jesica spoke together, both not liking the situation.
“It's about me...” Sally paused her sentence, watching the snorting Jesica, as if the information she was about to convey was unimportant. While Kiky was still unmoved in her seat.
“I've told the truth to Rey.”
Netra Kiky fiddled when she heard what Selly said. The face of the girl looked ordinary. Does that mean Rey accepts the facts about Selly? Suddenly Kiky's feelings turned bad.
“Sel, are you serious?” tanya Kiky stammered, who was taken in by Selly.
“Please yes, what are you guys talking about? Trus I'm just a mosquito repellent here?” Jesica wags her hand, using it as a natural fan. Frowning with a scorching afternoon that was not sufficiently obstructed by the mushroom-shaped roof over them.
“This has something to do with you,” timpal Selly, “you are very curious is the same secret I?”
“Sel!”
Reproof from Kiky had no effect on Selly, the girl continued her speech by staring fixed Jesica, “My secret is ...”.
“Sel, please! You don't have to do this!” Kiky is still interrupting.
“That I was born outside a wedding.”
Kiky closed his eyes, already done, and certainly did not take long this news will spread throughout the campus, even the world.
While Jesica was still speechless with her mouth gaping. “Mak-sud lo, lo is ...”
“I have no father, I am an illegitimate child, you name it,” Selly replied lightly, as if what he just said was just plain talk.
“Lo's oath?!” Jesica still can't believe it.
Selly did not heed, the girl turned back to the man in front of her. “Now you don't have to bother thinking about my relationship with Rey, we're over.”
Again, the two people in front of Selly widened their eyes with their mouths half open. Sally exhaled, her task was done, then stood up from her seat.
“Sel why did you do it?” ask Kiky before Selly actually leaves.
Smiling, Selly put her shoulders down. “I'm tired of Ky, and you know, right, that means we're also over!”
