Blue Rose
Trying to Be Selfish
Just once, let me be greedy.
- Selly Anandita
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“Sel, pliss!” Kiky begged for the next time, asking Selly to give her a chance to talk.
But as if to consider it invisible, Selly did not open her mouth in the least. The girl was solemnly browsing the high shelf in front of her with her eyes and index finger. Comb through each book title, pick one up, read it for a while, and then return it again. I don't know what book he's looking for.
“Selly!”
Selly clucked. “It's in Ky perpus, please don't be noisy!” he said it was lirih but full of emphasis.
“Then let's talk outside,” Kiky still won't give up.
“Can't!”
Selly closed her eyes hearing the voice of someone she knew so well. For what sake, Rey showed up here? And did he forget that this was a library? Places where speaking loudly is prohibited.
“What do you connect to?” hardik Kiky's.
“Lo the fuck,” timpal Rey, fierce. “Still have your self-esteem show yourself here? Or shameless urate you've broken up?”
Decak annoyance is also a warning heard from perbus visitors. Making Selly massage the base of his nose that suddenly throbbed pain. Returning the book roughly into the shelf again, the girl walked out, followed by the two men behind her.
“Gue will stay here keep Selly.”
Rey snorted, then flicked her lower lip. “Lo sure Selly still want sorry lo?”
“Cell, you want to forgive me, I promise I will not be selfish again.”
Selly stopped in front of the stairs, making the two young men do the same. The girl turned around, looking at them in turn. What has he missed here?
“Sel, please!” Kiky cupped his hands in front of his chest. “Sorry me, yes?”
“Udah spelled out Selly will not apologize lo,” serobot Rey.
“I'll excuse you,” Selly's answer made both of them widen their eyes.
“But Cell, dia—”
“Only if you don't see me again.”
The protest from Rey came to a halt when she heard Selly's words, changing into a smile of relief.
“But Selly—”
“Ky, please!” raising her hand, Selly stopped Kiky's speech. Again stressing that he does not want to get in touch with her anymore.
“And you, Rey.” Selly looked at Rey. “We need to talk.”
A smile bristled from Rey's lips, nodding twice with sparkling eyes, like a child being offered ice cream. He waved at Kiky in hyperbolistic style, before following in Selly's footsteps. Didn't he win this time?
They walked up the stairs, down the corridor for 5 meters, then turned to the back of a room. Leaning on the balcony ledge, Selly looked at Rey who presented her with a smile as bright as the sun that afternoon.
“What do you know?” todong Selly's. Their chatter moments ago with Kiky indicated that the man knew something.
“What? You mean about ...,” Rey paused her sentence, reluctant to continue, “Kiky?”
Nodding, Selly agreed to Rey's question. “You already know?”
“More precisely”—Rey approached, standing sideways, facing the girl—“I told Kiky to admit it to you.”
Netra Selly round. “Then what else do you know?” Irregular leaflets in Selly's chest cavity became a sign that she was beginning to worry. Does Rey know who she is?
“As?”
The question that was answered made Selly more anxious. “Taxes with me?” it looks more like a whisper.
If five minutes ago Rey's feelings were so intense because she was happy, then now her mood is in freefall, and the cause is the same person. Why do they have to talk about this, again?
“Please yes, Selly Anandita.” Rey emphasized on the woman's full name. “Can not this do not need to continue, I'm allergic to the same statement you just.” shudder, Rey felt her body suddenly itchy.
“Why? You don't want to know ready—” Selly speech stopped because Rey is sticking both palms in each ear, warning him that Rey does not want to hear.
A little while later, Rey lowered her hand, moved it on Selly's shoulder, staring fixedly at the brown bead. “I don't care what business you might do with that man for your mother's operating expenses, which I believe you, Selly Anandita, wouldn't be able to sell yourself just for a wad of money.”
Selly's heart warmed to hear Rey's last sentence, it felt like she wanted to cry so much to her. So much trust in Rey, can she hurt him again?
Nah! Selly's gonna cover it up. After all, Rey had never asked her father, it seemed that the man believed that one of his parents had died. But what if one day Kiky reveals it?
“Hey, how come you're dumb?”
Selly blinked, regained her consciousness, then smiled sweetly at honey. “Thanks Rey.”
Just this once let him be selfish. Just this once, let him be a little greedy. Just this once, let him be on his side happily.
Rey pulls the corners of the lips, forming a perfect arch. “Come!” Pulling the sleeves of Selly's shirt, the man took their steps away.
Rey glanced at the girl. “Towards happy.”
“Apaan hell Rey.” Selly could not hide the hue of her cheeks, making Rey's laughter break.
Without them noticing, there was a pair of eyes following their every move. Scan with high precision. Then conclude one solution, that someone should intervene here.
***
“Sorry Brother, we do not need new employees.”
The fifth speech that Selly received today. There have been five places he visited, ranging from simple cafes to famous restaurants, but no one has given a pleasant answer. On average, they do not need new employees or do not accept part-time workers.
Removing the sweat on her forehead, Selly uses a brown envelope containing a cover letter as an alternative fan. Then back down the sidewalk, challenging the sting of the king of the day that began to rise. The vibration in the pants pocket interrupts. Sliding the call recipient icon, he attached the flat object to the ear.
“Iya Rey.”
“At home?”
“Again on the road.” Sally looked to the left side of the street, a shopping mall pulling herself in to get closer. Not for shopping, but goods times there are those who need his services there.
“Where? Same who?”
Sally rolled her eyes hearing Rey's interrogation “Self, already yes, busy nih.” Without waiting for approval, Selly turned off the call.
The girl decided to cross through the JPO. But, Selly's footsteps came to a halt at the first rung of the stairs when someone blocked his elbow.
“Kiky!” Selly immediately let go, then took one step back. “Ngapain you here?”
“Why did you quit the cafe?” Kiky asked back, since his confession the other day, he did not find Selly working at the cafe anymore.
“I'm out, I've said it's the same Ma'am Berta,” explained Selly mentioned one of the senior employees there.
“Why? Is that angry you're the same as me?” sue Kiky, disregarding the several pairs of eyes that stole a look at them.
Selly sighed, then crossed hands in the chest, looking up at the young man who was taller than him. “Yes, I'm angry and I don't want to go back there. Satisfied you!”
Kiky was restoring her hair, making her mane fall apart. “Cell, please, don't gini! Don't be selfish!”
“Egois?” Sally threw away her face, then laughed. “Who is selfish here? Who made all this hassle happen, ha?” his voice rose with a breath that began to hunt.
“Iya I know I was wrong.” Kiky squeezed the frustrated hair, then rubbed the face with both hands. “I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Please don't hindarin me, hm?” in contrast to Selly, the man was blurting out a voice, almost like a whisper, full of regrets and pleas.
Three days his life is dying. More painful than when she witnessed Selly and Rey together. It's quieter than it was five years ago, when Selly moved house. Losing news of Selly, it still allows her to search and hope to find the girl. But losing Selly's kindness really frustrated her. The girl was even reluctant to say hello or just stare even though they were within a close radius. Kiky doesn't like that, Kiky hates being the one Selly hates.
“I'll do whatever you come from I'm sorry, please.” The man bent the leg, making his knee touch the paving.
“Kiky what the hell?” Selly gasped, hurriedly asking the man to stand up.
“I'll stand if you excuse me.”
Selly closed her eyes, taking a deep breath. “Ky, yesterday I was bil—”
“I don't want to be away from you. I don't want to be out of touch with you.”
For God's sake, is Selly now interacting with a spoiled little kid? Why did Kiky become so stubborn?
The next second he was again stunned, as Kiky's fingers clasped his palms firmly. Not apart even though Selly tried to take off, he,. “Ky, lastin!”
Shaking her head, Kiky still clasped Selly's hand in a kneeling position.
“Ky, viewed people.” Selly started to get caught off guard with every pair of eyes that were watching them, whispering to each other with eyes full of probing.
“I'll tell Rey about you that you're not sorry about me.” Kiky uttered the sentence with his head lowered, looking at their clutched hands. While Selly felt his heart was dislodged to the bottom of the stomach. It was as if the interlocutor was threatening him by pointing the tip of the dagger at the vein in his neck.
Kiky slowly stood up, aligned their heads, finding Selly's face turning deathly and a clear liquid running down the cheeks. His hand stretched out, about to wipe the girl's tears. But Selly turned her head, making her hand stop in midair.
“Believe me Sel, only I can accept you as you are.”
The next second that sounded was the sound of a punch and Kiky's body that fell to the ground paving. Selly screamed, as Rey re-directed the raw bogem to Kiky's lower jaw making the corners of her lips tear and bleed.
“Lo budeg! Yesterday Selly said what?!” Pulling the collar of Kiky's shirt, Rey forces the man to stand. “Lo is not horrified? Ha!” and one blow was again lodged in the temple of the man whose glasses had fallen on the ground and cracked it. While people passing by actually make them as objects of spectacle.
Rey's anger peaked when Kiky actually pulled the corner of his lips, showing a jelly decorated with blood mixed with saliva.
“Lo doesn't know anything Rey,” he said with a gasp of breath, the tip of his eyes glancing at the terrified Selly with a trembling body.
“Lo!” Rey again raised her hand to form a fist, preparing to launch it into another part of Kiky's face.
However, because Selly is holding his arm. “Stop Rey! Stop please!”
Rey turned to find the pale face of the girl next to her, as well as the trembling hands. Pulling away, the man stood straight in front of Selly. Scanning every inch of Selly's body yelling at the word ‘takut’. Rey let out a long sigh, shouldn't she act rashly.
“You're not papa?” ask Rey attentively.
Selly shook her head, then nodded. If what Rey means is his physical condition, then yes he's okay. But if what Rey points to is her psychic then Selly crumpled. Been very ill. He could barely breathe.
