Angan

Self-sufficient

Time to go home to work

I was on my bike.

"Here, I lend you first, my helmet. Later Monday back again" said Arya.

"OK on" I answered while wearing the helmet

I drove the motor home. And I survived to get there. As per the agreement, Toni followed me from behind.

"Let me put it in the garage. Here's the key to the house" Toni handed the key to my hand.

I cleaned my body, and collapsed in front of the television. My eyes have longed to be closed. Maybe it was dawn, making me sleepy all day.

"you why?" ask Toni worried.

"I'm sleepy" I said, closing my eyes.

"Yes, go to sleep first. I'm going to play at mom's first. Who knows if there's something to eat" he said, passing from my sight.

Bang Romi reappeared in my dreams. But, he just smiled happily looking at me. He took my hand, and looked at the ring on my finger. After that, he walked away from me, occasionally turning to where I was standing, and disappeared instantly.

"Bao.. Bangs.. Bang.." I shouted to call his name.

"Get up. wake up, Yu.."

I sit.

I dream again.

"Ang? again?" ask Toni.

"Tomorrow can I go to bang Romi's funeral?" sad say.

Toni nodded.

"Do you want to eat or go to sleep?"

"I'll just sleep here" I patted my pillow.

"Where possible, your body will hurt"

"I'm afraid to be alone. There's usually an Aca who's with me"

"There's me. I'll accompany you. And nothing will happen"

"All right" I said doubtfully.

"Related, don't want to eat?" ask again

I nodded and went into the room. And again, Toni limits with bolsters.

"Hm.."

"Is papa mad at me?"

"No"

"But I'm scared. Papa was always quiet when I approached"

"Yu." call him to turn his body to face me.

"What do you want about us?"

"You mean?"

"We've been living together for almost 1 month. But I've never asked you for anything from me"

"Because I never asked anyone. I'm used to being independent. I'm used to it myself, and I have to take care of myself. I have to take care of my own heart"

"But you're not alone now"

"That's what made me adjust. But, I was afraid of not being able to fully adjust to the new life"

"You should be able to. I'll assume we're just starting a relationship. I assume we're dating now, but it's halal. We'll adjust to each other. We learn together. You want?" tannya

"I'll try. But I'm asking you not to force me." I said pulling my blanket.

"Ton, don't you intend to legalize this marriage?"

"you mean? Marriage in the country? To KUA?"

"That's it, don't talk about it anymore. Let's go to sleep" I said, closing my eyes.

I felt Toni had not slept, the anxiety was evident from the movement of changing position.

Until I don't know anymore, my eyes are still very tired, and asleep.

"Yu.." call him.

"How about we take care of Monday. We're clearance from the office."

My mouth closed, I gave no answer. Only that voice could still be heard in my ear.

"Yu." call him again

"Are you asleep?"

"Hmm" I can only answer with that gloom.

"Yes, get some rest, tomorrow we'll talk about it again." she fixed my blanket. I felt comfortable, and subconsciously, I hugged my roll warmly.