Angan

Dilettant

The dawn was heard. I'm ready with my water wudhuku. After the prayer, I got ready and went to Toni's house which was quite far away. I set off at dawn to avoid traffic. And I got to Toni's house, 06:30 wib.

"You're late. If this continues, later we can be late until the office" he said a little ketus.

"Hey, I'm here, not as your personal chauffeur." I replied annoyedly putting the key on the table, and I was about to leave the house.

My hands were pulled, so I turned around and almost hugged her. With his hands on his side, he held my waist.

"Breakfast first, I've made you with great difficulty"

I hit his hand.

"No, thank you. I'm going to the office by myself. Let go of me"

His hands are still around my waist.

"You should eat first, you'll get sick later, who's taking me"

"I'm not your personal driver. Untie me. I'm your guy in the office, but outside of office hours, we have nothing to do, okay?" pissed me.

"Take me off" my body thrashed. But, her strong body, even with just one hand, could lock me.

"I won't let you go before you eat"

"No need, I don't want to trouble you. I can take care of myself."

"Compulsive woman. We'll see." said Toni, still locking me up, and kissed my lips.

Plaque. A powerful slap I accidentally gave her. But it was natural, he was disrespectful to me.

I finally came out upset. And while crying. He was after me.

"Sorry, yu. Excuse me. Not what I meant"

"Already, Ton. Thats enough. I'll go to the office myself" I said, releasing his hand. But he didn't give me a chance to walk.

"I'm sorry, Yu" She hugged me, and held my head close to her chest.

"I promise it won't be like this again" he said slowly.

I saw his hand still in the cast. And it's all because of my negligence, which makes him that way. There's a sense of annoyance. But, it's all happened.

"I'm waiting in the car. Quick." I said take the car keys and get in the car.

I was crying in the car.

I remember that word. And I cried cleaning the lipstick I was wearing with a tissue.

"This lips" I said as I squeezed the lipstick I was wearing.

Toni's back, and seeing my condition. His clothes were not neat, as it was not intended to go to work. Just a t-shirt, and a suit covering his hands. But I don't care, I drive the vehicle to the office. And along the way not a word came out of my mouth. And even at the office, I kept quiet.

Ina, who's my friend across the desk, saw my condition.

"Yu, are you sick? That's pucet"

"Not really."

"You're sick"

Hearing Ina speak, Toni turned her body looking at me, but I didn't care.

I was working as usual, but someone came to me,

"Sir, there's a break, I forgot who ordered it"

"What's this?" I opened the package, chicken porridge. But who ordered.

"But I'm not cool, sir"

"But on nam mbak Ayu. Isn't Ayu Amelia's name, only 1, yes."

I'm speechless. "Yes sir, just put it there" I said and continued my work.

My phone rang, but I ignored it, I'm still cool with work.

At 9, my stomach was so sore. And the smell of chicken porridge was very tempting.

"But who ordered?" muttered.

"Maybe from a fan, Yu" Ina teased me.

"Come on, we'll eat together" I asked

"No, I had breakfast. You're the one who has to eat breakfast, your face is so pale"

I did remove the powder and lipstick I was wearing. Until I saw that people were not healthy.