Aara is Not Lara

32 Years

"Why does it feel so sad??"

"I want to cry, my eyes are hot, it's so tight God!!" Cowering under the blanket, Ara could not let out her tears.

Ara's head was heavy, her breathing was blocked and her mind wanted her to cry. Grief for no reason suddenly hit Ara, the eye patch that felt holding back the tears did not hold anything.

Clenching the grip on the left wrist that felt very painful, Ara also felt pain all over her body. As if pierced and slashed, Ara's bones felt like they were being scratched by a knife as a sharpener.

Grabbing the phone from the top of the nightstand still curled up in the blanket, Ara's right hand continued flailing. Breathe as hard as possible to breathe in the air supply that is starting to thin. Lips tremble and teeth clash like shivering in the cold.

"Where's this song!!??" Shifting indeterminate directions, Ara searches a playlist on the strains of classical piano and violin instruments to win her over.

"Hmmm... Hmmmmm... " Murmuring deheman softly, Ara exhaled slowly remnants of carbon dioxide from her lung respiration.

Opening her eyes slowly, which Ara was forced to shut, Ara still lingered in the darkness in her stuffy condition. The sound of rain water hitting the roof of the house, asphalt road, branches of trees and land sounded very clear. Screaming all her might Ara was sure that no one would be able to catch Ara's voice.

"I why??" Ara asked herself.

Drugs that must be consumed have been ingested in time. There was no shocking incident that Ara was afraid of happening, but her feelings were extremely chaotic. The desire to cry was enormous. Unlike before when the cry was also followed by a bitter laugh, this time Ara just wanted to cry.

'Do I want to be thrown away again??' Burning Ara, I don't know what else happened until Ara finally thought like that. Fortunately this time Ara's consciousness was not devoured by whispers that resembled the sound of bees constantly ringing in her brain.

"I have to sleep.. It can't be if you just wake up and go crazy again.." Say Ara as an order to herself. Yes, the eyes that have been ordered are closed, but not asleep. More than 3 hours Ara moves restlessly looking for a comfortable position so that he can sleep. Not a second Ara opened her eyelids, although it was itchy and heavy when she had to keep her eyes closed.

A subtle snoring sound rang out under the thick blanket mound, Ara had already fallen asleep half an hour ago. It took a strong struggle until his head hurt from enduring the sleepiness that was unable to put him to sleep.

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"Backk...." The sound of knocking and calling from behind the door was unable to break down the fortress that closed Ara's auditory canal. Just 2 hours ago Ara was asleep and just now Ara was entering the real dreamland gate. Not to mention that Ara was welcomed by the imperial soldiers in her imaginary world.

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The knocking sound on the door was heard again, of course, only heard for the knocker.

"Well!" Sighs in annoyance, no more tap-knocking drama. Surrender and choose to bring her footsteps down the stairs.

"Sister kebo Ma.. Don't wanna wake up." Said Rian pouting, sitting himself on the sofa of the living room staring at the television which still displays a toilet cleaner advertisement that he said was only 6 thousand rupiah.

"That's your brother's holiday.. I don't have bones.." Said Mama Lauritz who is still busy arranging fake flowers that have been washed a few days before.

"Sister's spare room key is there, isn't it Ma??" Jona asked suddenly, her brain nerves were connected to each other already had a mischievous idea.

"On the top shelf near where your brother kept the same charter certificates. What are you doing, Mama??" Mama Lauritz asked without taking her eyes off. Pretending not to know what shock will be on the 2nd floor of his house.

"Dibobol is Brother's room." Jona said without sin. "Come Yan.. We begin our mission. Prepare ammo.. We're gonna hit Brother.." Grabbing a red bean-filled mangrove that was paired with donuts, pies and fried bananas from the plate, Jona fed Rian with a glass of water. It seems that Jona is trying to add weight to Rian.

Drakes

Drakes

Drakes

Tuk

Chequelek

"ATTACK!!!!!" Shouted Jona strongly while running with Rian.

Brucks

Bugh

"YARRGHHH!!!" Ara's voice sounded almost like a male voice that has not experienced puberty alias has not changed into a heavy or masculine voice, but still distinctive.

"Laaah... Brother Saleh has come out of the Deck!! Let's attack again.."

"Shylihi.." Giggling Rian as if Ara's body was a trampoline, he stomped his feet in a lying position on top of Ara's body rolled up in a blanket.

"HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!" Ara's laughter boomed, not because of Rian, but Jona who tickled Ara's waist.

"Please.. Forgive.. Hitherto.. Haha.. Jona.. Big brother yaa!! Ahaha.." Threatened Ara in between her laughter that continued to sound.

"Huh!! Damn you!!" Ara glared at Jona and Rian who were actually being whiny. Instead of fearing bull silence, the two even looked at each other to share the signal of the next evil plan.

"Sort of Brother bite you one-on-one!!" Threatening Ara again, he had kissed her two younger siblings suspicious. When else Jona and Rian will be compact if not in the mission of squeezing, pinching and stifling alias hit Ara with both bodies that continue to grow large.

"Seraaaa...!!!" Jona and Rian said together.

"Uhukis.. Uhuk.." Choking on Ara, one of Jona and Rian's arms is both embracing her neck. From a sitting position to having to lie down again, Ara wanted to laugh at the behavior of her sisters. Honey, I love Ara very much to Jona and Rian. If she could, Ara wanted to devote her entire life to the happiness of Jona and Rian alone.

"Why is Ryan so heavy again??"

"Uhukis.. Hitherto.. I'll take a shower first.." Unforcibly embracing her sisters, Ara rushed to grab an orange towel and ran to the bathroom. This time Ara took the time to ask Mama Lauritz there are guests at home or not.

The experience witnessed with a towel will really be a shameful memory for Ara. Rava's awkward attitude last time actually makes Ara increasingly want to peel his face and leave his brain so that the memory error until it disappears permanently.

However, still on the short message that every night greeted Ara before going to bed, Rava continued to say good night even to remind Ara not to stay up again. Assuming Rava no longer cares about Ara's misfortune. Do not know Ara if Rava actually messy hand wipe replay the scene slowly in front of his eyes.

"Ma.. Want it.." Say Ara while rubbing her wet hair with a towel.

"Ask what??"

"When did Mr Rava get permission to call Mama to Mama??"

"What's the question??" Mama Lauritz asked in a seductive tone Ara.

"Seriously this is Ma.." Flicking her lips, Ara squinted her eyes at Mama Lauritz.

"Yes, Mama is serious, too, sister.."

"So when did Ma ask Mr Rava for permission??"

"Hm.. So.." Rotating her eyeballs, Mama Lauritz recalled the serious talk that only Mama Lauritz, Papa Yudith and of course Rava knew.

The Flashback

1 Month ago.

"Aunty's Morning.." Greet a mature adult male figure that looks ready for download.

"Son Rava.. Find Ara, huh??"

"I'm looking for Om same Aunt.."

"Tumbenan Rav nyari Auntie same Om??" Smiling kindly Mama Lauritz invited Rava in.

"Sorry, Auntie, early in the morning, Rava is disturbed.. You think this hour Om Yudith has not gone to the workshop."

"It's okay, Rav. Aunt call Om first yeah.." Mama Lauritz said, leaving Rava sitting nervously. He even forgot to immediately give up a basket of traditional cakes he bought to be willing to enter the market. All kinds of food and goods to the basic needs have been brought when Rava visited to meet Ara, out of stock ideas make Rava buy a variety of traditional cakes in the market he passed.

"How are you doing Rav??" Papa Yudith when he came before Rava. Standing up from his sitting position, Rava greeted Papa Yudith's hand politely.

"Healthy Om. Workshop okay Om??" Ask Rava to Papa Yudith who is actually just to mince words.

"Biasilah Rav's.. Cars that go in a lot, but on average out carry a credit note." Replied Papa Yudith with a little bitterness. Obviously a credit note aka a line of debt, no matter they are the owner of a luxury car or just a truck transporting stone, sand or even garbage.

"So what's this about seeing Om same Aunt??" Ask Papa Yudith again to Rava.

"This really does not want to be called Ara to come here?? His son again disco it's on top.." Cutting off Rava's words that have not been spoken, Mama Lauritz made sure the presence of Rava this time is really not for the mode in her daughter. Do not think Ara's parents do not know all the behavior of Rava with all into his mode in order to be alone with Ara.

"Yes, Aunt.. I was deliberately this morning someone wanted to be chatting with Aunt and Om."

"Don't you think Rav can't see Ara??" Smiling amused Mama Lauritz watched the look on Rava's face that seemed hesitant to answer his question.

"I-Yes Aunt.. Not nyesel." His tongue is able to help string words out, but the sad eyes disappointed Rava can not be hidden. There was clearly no way Rava could hold back for a day without Ara's smile. Even the lips pout Ara is also like an oasis for Rava life that feels arid.

If secretly observing is not able to materialize, then inevitably Rava will look at thousands of photos Ara taken secretly too. Illegal indeed, but Rava promised to confess his sin on that one to Ara when the two had become a husband and wife. Hopefully, Rava continues to pray and try to make his dream with Ara come true. Do not let the lips without brakes Dion make trouble before the struggle Rava to the finish line.

"Ara's ears are not on the plug Rav, but if the disco is the same oppa forget it's the same all.. A day not eating also hold, he said see handsome guys already make full. So if you want to meet let Aunt call first, in teriakin from here will not be heard." Mama Lauritz said that made Rava's eyes wide open. Wanting to rush into Ara's room, a jealous flame flared up as her hearing caught 3 words strung together in 2 consecutive annoying sentences, 'same oppa disco' and 'look at the handsome guy'.

"Haha.. Don't be surprised about Rav.. How do you want to fight for Om's child if only denger gini aja glare??" Papa Yudith's laughter resuscitated Rava. Scratching her non-itchy nape, Rava felt very embarrassed.

"Ara is very shy Rav if you have seen his oppa.. Later this is said to be a boyfriend, continues suddenly bustling, even some who have recognized the husband a lot.. Sometimes screaming is not clear while singing prancing so, even though the lyrics are sometimes said only nanana aja. Are you sure you like Ara??"

Enforcing her body, Rava stared at the eyeballs of Papa Yudith and Mama Lauritz alternately. Taking a deep breath, Rava had already rounded his resolve.

"My current age is 32. I realized that I was not just old enough, but old enough for Ara who was just 20 years old. Om and Aunty must have known also that I like Om and Aunty girls. Here I ask permission directly, I want to approach Ara for the purpose of asking her to build a household with me.." Breathing out slowly again, a sudden nervousness attacked Rava. Moreover, the next sentence that hurt his heart enough will Rava uttered.

"If later my efforts do not change the contents of Ara's heart and mind, I am willing and sincere to retreat. Ara's happiness is more important, so I'll set aside my ego to have Ara."

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Respiration: In humans, respiration is the process of taking in oxygen and the removal of waste in the form of carbon dioxide and water vapor.

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How do you respond Brother-sister the same way Rava conveyed when asking for permission??😄

About Ara why would you want to cry??😶

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