Aara is Not Lara

I'm the one who loves you

The scorching sun stung Ara's skin. Just now he stood 10 minutes already looking reddish on the surface of his skin. Moreover, his face, without being given a hue, also looks like a boiled crab. Not to mention the tingling sensation on his back due to the flood of sweat.

"Why bring me here?? Today I want to see Doctor Dion." Ara grumbled while stomping her two legs alternately.

"We're waiting for the next target." Celtap Mas Ega relax.

"Dam!! What other target?? Help me take care of that woman." The faint Ara murmur that was still able to be captured by Mas Ega's hearing.

"See that. He's our next target." Ara's eyes followed the direction of Mas Ega's index finger on the newly arrived male figure in front of an office building.

Ara's knees were squeezing. His legs suddenly seemed to be slashed away. The strong dips from Ara's heart made it harder for Ara to just breathe.

Brugh

"Strong Ra. Robust. You can." Ara said softly still in a state of sitting and bowing, Ara was only able to hear her own voice.

"..Huh ..Huh ..Huh." That deep breath slowly awakened Ara. The sound of the crowd nearby began Ara to hear back.

"Udah Mas guessed you must have a problem with that man." Said Mas Ega lirih, "Say the same Mas he did you?"

"What do you mean, Mas??" Ara looked up at Mas Ega. The wrinkles on Ara's forehead seemed to be growing.

"The beginning of all the problems because of the man, right?? Let's finish him. Face him Ra!! You have to let go of all your burdens one by one." Mas Ega said while holding both of Ara's shoulders and taking her to stand.

"This time Mas must involve you Ra. If Dinda is completely angry. But Gods.. There was once a feeling you brought that man. Aren't we?" Tanya Mas Ega stared fixedly at Ara's eyes. Ara was only able to turn her face away. His heart hurt this time.

"Why does Mas Ega know about it??" Said Ara in a heart full of question marks.

"So selfie, huh?? I'm gonna help you. Don't be afraid that you will be alone again. I'm sorry for the mistake I made that I couldn't teach him a lesson. Mas is indeed not more worthy to say kayak gini, because Mas also has this one sister Mas nyakinin. But now that you're trying, Ra, face him directly again." Continue to Ega again.

Ara justifies the speech after speech that comes out of the mouth of Mas Ega. Ara alone must face the God Bang if you want all the burden to be lost.

Given the time Ara was forced to face Hans, it was heavy as well as frightening. However, when viewed at this time, Ara's relationship is better, like a stranger who does not have problems. Although Hans was still aggressively approaching him. Luckily they had to separate the city.

It is very difficult indeed Ara released a sad shadow 4 figures that make her want to be far from men. One of the hardest years of Ara's life. When he had been able to replace the figure that had long filled his heart, that substitute figure also broke Ara's heart, even his dearest ones also left him.

Bang Dewa was the first figure to make Ara disappointed and angry at men. Second, Hans made him no longer want to believe the words of other men except Papa Yudith, Jona and Rian. As well as the third one still Ara remembered having the call 'Gus', the sweet black figure that Ara had almost destroyed 'her future' had disgusted her and hated the male figure. And Mas Ega was the last man who made Ara absolutely sure she didn't want to depend on any man. Ara wants to live alone without any men other than her Papa and Sisters.

It's sick enough to be dumped by people who still have blood ties. Ara no longer wanted to be dumped by others.

Even now seeing Mas Ega who grew up well, a little anger and envy arise because remembering how the birth of Mas Ega, his stupidity and mischievous behavior as a child then he will still be glorified. While Ara, until now as strong and as big as any effort he became a proud child will not mean anything. Not only Mama Lauritz's family, but Papa Yudith's family also did not accept her presence.

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Passing by from the incident in the office environment during the day. Ara was exhausted, not only her inner self that had just been forced to accept the past, but also the mind that was drained some of this time for evil things. It turned out that doing evil and harming things was not as easy as Ara had imagined.

"I'm sorry that I can't always be there for you. Are you happy now??" Ask the faint figure in Ara's dream. Someone in his dream was clasping Ara's fingers softly. Not long after, the figure disappeared when the voice of Nindi sister was heard calling Ara's name.

Grazing slowly Ara observed the surroundings. Her smile appeared when Ara saw her palm. His dream seemed real, as if someone really beside him was whispering and grasping his fingers gently.

"Something like this??" Doctor Dion's voice intrusion. Apparently Ara was still watching her palm until she was unaware that she had walked all the way to Doctor Dion's room.

"Sit down first. It's drinking. Must be a long time waiting for him??" Doctor Dion asked Ara softly.

"Ara was sleeping, so I don't know for long. It's good to sleep in here." Chirps cheerful Ara.

"Luckily yes yesterday gave the medicine for more than one week. So we're not late. You're so busy that the tumben asked the session to be pushed back??" Doctor Dion asked after returning to his seat.

"Hehe.. Yes Doc. There are many college assignments." Lies. Ara purposely rewinded her consulting session not because of college assignments.

Doctor Dion's sweet mouth is very good at persuading Ara to tell the truth. Ara was afraid that her evil thoughts would be read by Doctor Dion, so it was better after all her plans were carried out that she had just met her best Doctor. Although Doctor Dion almost knew the story of Ara's life, but still there were things that Ara wanted to keep for herself.

"Now, can we start a story??" If Doctor Dion had said that, then all Ara did was start telling her daily life which was about to bother her until the moment she lost control and what she was doing.

Each session of the meeting is not always Doctor Dion will give Ara a dose of new drugs. Sometimes Ara will be taught tricks to control her emotions, how to vent better than self-harm, overeating, nail biting even excessive hand washing habits that Ara must control because it is too extreme.

"Well if yesterday the picture was bored, from the story like that now you like to read novels again ya.." Doctor Dion began to think.

"Hem.. For this time the advice, try to dive into every novel character that Ara reads. Understand emotionally.. Even when the character is sad and wants to cry, Ara is okay to cry. Never hold your cry at home, baby.. If asked why nangis can show the novel. No need to be ashamed of it.." Said Doctor Dion again while commenting on her sweet smile.

"Express what you are feeling. But remember one thing, learning your own emotions is more important. You must recognize every emotion that you yourself present. Disappointed, angry, sad or just crying." Doctor Dion continued again with a smile.

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Crying if you want to cry.

Don't force a smile if it hurts you.

Stop if you are tired.

You will never be alone, there is always me around you.

^^I love you^^

A small blue paper filled with the writing. That morning Ara wanted to spend the money in the sling bag she was wearing yesterday, but Ara was surprised by the ordinary paper with the extraordinary contents for her.

Ara's worries make it a habit of biting her fingernails unconsciously she does again. Ara glanced at the paper again on that floor. Crazy indeed, but there was a sense of happiness that burst into Ara's heart. The feeling of being wanted and loved that Ara really craves makes her even happy not to be upset. Naturally Ara should tremble in fear.