Aara is Not Lara

PTSD

"Ara, are you sure you don't want to wake up? You should wake up for revenge. Your dear one has returned, for him to take all your pain back. Do I need to get rid of them first? Come on, wake up baby, give me permission." The thumb of the owner of the voice gently stroked Chubby Ara's cheeks.

"You lose if you don't wake up. You just make them all happy while your Mama and Papa suffer even more." Unconsciously Ara's fingers moved.

"Wake up and fight them, take your revenge. There is always me who supports you. Now I go first. If you still don't wake up tomorrow I'll kiss your lips Ra." The lips of the owner of the voice kissed Ara's forehead at a glance.

......Revenge......

......Wake up......

......Ara......

......Wake up......

......You lose......

The sound of heart rate monitors filling the hearing mingled with the irregular footsteps.

"Yes.." The soft and heavy voice said, "Maa.. Maaah.." Again a soft voice escaped from the pale dry lips of someone who was on one of the hospital beds.

"Hello Ara? You're finally awake." Ask someone wearing a snelli on Ara. Closing her eyes slowly, Ara observed the figure before her.

"We check the pupil first. Patience, it's a little uncomfortable." A smile from the Doctor who might be the same age as Papa Yudith while widening Ara's eyelids.

Chequelek

"Dok.. My son why??" Concerned question Mama Lauritz said. The presence of a doctor in the nursery of his child who is faster than the time of the visit makes fear arouse.

"Mama.."

Brakes

Clontang

The sound of objects falling from the pocket of crackle that Ara could believe in the form of loud echoed in the white space.

"Honey.. Are you awake, son??" Hunting towards Ara, Mama Lauritz's embrace landed gently afraid of hurting Ara's body.

"So soon, ma'am, we'll replace the infusion liquid." A sister named Vivian printed on her name tag that interferes with the moment haru mother and child who just created.

"Yes sus, please." Saying while releasing a hug on Ara.

"So, my son is okay, right?" Mama Lauritz continued to talk to the new Doctor Ara noticed her name tag has the name Alif Firmansyah.

"So far everything's fine, ma'am. But we're still monitoring it for the next 2 hours huh." Said Doctor Alif.

"Ma.. Thirsty.." Ara said to Mama Lauritz.

"Can you drink, Doc?" Asked Mama Lauritz to the Doctor, worried that he would harm his son if he carelessly gave a drink.

"Wait another 15 minutes, Dek, just finished drinking. Fast for a minute.." Like a desert to Ara the soft words of Doctor Alif.

"So, it's done." Sister Vivian cut off her third short conversation that was sure to end.

"OKAY. Remember that in 15 minutes we've just had a drink." The doctor's finger was right in front of his own face as a strong warning, "I'm sorry ma'am, would like to visit another patient soon."

Sighing resignedly Ara hoped in one blink of an eye 15 minutes soon passed. His throat was very dry and hot.

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After 3 days of being treated in a state of self-consciousness, Ara was finally allowed to go home. Ara's body condition was completely healthy because there were no serious injuries at all. In contrast to his mental condition that requires him often to the hospital for consultation or even therapy.

"Bigdhakaakkk.." Screaming cries from Jona and Rian greeted Ara's first footsteps as she set foot on the porch.

"Hully.. Mas Ganteng same Si Cimol already miss brother huha??" Chuckling amusedly Ara welcomed the embrace of her two younger brothers.

"How hot is the fat??" Embracing the arms of her two sisters, Ara took the two steps towards her room.

Chequelek

"Don't you think sister?" Ask Jona with a proud smile. It was definitely him who sprayed all sorts of perfumes and was waiting to be praised.

"Hm.. Yes, perfumed. But how many gallons of perfume?" Indeed, Ara wanted to complain because the pungent smell was Jona's favorite, but not Ara who preferred no fragrance at all. His nose is itching to sneeze.

"Just wear Mamas perfume, Mama and Papa. I think 5 sprayed just now. Ehh.. 5 what was the 9 Deck?" Asking Little Rian, suddenly the handsome forgot how many times to spray. Habits.

Passing away from her sisters, Ara opened the balcony door so that the air outside was able to carry the pressure of perfume from her room that had exceeded the threshold value.

If wastewater in natural waters needs dilution from rainwater, then at this time pollution in the room Ara needs additional concentration of free air.

"Sister!?" Mama Lauritz and Papa Yudith are on the doorstep.

"Yes Ma, why?" Ask Ara doubtfully.

"The same Mas Adek out first yes. Mama Papa wants to talk to Brother first." At the behest of Mama Lauritz, Jona and Rian exit Ara's room after peeping Ara's cheeks alternately.

Ara's body trembled as Mama and her Papa were already sitting flanking her. During this time both his parents were silent on Ara's condition. Silence does not mean not care, of course they wait for Ara to come home. Ara knew that.

"Doctor Dion.. Huh!!" A sigh of rage sounded after a name was spoken.

Hearing the name of Doctor Dion is said to make Ara know that her secret is over. Inevitably, dislike Ara must be honest as well as finally. After all, his work was definitely plastered as long as he was unconscious.

"Where's the cat scratch?"

Jlebb

The question that touched on Ara's lies felt like it was hitting Ara's heart. He has to be honest himself. His parents need Ara's own honesty and courage to express. Therefore, do not expect to be asked questions without implied intent.

"Sister really is okay. It was also unconsciously kok brother lasalin." Casual remarks addressed the questions of his parents, but not with the contents of his head that had been messed up.

"Only at certain times, such as if you are depressed, anxious excessively, the same as most if you can no longer control yourself. Doctor Dion must have told you a lot, right?" Ara continued to end with pleasantries asking. Ara of course knew that his mental condition must have been revealed by the handsome Doctor Dion.

"Sorry, my dear Mama.. It should give you a good environment to grow." Covering her face with both palms, Mama Lauritz was already sobbing.

This was what made Ara want to keep her pain a secret. It is enough to see both parents sad because humans do not know themselves. Ara was very unwilling to add sorrow to her condition.

It felt terrible for Ara to have to call him a human yet more respectable wild beast. It was so crowded to know that it was still together breathing air above the surface of the earth.

"PTSD can heal Ma Pa. It's just sick, not crazy either. Ara's soul is only sick, not damaged until it is lost forever. Doctor Dion has helped Ara a lot this year." Staring at his parents alternately, "Everything that happens is not the will of all of us, Ara also does not want to be convinced. If you can, Ara wants to be able to fly freely through the storm without fear of Ara's wings breaking. But unfortunately Ara's wing was broken first."

Ara's body was captured in Papa Yudith's arms. From that time Papa Yudith did not say much even more precisely silent, but in his Papa's arms Ara could feel the sturdy body was holding back crying.

"Don't worry anymore, Pa. Although the broken wing can not return to fly, but Ara can still run to Ara's dream. If Ara is tired of running, she can still walk." Continue Ara while rubbing the back of the figure who always stands firmly in front of him.

"Although Ara stopped fighting, Ara knew Mama and Papa would never stop fighting for Ara. I'm at this moment." Taking off Papa Yudith's arms, Ara held the hands of her parents.

"Until my soul remains I will no longer give up. Until those fuckers beg for mercy I won't let go either." Staring straight at the fingers of her feet Ara grew furious, the silent look of her eyes instantly turned sharp, ruthless and full of anger.

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Snelli: doctor’s white coat or doctor's coat which is the protective or outermost limit to the patient's body fluids and other fluids, such as blood, amniotic, phlegm, and so forth.

Visite: Visits to inpatients with a team of doctors and other health workers.

Threshold Value: A measure for the environment that states the limit of the level of pollution or disturbance allowed to affect the environment, in accordance with applicable provisions.

PTSD: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or posttraumatic stress disorder is a mental disorder that makes sufferers remember the traumatic events that arise after someone experiences or witnesses an unpleasant event.