Aara is Not Lara
Going home??

"Here Mama compress her hands."

"Sick Ma." Complain Ara.

"Hold on a second, don't be reckless!!" Mama Lauritz said as she glared at Ara.

Ara grimaced with pain and pain. In the grip above Mama Lauritz's lap Ara's right hand was being compressed with cold water.

It seems that Ara's cheap tricks are no longer capable of deceiving Mama Lauritz. A splashy welcome when Ara came home almost before night had made Ara confused. The jacket arm that Ara deliberately made to the right side was immediately revealed by Papa Yudith and ended up in the current condition.

"So your Papa was up to the news of Brother falling on campus. Tumben this morning left quickly." Mama Lauritz said while gently pressing the side of Ara's hand that did not bruise.

"Huh?" Ara gawking in wonder. I don't know what Mama Lauritz meant. Ara did not go to campus, he slept dead stone style even slitting kebo in Bang Gilang's rented.

"It's also customary for Brother to speed on the road Papa there is news from temen, this is even to fall can not know." Replaced Papa Yudith said that made Ara more confused.

"Yes, Pa. Apparently fell on campus. Why try to fall until his hand overrides the motorcycle?? Strangely enough.. Usually just be a parking attendant until the motor is lifted up. Tumben really does lemes."

Swearing with all her might, Ara was already very confused and did not understand what her parents were talking about. What could be that Ara had amnesia and her memory was switched or even her brain nerves were accidentally severed and misconnected. Those are the questions that revolve around Ara's head. Does Ara have to bang her head into the corner of the table to wake up?

"What the hell is Ma??" Tanya Ara finally wanted to resolve the confusion that plagued.

"So Papa's in your lecturer's chat.. He was told his son had fallen into a motorbike of people in the campus parking lot." Mama Lauritz said as she glanced at Papa Yudith with a mocking look.

"So Papa was already possessed to want nyamperin Brother to open the motorbike where shocked the motorbike is at home." Still compressing Ara's hand, Mama Lauritz continued to say.

"Papa didn't read the chat really. The words Big Brother, fall, the same motor is thought by Brother fell when he brought the motor." Mama Lauritz said again.

"There is also a good thing your Lecturer when he came yesterday to ask for Papa Kak's number.. Kirain was so want to take his car to the workshop, it turns out the news so don't worry if his son is injured." Smiling with relief Papa Yudith grabbed the sofa cushion to hug her.

"Sir Rava??"

"Who is Brother??"

"Ah.. What does Mr Kim mean?? His name is Rava. Ask to be called Mr. Rava, but Brother has a habit of calling Mr. Kim. It was just a blunder to be true." Said Ara trying to justify and explain the previous call.

"Yes. I used to come as if to ask permission to take Papa's children weekly even though it was still Friday. Be careful, brother.. Have a crush on you that's Mr. Lecturer."

Deg

"Sokay know." Said Ara ketus to the Papa to cover her nervousness.

"Father told you Mama.. Didn't you think Mama was great if you guessed that kind of problem?? But why not take the opportunity to send you home, brother?? Even ride this ojek of yours.. Missing the point that Papa wants to give to the new candidate Mama." Papa Yudith played both of her eyebrows up and down to tease Ara.

"Udah Pa's.. No need to be that god.. Wear all handsome sok. Now tell me directly to Ara what's the matter at home." Mama Lauritz said that suddenly made the atmosphere tense. Ara could see the burden, anxiety and dislike from the eyes of her parents.

"We need to go home. Grandma Mira is sick." Brief, clear, dense and unsheathed the heart of Ara.

"Dam!!" Grins. Ara wanted to laugh loudly for no reason.

"Our house is here, Pa.. There's no place to go."

"Honey.. Nek Mira is Mama's mother. No matter what your attitude is, the same blood flows through your body." Mama Lauritz said softly. The swipe on Ara's arm seemed to say she should not behave as she is right now.

Recalling the same word of blood flowing in her body from the many figures that also hurt her heart, Ara wanted to tear apart the flesh and drain her blood. Ara's brain was already filled with a lot of crazy things to hurt herself. Wanting Ara to run to the kitchen and take the butcher knife to cut, throw away everything that was still in contact with the savage humans for her.

"Even if there is no blood relation, we cannot be so deeply vengeful. You'll be sick alone. Especially this time Grandma asked us to go home with the family. Grandma must be missing her granddaughter." Mama Lauritz's voice still felt soft in Ara's hearing.

"Haha.. Kangen??" Ara lirih. His laughter was full of wounds.

Ara's eyes turned soft. Not not not wanting Ara to feel missed by the middle-aged figure, but her heart was already broken. His soul has been crushed. Now words will not be able to treat everything that has become ashes held by Ara.

"Tonight we get ready for a little dress. We're only 2 days there. Jona is the same Rian can not permit the same school for a long time. It's a pleasure not to learn those kids." Papa Yudith said, rising from his seat leaving Ara and Mama Lauritz.

"Ma.. Can we just stay with Jona Rian again??"

"They were little Ma.. It's better they don't know Mama's or Papa's family than they have to digerasain directly kayak where dumped it." Ara pleaded with Mama Lauritz. His hands shook with a plea to Mama Lauritz.

"Mama please Brother.. Sorry Grandma yes.. This could be Grandma's last request.."

"I mean Ma??" Frowning, Ara looked at Mama Lauritz in surprise.

"Your mother called you to tell me Grandma asked us to go home.. Grandma at the hospital, was critical and when we woke up immediately asked us to be told to go home. Heart disease's recurred."

"Why is it now Ma?? Why do you think you're going to die and meet us??" Sarcass Ara. His respect is gone. Brushing Mama Lauritz's hand aside, Ara ran to the bathroom on the outside of the house.

Anger is only desirable in the last moments. Ara was reminded of Eyang, Grandma of Mama Lauritz. The brief affection that Ara could feel from the figure of Eyang before death separated them right the next day. All are just impostors. They only wanted to be free from the burden before facing God, whereas Ara who was left with a brief happiness was only able to lament her fate. Crying and only crying can Ara do. He was tired of begging for love.

Inside the square room the rustling of tap water that is deliberately turned on fills up to camouflage the obscure soft sounds. Leaning against the side of the wall near the door, Ara stared blankly at the wasted water.

While in the other part of the room both his parents and younger siblings were busy packing. Jona and Rian are forced to take a no-school permit to come back to K. Want Ara to shout reject the invitation of Papa Yudith and Mama Lauritz. Want Ara to go berserk over the decision to bring Jona and Rian. Wanting Ara to take both of her sisters away, hiding both of them as long as Ara can, but unfortunately she is also unable to hurt her parents.

Imagining the sad faces of her sisters when faced with rejection made Ara angry and also frightened. As long as Ara lived, she only wanted the laughter and happy smile that adorned her sister's face. Even during the 10 years of life Rian never knew other families besides Mama Lauritz, Papa Yudith, Ara and also Jona. How should Ara behave when her favorite sisters are hurt??

"What if they're insulted too??" Mumbled Ara.

"Will they cry like I used to??" The right thumb nail was right on Ara's lips.

"No!! No!! Can't do. There I am now. I-i can. I am stronger. Even Aunty Laura has become poor because of me. They're just cunning fools."

"Do I have to do that?? But.. Huh!! If Mama Papa is sad it's all my fault. But if I do, we can't go to K." Mumbled softly and sighed violently. Ara needed to breathe even though Ara's breath was blocked.

"Hanging yourself? No way, later his tongue comes out the same as his eyes bulging. Drinking poison? Later if the convulsions continue stiff must also glare, where must be his mouth dirty. Do you have to jump into the sea or river? If it later turns into a bloated fish or puffer fish his body is also ugly. That is if you have not eaten fish or crocodiles. Should I cut my veins again?" Ara said in her heart, almost her thumb nail had been bitten all over. The frown on his forehead also indicates he is thinking seriously.

"Aleout?? I don't even have the courage to cut my veins.. Just a thin skin is not how much." Said Ara laughing at her life. Laughing and crying in unison, that was what Ara wanted right now.

"Huh!!"

Chequelek

After confining herself in the bathroom for almost an hour, Ara wanted to win her over first. Standing on her thick mattress, Ara raises the volume of her phone as much as possible. Online video streaming app Ara open.

"Ne saranghae's.. Dradan.. Dradan.. And and.. Saranghae.. Dradan.. Dradan.. And and.. From saranghae.."

"CRAZY BOY!!!" Shouted Jona deafening Ara's eardrum. The handsome young man who grew up as a teenager looked fiercely at Ara who jumped, prancing while swaying furiously on her bed.

"Curtain!! It's noisy!! Sing it." Ara blabbed her lips towards Jona

"What's that dance-and-dan singing!?? It's weird!!" Said Jona sneering at Ara while pulling a medium-sized black suitcase.

"That's the sound of the music effect tau!! Here's!! Drandan drandan, right??" Said Ara again play the song titled 'I Love You' from the Korean boy band Treasure ginseng.

"It is not necessary to be followed also by the brother if not the lyrics." Jona said, anxious to fold her sister into a sack and thrown away.

"This is whose suitcase is it??" Said Jona who was already sitting on the floor of Ara's room. His index finger leads to a suitcase that is locked padlock in between the closet covered in a large black cloth.

"The campus organization. It's not important, it's just old documents.. Tipped over with Brother." Said Ara as she approached the suitcase that Jona meant and fixed the exposed covering cloth.

"Where are my clothes now?? Mama says we're all three of these suitcases."

"Just leave it there, later Brother pack it himself. Mending playing the same game as Rian below." Ara's actual speech drove Jona away subtly.

"Asiatic.. Dear Brother.."

Cup

"That's.. Wet my cheeks!! The habit of his lips is made to bloom let spit!!" Rubbing her left cheek roughly, Ara glared at Jona.

"Haha.. Wek!!" Poking her tongue in the doorway, Jona ran away as fast as lightning leaving Ara's room.

Both sides of Ara's lips were pulled upwards. A happy smile seemed to adorn Ara's face. Just a glance, it was just 5 seconds and changed into a grim face. His expression was very flat, his eyes felt empty, there was a void in the recesses of his heart.

The mixed taste is changing. Ara will smile again, but as soon as lightning will turn again into anger, sadness, fear, and the last he will be pensive with a blank look. Ara seemed to be a double personality, but once again Doctor Dion once emphasized to Ara that he only experienced the effects of unstable emotional waves. Not a bipolar patient, but a PTSD sufferer.

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Leaning her head on the side of the car window, Ara stared at the scene outside which was constantly changing. Up to an hour's drive, the car stops at a red light at a crossroads. Ara's eyes were rounded when 3 human figures were busy fighting without caring about the surroundings. Ara lowered the glass of the car she was riding in, hoping that her third voice could be heard. Yes, eavesdropping is Ara's goal.

"I'm not ashamed on the side of the road. Young people today." Mama Lauritz shook her head while watching the drama of 2 men and a beautiful woman. Although only dominated by the outburst of anger of one man.

"It turns out you are cheap!! We broke up!!" Jerking the man who had also seen Ara was red full of anger.

"No!! Not like that.. He's got me." Female defense gown sabrina dusty pink knee-length.

"Ck!! Temen on the bed you mean!!?" Ara closed her mouth when she heard the words of the figure who wanted to chop her finely and kick the knee out. So did Mama Lauritz and Papa Yudith who went wild. Ara sure must be all the people who wait for the red light to change this time willingly if a little longer have to wait for the sake of live broadcast like a soap opera of mined fish.

A disdainful smile Ara had given when a pair of eyes stared at him fixedly. The flirtatious blink of Ara's left eye was not to tease, but to insult more deeply and lower the self-esteem of the figure who Ara was also looking at at at the time. Ara did not care if it would be considered to be another group of evil women. Even so, Ara realized that her behavior was not much different from the people who had destroyed her. Angrily saturate Ara on the blood that indeed could not lie.

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Bipolar: A disorder associated with extreme mood swings ranging from depressive/pressed lows to highs/beads, which can make the sufferer experience feelings of joy and excessive enthusiasm and never subside (often called mania) at one time, at a time, and then can experience matchless sadness at other times that occur alternately.

So it is clear that PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) is different from Bipolar disorder (Depressive Manik)

Does anyone remember what PTSD is?😄

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