The way I love you

218 Fear

Lately, Dhea has been feeling very anxious. He is worried about the delivery process later which will be done by cesarean. She is afraid, in addition to this first experience, must cesarean, give birth early, also her condition is not like pregnant women in general.

Can I do it?

The thought that continues to rage it actually makes Dhea stress, and makes her stomach cramp. Dhea grimaced softly, rubbing her moving belly due to her son's kick.

What if my son grew up without a mother?

Dhea bit her lips, her tears coming out without her being able to prevent. He does not want his son to feel the same way as himself, although he also knows, that his son will still be luckier than him.

There are Vean, and their families who will give maximum affection for their children later.

The sound of water keean that was no longer heard in the bathroom, made Dhea slightly tilt her body. The woman closed her eyes, holding back her sobs and the shocks on her shoulders.

As Vean felt closer, Dhea relaxed her body, pretending to be asleep.

Vean slid down next to Dhea. Hugging his wife from behind.

"I love you" whispered Vean quietly.

Vein closed her eyes, inhaling deeply the scent of Dhea. The smell of the baby makes him happier with his life.

Feeling that Vean was asleep, Dhea opened her eyes again. Those tears were still dripping, even more so. The shadows of the past go back to spinning without orders.

How was he growing up in an orphanage.

How Arya who always takes care of him and invites him to play.

How he first entered school without being accompanied by both parents.

How she feels envious of her friends, but also learns not to complain, because she knows, she's not the only one who feels all this.

How he first met Fio, the lucky girl who had everything.

How he saw the togetherness of Fio and Vean.

How he first left the country.

How he's between life and death.

Everyone, everyone was present in his memory. Obsessing one by one the events that make a wound, whether intentional or not.

The body was getting shaken.

That worry made his stomach contract a little. It is difficult to control anxiety in the midst of pregnancy with all the problems of pregnancy like her.

Dhea regulated her breathing many times, trying to calm herself down. Trying to make sure everything's okay.

But hard.

Like whatever people say.

God has determined.

The wise mind says, do not worry about anything, because God determines. Life, fortune, soul mate, is in the hands of the Creator.

Bad thoughts reply, precisely because God determines, then we do not know what will happen. Not necessarily good things can happen as we expect.

Of course this inner warfare increasingly makes the mind tangle.

As she felt Vean move, Dhea closed her eyes again. He felt Vean's involuntary hand stroking his stomach slowly. Makes her feel a little comfortable.

I've been through hard times, even harder than this. When I have to go through everything alone, but I can convince myself that I can deal with everything.