The Ultimate Soulmate's

Only I Fight for You

"Hana! Listen to oppa first!" yongju yelled from inside his car, but I did not listen to him and continued running to my room, not even paying attention to the eomma that passed me at the entrance of the house. "What's this about? Did you guys fight?" eomma asked, but neither of us answered. It seemed, my heart suddenly ignited emotions hearing Yongju's words earlier. "Damn! Hana has never been like this before," Yongju muttered as she caught up with me. While eomma just let out a long sigh seeing me running and Yongju chasing after me. Eomma chose to return to the office and let us as usual because it was useless to try to stop the quarrel between me and Yongju. Eomma knew very well, only Yongju could persuade me.

I got to my room, but when I closed the door, Yongju held him back with his hands. "Listen to the oppa explanation!" he said gasping while looking at me. And in the end, Yongju won. I walked into the room and let him follow me in. I took off my sweater in front of him in a fit of annoyance and threw it in just about any place. Yongju looked at me from behind, "Hana, you should know, you have changed and may have become a thorny rose for me, but in the eyes of other men, you are still a rose that is easy to pick!" yongju said in his heart.

"Oppa is just worried. Seeing him who dared to hug you at school, oppa was afraid that the child was just playing you," Yongju said. I stopped my steps, "so, oppa really saw it!" I think I remember Namgil trying to kiss me earlier. "Did oppa see it?" askaku. "What?" yongju asked flatly, "seeing that kid is trying to kiss you?" he continued, which immediately made me turn around without realizing that Yongju was standing right behind me.

Bruk! I hit Yongju accidentally, even Yongju's lips touched my forehead. I who was surprised to realize it, suddenly retreated my steps in panic. Greb! Yongju held my almost unsteady body with her hands coiled around my waist. Degs... Degs... Degs... My heart was pounding incoherently in his arms. I can even smell her perfume that I like. For a moment, we were silent, until a question Yongju asked me. "Did you hear that, Hana?" tanyanya slow. I fell silent not understanding, but a moment later I realized that it wasn't just my heart pounding.

"You're the one who makes oppa's heart beat like this. Oppa doesn't know since when, but now oppa wants you to know the contents of oppa's heart. Oppa also wants to be your oppa, not just your cousin, even though oppa knows our feelings cannot be intertwined," Yongju said in a trembling voice. Then, he shifted his hand from my waist to my cheek. "Honestly, oppa wants to kiss you all the time. Maybe all this time, oppa can divert the eyes of oppa from you, but oppa still can not divert the heart of oppa from you," he explained as he stared fixedly at the two balls of my eyes.

I blinked my eyes, trying to digest what I just heard. "Should I start? Being a monster that preys on whales in front of you?" yongju thought as his attention turned to my lips. "Hana, give your heart oppa and oppa will give you everything you have," Yongju asked before gently tucking my lips. Finally, my first kiss was taken by my cousin's sister. A gentle kiss from the lips belongs to my first love.

Given how I felt about Yongju all this time, I should be happy today when I heard him tell me his true feelings, but why am I crying again. Especially when Yongju himself jerked with his actions to reverse his steps and more jolted when he saw tears dripping on my cheeks. Yongju looked at me with a look that I could hardly understand. "I'm sorry." That one word only came out of his mouth and rushed away from me. In his quick steps, Yongju regretted his actions. "Why did I do it? Why do I feel like I have made a big mistake and sin? Should I go back and apologize again?" he thought hesitatingly at the slow pace.

While elsewhere, Namgil was thinking about what he did to me this afternoon. "Why did you reject me? Is it not enough that we are a couple?" he thought as he stared at the screen of his phone. "You also always reply to my chat with a potluck, even very short," he muttered who noticed our chat in a chat that was very short and seemed boring.

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Whereas, I was in the room still daydreaming with thoughts, "what does oppa really mean to say? Doesn't oppa know what's best for us? In fact, our feelings are still off limits and I'm starting to understand that." I lay myself on the bed and covered my body with a blanket. I choose to curl up in it, not even caring about the miaw who came to want to spoil me. "So, now for me, it's enough to look at you from below as a fan and a sister who has always supported you. Not more!" break me in my heart. "I will put this feeling on my shoulders because I can't do anything about this feeling of ours" I smiled bitterly as usual. I touched my own lips with wet eyes until without me noticing, I fell asleep in my sleep and did not know how many times my phone vibrated.

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Namgil was still staring at his phone screen, waiting for a reply from me after he apologized via chat to me. "Why don't you retaliate? Are you angry?" he muttered alone. "Look, you never even said you liked me or not. How do you feel about me?" mumbling again. "Are you really angry because I was in too much of a hurry? But if not.." he thought it was cut off because of a long sigh. "Haaaah... Is it this hard? I just want to be your girlfriend" she said with her pouting face.

Mats... Tak... Mats... The clockwork sound that kept moving, made Namgil's feelings even more unkillful. Since returning home from school, the young man was restless waiting for news from me. Every now and then, he tapped on his phone screen, put it in his ear and called me back, but for a long time it sounded in his ear, still no answer. "Darling, are you asleep?" chat again after several missed calls. "Are you angry?" ask him for the umpteenth time. "If you're angry, you can punish me, but please don't be like this" he asked.

Minutes passed and Namgil was still faithfully waiting for my reply. "Hey, am I a stranger to you until you're acting this way to me? Do you know, I keep thinking about it. I love you," he chatted again, hoping I'd reciprocate after he said his love. "Stop getting angry. Don't confuse me. If you're still angry, let's make a deal. When and how many times can I kiss you? Also how many times a day can I call you like this?" she wrote with a pouting face.

"If we had to make it, would you feel better? The darling? Don't sleep! Reply! Don't you want to forgive me? Actually, what am I to you?" type it one last time before giving up and turning to his dreamland. "I also want to be noticed, like I'm watching you. I want to be missed too, just like I miss you. I also want to be searched when I don't tell you. It seems, it's only me who's fighting after you" said Namgil in his dream.