The Ultimate Soulmate's

How Can I Be Happy If You Go

When I woke up from fainting a few minutes later, eomma asked me to get ready and said the Jeon family's private plane was ready to take us back to Korea. We had to hurry to the airport. "What about oppa?" ask me at that time. "Of course, Yongju will stay" he said. "Hana, remember! From today eomma forbids you to meet Yongju! You can't be in touch anymore!" eomma said firmly. "But, eomma.." I said. "There's no buts! Don't argue! Don't embarrass eomma and appa! You're cousins and you already have a fiance, Hana! Do you want to make trouble for eomma and appa!" snapped eomma.

"From today, you can only leave the house accompanied by a driver or Daehyun!" continued eomma. "Appa will also check your phone periodically and if you are caught still in contact with Yongju, Appa will punish you both. Understood!" sahut. "Alright, appa. Hana understood," I said as I nodded with a sad face, but not a single tear fell from my eyes because maybe without me realizing it, I had prepared myself for all this. Honestly, it hurts my heart and it's hard to part with Yongju because after all I've spent more than half my life with him. But I also realized that sooner or later it would all end like this.

With a shunt step, I pulled my suitcase. I said goodbye to Mr and Mrs Jeon, after the driver who was going to take us to the airport, took the suitcase out of my hand and put it in the trunk of the car. The driver opened the door for Appa and Eomma. But after my parents got in the car, and the driver opened the car door for me, I ran back into the mansion. "Hana!" scream eomma. I kept running and didn't care about the cries of my parents calling me. "Attent. Just for a moment, let me meet oppa for the last time," I said with tears that finally escaped unstoppable.

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"Hana?" said Seojun who immediately stared as he opened the door of Yongju's room and saw me running through into the room. Even I hit Junghwa who was blocking my way. "Hana!" yelled at Appa who was following behind. "What else do you want to do, Hana? Come on, come on home right now!" continue after pulling my body out of Yongju's room. Yongju got up when he heard my name being called.

"Appa, release!" I said, "please, appa. Just for a moment, I want to talk to oppa. I promise, I will go home after this," I continued, trying to let go of Appa's hand that pulled my hand. "No! Go home now!" snapped appa, without minding my whining. "Appa! I promise, I will obey all wishes of appa and eomma, but please give me this one chance to talk. I beg you, appa," I said again.

"Hana.." said Yongju softly as he hesitantly approached me and Appa as he looked at my grimacing face in pain. "Shut up at your place, Yongju!" snapped at his eyes when he realized Yongju was stepping towards us. "Please, you two, stop this!" snapped appa again. Bugh! Yongju suddenly knelt down before Appa, "Pardon us, appa. I know, it's all my fault. If Appa wants to punish us, punish me. But please, let go of Hana's hand. Hana's in pain, appa," she asked very much.

"Hurry up, we don't have much time!" say appa after sighing heavily. Hearing this, eomma let go of my hand and let me approach Yongju who was still kneeling. "Oppa, wakeup!" I said while helping him to wake up. After making sure Yongju had stood up, I hugged her as I said, "Oppa, thank you for everything all this time and sorry that I can't get back at everything." I let go of my arms and resumed saying, "I will leave now and as I leave this house, I hope all the feelings between us are also left here and afterwards happy with our own path."

"Hana, what do you mean? Although I know this will not change as I wish, but I can't just erase this feeling" Yongju said, trying to grab my hand as I began to step back from her. I pulled my hand so that Yongju would not grab it. I smiled while crying. "Oppa was my first love, but ever since I realized that this was all a mistake, I often asked, will I be able to find him, the man who really loves me as sincerely as oppa? Who will my soul mate be? And how many names do I have to meet until I find the one last name that will be my soul mate? But I'm sure Oppa's name can never be one of them!" I continued, slowly stepping back.

"Meeting and loving oppa is not my will. Destiny brought us together. And letting go of oppa is not my wish either, but I still have to do it. Although this is very painful for me because no matter what the reality is, we will not be able to have each other" I said with a bitter smile. Yongju shook his head when he heard that. "Please stop saying all this. Shut up, Hana! Don't continue your words!" he said he came back sobbing. In his heart, Yongju was still trying to deny the reality.

"Let's understand, oppa, this is best for us because no matter what fate may make us never be together and have each other," I continued sobbing when I saw Yongku back on the floor with resignation. "Hana... Oppa please... Shut your mouth." she said softly and was cut into pieces by her sobs. Even now it was not only the two of us who shed tears, but all the eyes that saw our farewell.

"I beg you, release me, oppa. Let me go. Oppa has to let me go. Oppa must also let me to let go of oppa. I need oppa to do it for me," I said again as I squeezed my chest that felt so painful when I said it. "Free our feelings, oppa. Believe me, slowly we can free ourselves from these feelings. And rest assured, even if we are not together, one day we will be happy for another reason. Goodbye, oppa," I said as I walked away from Yongju. "No, Hana. When you find another happiness, that day I will cry on you. How can I be happy, if you who have always been my happiness have chosen to leave me.." said Yongju softly with both hands clenched on the floor.