The Ultimate Soulmate's
Tell Me If This Pain Is Not Even Real
Cracks! A sound of something cracking woke Yongju from his sleep. Junghwa was shocked when the glass he had just placed on the nightstand beside Yongju fell asleep, suddenly cracking by itself. "I made hyung hot camomile tea to relieve hyung hangover. I don't know why the glass suddenly cracked like this" Junghwa said staring at the glass in confusion. "The cracks are big too! Sorry hyung, let me replace it with a new glass. Maybe the water is too hot" Junghwa said, returning to the kitchen with the glass.
Meanwhile, several times Yongju blinked his eyes, trying to gather his consciousness. The sound of a crack from the glass made him daydream, "A voice filled with indecision" he thought. His head still felt heavy, making Yongju try to close his eyes and ears for a moment, but he could not sleep anymore. For some reason, he suddenly felt worried about me. Then, he rousing his phone and again tried to contact me, but not connected. Yongju got up and hurried to clean up.
Not long after, Junghwa returned with the same tea, but with a different glass. Junghwa handed the tea to Yongju who had just come out of the bathroom after a hasty shower. Yongju welcomed the tea, but suddenly the glass cracked as well. Although this time the crack was very small, Yongju remained frozen to see it and his heart grew more agitated. "What's this?" muttered. "What's wrong with this tea?" junghwa said more and more confusedly staring at his homemade tea. "Here, hyung, let me make you the one you just made!" said annoyed. "No need. Throw it!" sahut Yongju handed over the glass to Junghwa.
After that, Yongju rushed to contact me again, but because my phone was broken, the call was still not connected. Then, he switched to eomma to ask me about my situation, but when eomma said his ignorance of being in Japan and asked him back, Yongju chose to remain silent and not answer him. He chose to be quiet for me because he was confused between fearing that this unwarranted worry would come true or vice versa, all these worries were just delusions that would worsen our relationship.
***
The sun went down beautifully, shining its warmth before being replaced by the moon of the night. I woke up after feeling aching all over my body and pain at some point of my body. I blinked my eyes when I found Daehyun lying next to me covered in a blanket from her waist down. Then, I ventured to touch her, hoping that this was just a dream. Slowly but surely, my hand touched her shoulder and my eyes closed as I felt my touch was so real. "It's not a dream!" I thought as I began to curse myself. I began to cry over my stupidity and regret the mistakes I made.
The deg! Suddenly Daehyun caught my hand on his shoulder as he woke up with his pair of open eagle eyes staring intently at me. "Dear awake?" he asked, without any intention of letting go of my hand. My hands began to tremble as he pulled her and kissed her asking, "Darling to want more?" I heard it, suddenly goosebumps and immediately shook my head, "sick.." I barely heard. My voice seemed to disappear because I did not stop crying and screaming because it was a few hours ago. The pain in my throat got worse after I woke up.
I pulled the blanket up to my neck, trying to cover my innocent body behind it, but Daehyun did not care and with his grin, he again overcame me. My breath was held and my tears spilled. "Godly you know, oppa never wanted to sleep with the same girl for the second time," he said casually as he stared fixedly at the face of my pillow which I believe now must look messy. "But it seems, dear has made oppa change the oppa principle. If it's dear, any time, it's ok!" he continued to be satisfied with a smile, then pulled my chin.
"Honey is the first virgin oppa girl, oppa fiancee, oppa wife candidate and oppa woman," she said with manly while biting her lower lip with sexy. "Your feelings are amazing, baby! Thank you!" whisper in my ear. "Evil! Evil oppa!" I said while beating his chest with both hands, while Daehyun himself just silently received all my blows. Plakk! One slap that I gave right hit his face and suddenly made him look at me giddy, making my guts instantly shriek in fear. Daehyun never looked at me this sharp. He caught both hands and held them. Without further ado, he kissed me violently. He did it again, even more brutally than before.
After becoming an outlet of his anger and lust, I slowly got out of bed to go to the bathroom. Really, my body feels crumpled dimly made. "Did you love going to the bathroom?" tanyanya who had been silent watching me. I did not answer and ignored him, but as I started to step, I felt a sting in one spot of my body that forced me to stop my steps for a moment with a grimacing face. "Here, let oppa help!" he said he got up and approached me. Still without saying anything, I avoided it. Slowly and slightly limped, I passed in front of him.
Srett! Unexpectedly, Daehyun suddenly carried me and took me to the bathroom. "Do you need oppa to help with the bath?" her tanya with her gentle voice made my face heat up. I pushed him right out of the bathroom door and closed it. Daehyun who understands now I do not want to be disturbed also gives me space for myself. "Alright, oppa wait in the room. If you need anything, call oppa. After this, we go home" he said at the bathroom door.
While I was in the bathroom, did not hear it because I was silent in front of the mirror. My eyes were perfectly rounded when I saw my reflection in the mirror. My gaze grew even more intense as I traced inch by inch my white skin. "How can an oppa make a reddish mark almost all over my body?" muttered. I couldn't believe what I saw. Even both of my wrists turned slightly blue due to the grip earlier.
I cry alone again. "It's dirty!" I said alone. I rubbed the soap with my hands against my skin, hoping that all the red marks would disappear. I even repeated my bath over and over again, but none of it was erased. I screamed hysterically. Then, my body slowly slumped to the floor. I was crying so much. Really, now I feel like my body is so dirty.
Daehyun who heard my voice, immediately ran into the bathroom. It instantly shut off the water that washes me. "Hey, why is baby crying?" her soft tan that immediately embraced me, no matter the clothes she was wearing was also wet exposed to my innocent body that was silent under the shower. "Let go!" I snapped while pushing it hard to the point of falling. After grabbing the towel, I immediately walked out of the bathroom while covering my body with the towel earlier.
Daehyun threw the knife in his hand and immediately hugged me. "I'm sorry oppa. Oppa doesn't know it's going to be like this" he said, feeling guilty as he tightened his arms. "Honey angry at oppa? Want to hit oppa? Hit it! Hit the oppa wherever you want, but don't be like this. Don't hate oppa, yeah!" he continued, hitting my hand against his cheek. Daehyun looked worried to see me. "Bad Oppa!" I said on the sidelines of my cry with a raucous voice while hitting his chest slowly because it felt like my energy was over.
"Well, oppa is wrong, oppa is evil, oppa is a jerk, but oppa really loves dear" he continued, hugging me tightly. "Don't cry anymore, huh? We can talk about this all right. Stop crying! Believe me, whatever happens, oppa will be responsible. Honey believes in oppa, doesn't she? We're engaged, someday we'll be married too" he said softly. He kissed my forehead gently after wiping my tears, then looked at me gently and said solemnly, "Oppa please, don't think like that. Oppa loves you."
Seeing Daehyun's earnestness, I hugged her, threw myself into her lake-like embrace that had already drowned me and harbored my crying voice. In silence, Daehyun kept hugging me until I calmed down. Without him noticing, I fainted in his arms. My body was cold as ice because it took too long to bathe. Daehyun who finally realized I was still motionless immediately tried to wake me up by repeatedly calling me.
In my subconscious, I had a dream that happened a few hours ago when Daehyun forced me to, even though I myself lost control of being under the medicine he gave me. It was his dream that I briefly came to, because I woke up again after hearing Daehyun's voice calling me in panic. "Water.." I said slowly, I mean I want to clean my body again. Daehyun who thought I needed drinking water, rushed to get me the mineral water available in this room. As long as he did, I woke up to the bathroom. I felt pain in my body again. The pain that seemed to have become the scourge of my pain that felt like a torment to me.
"Darling?" call Daehyun confusedly looking at me. I kept walking towards the bathroom. "Darling!" call her from her place gently. This time, I looked towards him. Daehyun gave her smile. "Come here! Don't think of anything! Don't intend to do anything! There's an oppa here. Oppa's not going anywhere. We will always face it together" he said, stretching out his hands. Daehyun knew, there was something strange about me since then, but he didn't know what. All he knew was all this because of him and this was all he could do to persuade and calm me down.
Looking at her sincere smile, "Did I lose myself? Or am I the one who grabbed the oppa?" racauku involuntarily ran towards him, even I don't care about the pain I feel. I wanted to hug her again, but she cupped my face and checked my eyes. "The gaze is empty, but thank God there is still my face in it" he said in his heart. Daehyun kissed my lips for a moment. "After this, no matter what happens, oppa won't leave me alone, will it?" I said while hugging him. "How scared is it baby, oppa leave? Yes, oppa will never leave dear," he replied.
"Please, don't say anything. Whatever you fear, grab the oppa hand. Don't think, dear alone face it," he said, again covering my lips with his lips. "After all, oppa has to take responsibility for making me like this!" whinek. "Yes, oppa must be responsible. In the future, no matter what happens, we will always be together and oppa swore, will marry dear" he said. "Calm down! But in the end, we will get married too. Believe me, spring will come someday. Let it all melt and flow as it should" he continued, stroking my hair.
***
Meanwhile, Yongju was getting more and more unsettled waiting for my news. "Tell me that my heart is not real" he murmured. "What's up, hyung?" asked Junghwa who had seen his brother's anxiety. "What time is it?" ask Yongju. But Junghwa had not yet answered him, Yongju first looked at his own clock. "There's still time before my plane leaves" he said, rushing to get the keys and pull the suitcase. "Junghwa, help me with my other suitcase. Then, get me!" said again. "Where are you going?" ask Junghwa. "We have to find Hana," Yongju replied as he continued walking.
Junghwa rushed after her after picking up her hat and mask. "Well, noona why?" ask Junghwa. "Let's know, I don't feel good. I just wanted to make sure myself that Hana was okay" replied Yongju who started driving his car. Junghwa is confused. "Why should we? Doesn't Noona already have her fiance? Just have Daehyun look for him, not us. Anyway, hyung is leaving soon," Junghwa grumbled.
"If I'm not supposed to go, what should I do? Waiting for news anxiously? What if I mess up my own concert because I can't concentrate on it because I think about it?" yongju Sahut. "But where are we going to find Noona? Why, do you know where noona is?" ask Junghwa. Yongju was silent because he did not know where to look for me. Junghwa squinted his eyes at Yongju's silent reaction. "Geez, don't tell me hyung himself doesn't know where noona is!" Junghwa. "Be quiet! Don't bother me driving!" yongju Sahut. "Then, just look for noona at her house!" Junghwa. "Hana's not home" Yongju said. "Call aunt Lee!" said Junghwa again. "Uncle and aunt are in Japan and don't know where Hana is" Yongju said.
Suddenly there was an incoming call on Yongju's phone from eomma. Yongju took the call, "Hello? What's the matter eomma?" yongju with loudspeaker. "Yongju, sorry, eomma just remembered that today Daehyun invited Hana to his newly opened appa resort. Eomma called Daehyun and said they were still there" she said. Nyut! Suddenly there was a pain in Yongju's heart upon hearing it, as his foot was stepping on the brakes of his car. But instead of being calm after knowing my whereabouts, Yongju grew more agitated. "Oh my God, let me know if this pain isn't even real. Since when are they this close? I really want to separate them. The thing I said I would do a long time ago" he said in his heart.
