The Ultimate Soulmate's

I'm Scared, I'm Traumatized

"I told you, I don't want to get married!" daehyun said stubbornly as he stood up from his seat. "Kim Daehyun!" snarled Mr. Kim loudly. Daehyun was already intending to fight his appa, but upon seeing his eomma shake his head, he chose to leave the dining room. Braakk! Daehyun kicked the door of her room after leaving her parents and Sooyun and Shin's family in the dining room. Tonight, the Shin family came to discuss the preparations for Daehyun and Sooyun's wedding.

In his room, Daehyun took his phone and dialed my number again for the umpteenth time. But for the umpteenth time too, my number could not be reached since my appa took over my phone so that Daehyun would not contact me again. Increasingly frustrated, Daehyun slammed his phone to the floor to shatter into pieces. "Aarrrgh!" he shouted while hitting the wall of his room with annoyance. Then, blindly, he ravaged the whole room, expelling all his anger and wounds.

"Aarrgh! What am I supposed to do now?" she yelled again as she grabbed her own hair with overflowing emotions due to being upset forced to marry Sooyun and had to accept the fact that our relationship had ended without her wishes. Finally, he slumped his body slowly on the floor and leaned his head against the wall. "I gave you my whole heart. I love him, appa.. only he.." - Shout with both eyes closed.

***

Moments later, I opened my eyes with a sweat and shouted, "Don't!" it was hard enough to make Yongju, who was sleeping on the sofa, wake up. For some reason, some nights I've always had nightmares about Daehyun. It was as if the nightmare had already become an archive in my mind and re-recorded my destruction. Yongju immediately came to hug me, "What's the matter? You're having nightmares again?" tanyakanya. I nodded with a sigh as I reached for his back to embrace. At least, Yongju's warm embrace always calmed me down like a miracle. "It's okay, it's just a dream. There is an oppa here," he said as he patted my back. "What's wrong with her? Yesterday night was like this. Is he really depressed about everything that's going on?" thought.

"Oppa, get me out of here... I'm afraid.." I said slowly with a trembling voice. Yongju looked at me silently, considering my wish that he could never refuse. "Where? It's midnight" he said softly. "Whatever! Oppa, I'm scared here. Take me home! I'm afraid Daehyun is coming again" I said with a deep plea to her. "No, Daehyun won't come here. There were Junghwa guards standing guard in front of the room" he said.

I shook my head quickly. "Yesterday also Daehyun came!" I said as I squeezed the bed sheet. "What's? Daehyun's here?" the question was surprised and I nodded. "What's he doing? Did he hurt you?" tanyanya held both my arms. I shook my head again, "me and Junghwa kicked him out" I replied. "So, you two are hiding everything from oppa?" he said he looked angry. Seeing her pair of eyes that were like they were emitting anger, I rushed to hug her. "Oppa, I want to go home!" whinek.

Yongju snorted in annoyance, then walked out without saying anything. I was confused by his disappearance and thought he was angry with me, but a few minutes later, he came with a doctor who removed my infusion. "Thank you, you can come back!" he said when the doctor finished his job. "Oppa from where?" my many. "What else? Reporting if you want to go home. You know, they won't let me call Seojun hyung to talk to that doctor!" upset answer.

Suddenly Yongju was silent looking at me from my face to my feet. I realized it, so it was my own misdeeds. "What?" many nervous. He walked up to me while removing the hoodie he was wearing, making my heart beat all the time. Not only did he get there, when he was standing right in front of me, he also took off the plain white T-shirt he was wearing behind his hoodie, showing her upper body with her skin that was as white as mine. I was stunned to see her, "When was the last time I saw her without a shirt? I think it's been a long time. Holy hooch! I never imagined that oppa who always played with me as a kid would be like this!" my thinking.

"Your dressing shirt, nothing, isn't it? Here, change the patient's shirt with an oppa shirt first!" he said to break my daydream, while re-attaching his hoodie. I took the T-shirt that Yongju put on the bed and walked into the bathroom to change clothes. The deg! When I came out of the bathroom, it was Yongju's stunned turn to see me. Because of the patient clothes that I was wearing a kimono model, so now I only wear Yongju koas that are only limited to above my thighs. Yongju turned his face away, "No way no, oppa should also give you oppa pants?" mumbling slowly. "No. This is enough" I answered again. "Yes, that's enough to make me think crazy!" it's in the heart.

Yongju's attention was suddenly fixed on the available wheelchair in the corner of the room. He walked up to the wheelchair, pushed it on me and asked me to sit on it. Quickly, after I followed him, he covered my exposed thighs by covering me from waist to foot. "Come, we're going!" he said as he started pushing my wheelchair. Because we were both misbehaving, we forgot about the bodyguard who fell asleep in front of my room. Finally, we both left without telling the bodyguard at all.

While passing through the hospital park, I asked Yongju to stop his Ashton Martin. "What's wrong? Is there anything left?" yongju asked silently as she stepped on the brakes. I didn't answer him, just looked out at the park from behind the car window. Yongju who wanted to ask again became speechless when he saw me smile. He also looked out the window. In the garden grass that is only illuminated by the dim light of the garden lights, the light of fireflies becomes a beautiful color in the park. He smiled as he turned his head back on the steering wheel, letting me enjoy the view because he knew, since childhood I did love the light of fireflies.

"Beautiful!" I said slowly, but suddenly I remembered the bodyguard. "Opa! We left the bodyguard" I said, turning to Yongju who had just noticed it. "He must be looking for us!" I said. "Let it go, it seemed like he was asleep, just now" Yongju said. "Junghwa must be angry and punish him if he finds out we ran away. We can't leave it like this" I said feeling bad. "Leave it! I think it's funny that way too!" sahut Yongju chuckled at the panic of the people when they found out we were running away.

"Opa! Come on, come back and wake him up!" whinek. "Already, hush! Let's go home first. Let him sleep. It's not a problem. Oppa will say it with Junghwa after we get there. Now, we're home!" saith. "Is Junghwa home?" my many. "In oppa's apartment" he answered. "Are Hyunwo oppa and Seojun oppa also there?" ask again. "Hyunwo, yes. If Seojun hyung is at his eomma house. Why?" the answer. "What is oppa staying at home?" many doubt. "No, oppa's going home" he said, staying focused on driving. "Then we go to the oppa apartment" I said. Yongju again stepped on the brakes of his car that he had put forward. "Why? Don't you want to go home?" tanyanya panic. "I want to go home, but definitely in a quiet house if there are no oppa and Junghwa. I don't want to be alone" I replied. Yongju who had been silent turned his car towards his apartment.

***

Meanwhile in Yongju's luxury apartment, Junghwa and Hyunwo still haven't slept. The two were playing a game in Junghwa's room. "We're going to keep partying in this room all night until we get killed!" challenge Junghwa before starting their battle game. Both of them also play games do not remember the time and do not realize the time has passed up to a third of the night. "Junghwa, I've given up!" hyunwo said as he yawned. "Hyung is sleepy? Hyung often stays up to take care of me!" junghwa said, without distracting her from the computer screen in front of her.

Hyunwo again yawned wide, though his hands were still playing on his keyboard. "Maybe it was because I was exhausted from dance practice" Hyunwo said. Junghwa chuckled, "Actually, this hyung is a mafia or dancer!" ledek. Hyunwo's turn laughing heard him, "That's my fake identity!" the answer. "Ck, not upside down?" Junghwa. Hyunwo laughed again, "You do know me! There's nothing I can hide from you!" sahut Hyunwo who dreams of being a dancer while laughing. "So sleepy?" junghwa asked after making his bodyguard laugh. Hyunwo who was easy to laugh again laughed, "well, it turns out you just set me up!" said it. "Come, we continue until sunrise. Hyung has to accompany me to play all night!" his orders.

Junghwa's phone rang, but he who was too focused on playing, did not care about it even though the ringing sounded many times. "Do you want me to take it?" haunwo Tawar. "Leave it!" sahut Junghwa's. The two were still fighting fiercely, until the ringing on Hyunwo's phone managed to shift the focus of the two of them. After the two of them glanced at Hyunwo's phone simultaneously, the two looked at each other. Hyunwo let go of his game and rushed to grab his phone, "what's the matter?" he asked as he stuck the flat object in his ear.

Junghwa who also stopped playing, turned to pay attention to Hyunwo who was talking in front of him. Hyunwo seemed calm listening to the other person, but as he set his eyes on Junghwa, the young master seemed to have guessed the bodyguard's conversation. Junghwa moved while putting on his jacket, accompanied by Hyunwo behind him. "Kim Daehyun damn it! Wait till I catch you, I'll kill you!" junghwa said in his heart with both hands clenched.

Instead of answering, Yongju just walked into his room to put me to sleep. "God! Am I talking to a statue!" junghwa grumbled as he followed behind Yongju. Hyunwo helped close the apartment door. "Young!" call Junghwa and help Yongju open the door for his hyung. But Yongju instead closed the door of his room using his feet, before Junghwa went inside. An upset Junghwa returns to his room.

Inside the room, Yongju looked at my sleeping face peacefully. "Is this a dream, are you sleeping here?" he said in his heart. Slowly, he sat down on the floor, by his bedside, looking at my face at the lack of lighting. "Sometimes times like this, I want time to stop so that nothing changes because sometimes memories and problems are on the path we are on. Even now it seems, more problems we have to face," he thought to himself as he sighed heavily.

Yongju turned around, leaning his shoulders on the side of the bed. "Hana, do you know? No matter how big your problem is, oppa will always bear it for you because your meaning is greater than all that. Now, the choice is in your hands, what will you do after this?" said slowly. "Honestly, oppa is still waiting for your love. And for you, oppa will fight to protect you. You know, oppa can't stop since you started it. Although in the end this feeling still cannot continue, oppa only needs you to believe that oppa is sincere with you and remains next to oppa as usual, not away again," he continued.

"Although actually oppa also still hope you will forget Daehyun as soon as possible and love oppa again," he said as he began to blush. "It's crazy! Absolutely insane! Honestly, you still have a taste for oppa, don't you?" he said a few moments after he fell silent. "Do you think oppa didn't notice your reaction back at the hospital when he took off his shirt? Do you think oppa is interesting?" he muttered very slowly while hiding his face that met by hugging his knees.

Suddenly Yongju remembered my words saying that Daehyun came to see me at the hospital. He left me and rushed to see Junghwa to ask the truth because it was Junghwa who was with me. After Yongju died, I opened my eyes. Without Yongju knowing, I heard all of her words that so graciously touched my soul. Without him saying anything, I knew how sincere he had been all along. I know he is the one who always prays for my happiness.

However, I had already decided not to try to give way again for Yongju to start a madness between us because I realized, if I hugged him tightly, Yongju would never let go of me. I'm afraid, Yongju won't let me go like Daehyun. Whoever it is, even if it's Daehyun or Yongju, I don't want to risk it all again in the name of love. I no longer want to be involved in any relationship, whether for tomorrow or forever. At least for today. I fear. I'm traumatized!

***

Czechoslovakia! The next day, the door of Yongju's apartment opened from the outside. A man entered without the slightest difficulty, in silence began down the hallway that ended in the kitchen room that blends directly with the living room. Arriving there, the man halted his steps, then circulated his gaze throughout the room. There was no activity in the kitchen. Even the curtain of her glass wall facing directly into the Han river, was still tightly sealed. Alone, there was no one who looked other than him. Slowly, he began to step up to find the person he was looking for.

He walked towards the room next to the living room, but his hands seemed hesitant when he wanted to open the main room door in this apartment. Then, he walked back to the hallway, passing the kitchen room, loundry room and closet room with the contents that reflect the owner. Very carefully, he opened the door of the guest room. Czechoslovakia! The pair of Hyunwo eyes sleeping inside were also opened with caution.

"Just up?" asked Seojun while walking towards the bed in the room. Hyunwo who was surprised to hear the sound of the door also sighed in relief, "hyung, I guess who!" said it. "Why? What do you think, I'm a criminal?" ask Seojun while smiling. "You must have forced this boy again to accompany him to play games, right? Until no one knows, I'm coming!" seojun. "Yes" Hyunwo said as he yawned widely and closed his eyes again.

Seojun glanced at Hyunwo who was back asleep, then sighed. "Junghwa, wakeup!" he said that it was starting to wake Junghwa who was sleeping next to Hyunwo. Several times, Seojun tried to wake Junghwa up, until his sister responded with, "Hmm? What's?" he said with his voice. "Please, wake up Yongju! I did not dare to wake him. Hurry on! Namgil is still waiting for me in the parking lot" Seojun replied, pulling Junghwa from his bed. Junghwa also walked while ruffling his hair in annoyance, towards the main room with heavy eyes that almost closed again.

Czechoslovakia! Without knocking first, Junghwa opened the door of Yongju's room and walked over to his hyung's bed. "Hyung, wakeup! Seojun hyung is waiting for you in front," he said with his eyes closed. Not hearing Yongju's voice, Junghwa's countenance turned irritated. "Young!" call him again and start to get on the bed. "Young!" repeat with a voice getting smaller while directly crawling up on the body of the person he woke up.

As usual, as Junghwa often did while interrupting Seojun's sleep, Junghwa overcame the body while slumping his own body to the side of the person while his hands were directly hugging the body like a bolster. "Hmm, what is this? Why is this spongy round?" thought Junghwa while squeezing something in his grasp. I who had been disturbed when Junghwa's heavy body overtook me immediately twisted my body which he was hugging and immediately pushed it firmly.

Bruk! Junghwa fell to the floor hard. "What's wrong?" asked Yongju who finally woke up due to the sound that Junghwa caused. "****!" yunghwa said slowly as he began to sit while stroking his aching butt. Junghwa's annoyed expression turned dumbfounded with his pair of round eyes that blinked when he found me sitting on the bed with an angry expression staring at him. Stunned for a moment to gather his memories, Junghwa suddenly lowered his gaze towards my chest. Glup! Junghwa gulped down his saliva when he realized the mistake he had just made, especially when his attention also caught Yongju sitting behind me with his bareface. Then, Junghwa also smiled widely to cover up the accident earlier.

"What are you doing there?" asked Yongju confusedly. "A-I came in because Seojun hyung told me to wake him up. I guess, hyung was alone in the room," Junghwa replied trying to explain stammeringly as he glanced at me who was still staring at him with a pouting face. "I was not intentionally! I thought noona was hyung! Stop pouting!" junghwa said annoyedly because I glared at her from earlier. "What happened accidentally?" yongju asked even more puzzled at the reaction of the two of us.

I widened my eyes even more when I heard Junghwa muttering softly. "That little bit too." he muttered out in annoyance. "Who do you call small, huh!" I snapped in disbelief as I half stood in front of him while puffing my chest towards him. Junghwa who was shocked to the point of turning his head back, "What crazy noona, huh?" snapped it. "You are crazy! Do you want to harass me, huh?" my reply. "Decredibly?" junghwa and Yongju said at the same time. Yongju immediately turned to look at Junghwa, asking for his explanation. "I told you, I didn't mean it!" junghwa repeated as he stood up, when he noticed Yongju's angry gaze.

"Mistake it yourself, why is noona sleeping with hyung!" reply Junghwa. Now, it was my turn to look at Yongju who immediately turned his gaze to just any place. "Why is oppa sleeping here?" I asked as I squinted my eyes when I realized that Yongju slept in one bed with me last night. "Oppa, afraid you're having nightmares again. So, oppa accompanied you to sleep," replied Yongju reasoned. Me and Junghwa squinted our eyes both at him because they were not satisfied with the answer. Yongju accepted it himself. "That's it, don't talk about it anymore! Come on, it's time we wake up!" he said he was from there and immediately ran to the bathroom.