The Overdose of Love

I just kept watching

Their closeness looks sickening, so it feels increasingly hate due to the fire of jealousy is burning. Not that I can't rebel or complain about all this, but Naya's still weak state makes me just be silent.

"Do you not know this wound, Karin?Are you so happy to be close to, Adrian? Am I not worthy of you? Why is my love so hot, as if you forgot it?" ask a troubled heart when you see Karin's laughter with Adrian.

Maybe I'm just a tree that can't hold your heart.

Maybe I'm just Water, which can't water the drought in your life.

Maybe I'm just the wind, which can't give you the coolness you feel right now.

Maybe I'm just ice, who can't freeze your heart to stay mine.

This love is so strong, but the dust is getting bigger, so the dust becomes a pile of dirt that must be cleaned, but because my strength is weakened to make the dust was left alone, so that the dust was left behind, netra can only watch.

"Excuse me, may I come in?" ask me when I visit.

"Oh, you're Chris. Come on in.. Come in here," replied Karin kindly.

"Hey, Adrian!" my bro tries to be friendly.

"Emm."

"I'm going to go for a while, looking for the needs of our son Naya" Adrian said.

Deg, again the word (child) was so heart-piercing. I don't know why I hate that word so much, which in fact can not be questioned because Naya is the son of Adrian, but why it must be said in front of me, which seems to be deliberately to heat up.

"Yes, brother. Just be careful on the street," replied Karin kindly.

I just glanced with a cynical look at Adrian, as well as himself turning around staring at the strangeness. Now he just left, without a word to talk to me, maybe the heart that is arrogant due to the times of hostility between us is still stored in his heart.

"What about the situation, Naya?" ask me to talk to Karin.

"Alhamdulillah, the more the day the better. But only had to be hospitalized, to recover some injuries due to surgery yesterday," Karin explained.

"Oh, so!" answer's short.

Not many more words came out of this mouth, which could melt the atmosphere that felt stiff. For some reason, it feels lazy to just talk to Karin like yesterday.

"What's wrong with you, Chris?" karin asked, patting my hand slowly, while sitting in the hospital VIP room.

"Eh, there's nothing, really!" my answer was riddled with daydreams.

"really that? But why do I feel so weird, when you're more silent this time?" he began to suspect.

"Yes, Karin. I'm really okay, really!" I replied kindly with a smile.

"I'm sorry before, for my busy stay in the hospital, so there's no time to see you. Sorry to bother you too, who had to go back and forth to visit Naya when you were busy working," she replied unpleasantly.

"Don't say that, Chris. Although there is an Adrian brother among us, but you are also very much needed, because you are a man who will be a husband and father to Naya," said Karin full of tenderness.

"really that? But I'm still not happy with Adrian, if every time always come here continue. But still thank you for your understanding," My pretenses are unkind.

"You don't worry about that, because I'm here" Karin said, not caring about Adrian.

"Hemmm, ok."

I don't want to make Karin worry about me either, because enough problems about her son have made her dizzy, let alone trivial problems regarding our hearts. Maybe Karin knows once I'm a little changed now, because lately she's always been close to Adrian.

"I'm sorry, Karin, honesty is needed now, but I don't want my jealousy to be your burden either. I'm so confused now, is our move to get married right, and I see you look happier with Adrian?" nervous heart when staring Karin without being heard, while being bothered to take care of Naya was awake.

My gaze continued to be empty like there was no more strength, even if it was just chatting with Karin again.

*******

The stars twinkling behind the clouds look beautiful and beautiful like the face of the idol. But the dark fog of the night clouds has covered up to the invisible light, which is now the same as with my heart when it can emit an aura of happiness, but in the heart is so depressed by the complexity of love.

"What's wrong with you, son?" mama asked as I daydreamed near the pond, looking at the beauty of the night sky.

"Chris is upset, Ma!" reply sendu.

"meaning? What's wrong about what? Hasn't Karin now become all yours?" ask my mother's weirdness about me.

"It's true, Ma. But Chris felt bad for Adrian" I replied, reflecting back on the story between us.

"Who is Adrian?" ask Mama.

"He is a man who tarnishes, and never cared for Karin in the past. He's now appearing again between our stories."

"Lha keep what's your concern? Didn't Karin agree to be your bride? Some guy named Adrian it's not just the past, but why do you have to be so unwell?" Confusion Mama who kept asking.

"Everything you say is true, Ma. But Karin seems to be happy with Adrian. I'm so confused now, do I have to let go, Karin? But it feels hard when I love her so much" I'm obviously sad.

"Ooh, that's the problem. The matter of taking off or not is your business, Mama only supports your decision later. The heart cannot be forced, for at the very end of the day you will be unhappy. Ask everything in your deepest heart, whether you are sincere to let go of Karin or not. Do not be forced if it hurts, but you better be hurt now, than later you have been married even the contents of heartache only. Mama is very sure, that you will be happy if you see Karin is also happy, although at first there will be neither accept nor sadness," explained Mama with some advice.

"Yes, Ma. Mama was right, but I don't know. Chris has not gone that far thinking, because the heart that is sick is still so stuck I can not pull. Later if Chris has improved on this feeling, insyallah will take what steps for this relationship," answered me who is still confused.

"Alright, Chris. Hopefully, your decision later will bring good to all of you. Do not let there be a grudge between Adrian and you, therefore there will be no benefit, because the ends of the quarrel will not be resolved due to the revenge itself. You have to ask Karin from heart to heart, and hopefully later you will get an answer that suits your wishes" said Mama.

"Yes, Ma. Surely it's. Hopefully the three of us will be fine in bringing this relationship," I said with a friendly smile.

"Amin ya robbal alamin's. Yes, Son. You will always pray your best" he replied.

"Thank you, Ma."

The key to all the answers is Karin, so I'll meet her to talk about this whole story. It feels so hard, if all these strange stories are not resolved.