The Overdose of Love

N2=My Missing Wife>> Unpleasant Visit

Unbelievable happiness can treat the sadness I feel today.

"O Allah, thank You for listening to my grievances, for presenting Adit in the process of childbirth and welcoming the birth of our child, Your power is Exalted," my prayer in a heart filled with joy.

Many times I continue to give thanks, although Adit still does not remember me, but he is enough to make my heart relieved by his presence. Not to forget the dewdrop had enveloped me where there was a sense of happiness, which was when the seconds for the first time he was holding his biological child, but behind it all there was a sense of pity also approaching, but behind it all there was a sense of pity, we will soon officially get divorced. It hurts, but I don't want to be labeled as a woman who doesn't keep a promise, so after the birth of my son the divorce papers must be done immediately to sign it.

"Wuiiih, it turns out the little one is present," said Edo who suddenly came.

"How are you doing with your little one?" ask Edo who has walked towards me.

There was a bag of crackles that Edo had brought. It looks translucent in it, so it shows some of the fruits it carries.

"Thank God we are good."

"Thank God then."

"Wah .. wah, it turns out beautiful is also the face of this little grandpa," praised Edo.

"What's your name, baby?" Edo tried to talk to my son.

The thumb was stroking my son's cheek. Edo's face was radiated with happiness. Feel the gratitude of the presence of the baby.

"His name is Aliyana princess pratiwi," I replied.

"Well, what a beauty your name is, as pretty as your cute and adorable face" Edo praised with a fixed look at the innocent face.

It was nice that someone visited.

"How is the delivery process? It's smooth and there's no obstacle, right?" ask Edo.

"Thank God, everything is good and all right."

"Thank God then."

"I'm sorry, I just got to see you today. In the past days, there were so many orders from customers asking to be delivered," Edo explained.

"No pa-pa, Edo. You come here to see me I'm happy, "my dream.

Edo was very good, always took the time to visit and see my situation, which was on the sidelines of his busy time working. It was a bad feeling to keep approaching, because so often Edo visited.

"You're alone here?" tanyakanya.

"There was a father, but he came home to get some of my clothes" I explained.

"Ooh."

"His face is as beautiful as yours, Ana!" praise Edo many times.

"Is that really?."

"Yes that. Cook is not beautiful, even if handsome must be a guy," said Edo to ask jokes.

"Don't, you son of a bitch."

"Hahahah, no .. ngak, Ana. Really, your daughter is as beautiful as you!" he commended again.

Laughter and conversation keep happening. Comfort can confide in him make awe over Edo who is a patient person.

Ceklek, the door has opened suddenly. A man I know has come. His hand didn't forget to bring anything, but I don't know what it was..

"You?" Edo tried to step over to Mas Adit.

"Why are you here? Wanna what? Want to insult Ana again?" edo said there was anger.

Edo seemed to be challenging.

"Have ... have you guys been quiet? If you want to fight outside, my son will sleep. You guys get out there!" now replace my emotional self.

Hands try to pat the child's thighs gently. Trying to calm him down when there are disturbing noises.

"You're just playing with emotions, so my voice gets loud," grumbled Adit blaming Edo.

"You're here too! So that my emotions become a voice also come hard," behind Edo's symbol.

"Euk .. uek .. uek," the cry of your son who was already shrill loudly.

"Shhuuut .. shhuuut," Melkat's index finger was raised so that they could remain silent

"I'm sorry, Ana!" The sound of Adit and Edo are compact, but the eyes glare at each other like they do not like each other.

"If I may ask you to come out now!" tell me subtly.

"Alright," they answered compactly again.

Aah, I don't know what else Adit's intention is to come here, I don't really understand his attitude anymore. Yesterday he was so insulting and hateful to me, but now that my son is born, his attitude is so inversely proportional, and my heart is a little shaky about his attitude.

"Ana forgive me!" said Mas Adit entered my room again without Edo.

I can speak only a thousand languages, without answering his words.

"I don't know what else to say, I really don't remember the memories between us. I know nothing of my own actions anymore, and I remember them all, but I really can't remember anything. So I'm really sorry now, for what I said yesterday - yesterday," he said, feeling regret.

I'm still quiet. He was busy calming.

"And on the issue of divorce, if we can postpone it first, because I still want to recall the memories of us and fix my sharp speech," he bargained who was still busy talking.

"You don't have much to say, I don't want to accept more heartache than yesterday. So our divorce will continue, for me there is no point in us being together anymore" I explained.

"But Ana, is that-?."

"I know this is purely my fault, but I really beg you to abandon all your intentions, because I really wish we could be together, and improve our household again because of my memory loss," he made an offer.

"I'm sorry, I think my heart is closed because of your cruel mouth, so now I beg you to come out of my room, because for me nothing important is spoken of anymore," have me gently drive away.

"But Ana."

"There's no buts, mas. I don't want to find trouble and trouble again with Salwa. I took you away from her, and now I will return you to her" I explained with teary eyes.

"I know that. But can't you delay that divorce before my memory really recovers" he said, still trying to get back together.

"Have ... already, Mas. Now you're gone. Dizziness I thought of you," I added.

"All right then, I'll be out."

My cries started to break when Adit's already out of my room.

For me love in the heart can be awake, but not to have forever, because love may be beautiful if remembered only.

Everything that we experience will be erased completely, because it is indeed the nature of the mind, and it has become the task of our brain to store the happiest memory, even painful. But everyone has the choice to let the memory be only a memory, or keep it in the heart.

The memory of our conversations in the days of yesterday, made the chest throbbing pain, as well as endless heart tightness. Now I feel the moment our planned hopes will begin to end, the memory of the household hopes will be happy with the laughter of the joy of our children, but it looks like everything will be destroyed to build a happy household, it feels like what we will create is just empty dreams.

Without feeling the tears back down, when the netra looked at my son who had fallen asleep without sin, had to bear the pain of parents later.

If he had left us, his heart would have been steady to not remember him anymore, because it could hinder the future, but old memories would have haunted me so much.

Maybe it's true said Edo, I have to focus on the future with my son, no need to go back to the past that hurts me so much.