The Overdose of Love

N2=My Missing Wife>> Trying to apologize

For a few days I had not met Ana, the job now was just to lock myself in the apartment. All the work for a while I leave it to Rudi the company secretary.

Somehow this apartment is now. Surely people who see it will be disgusted, because it is like a broken ship, everywhere scattered bottles, cans, and packages of food that have been messy throughout the living room.

Ting .. tong .. ting .. tong.

"Adit, open? Hey kid, open it!" call mom's voice.

I did not mind his request.

Tit ... tit .. tit, home code sound pressed.

"Astagfirullah, Adit!" Mom surprised to see me.

"Why are you so!" said Mama approaching me who was on the floor.

The smell of Akh*lpun drink may have been smelled by him, who did not know how many bottles I drank in recent days.

"Adit, hey Adit! Wake up .. wake up now! Adit, let's get up now, mama says wake up, Adit!" have him try to invite me up, when this self is still lying on the floor.

I no longer listen to his voice. It felt like life was no longer excited, like the world was collapsing, and only Analah now could raise my spirit. But now Ana hated me so much, and said that she could no longer continue our household, and felt like she was leaving me for good again.

"Adit wakeup ... Adit wakes up, until when are you going to be like this? Don't you love, Ana? If you don't want Ana out of your life, then work for her and get her back. Not that it even fell like this" He tried to give support and encouragement.

"But, Ma! Ana now hates Adit, and she refuses to accept Adit's apology. I've hurt him many times, Adit's mistakes are really unforgivable again," My regret is confiding in my mother accompanied by tears.

"You don't give up Adit. It is easy to forgive mistakes, but forgetting mistakes is very difficult, especially the heartache is too deep in Ana," said Mama.

No matter what the world says if seeing my cool self has shed tears, which can clearly spill all the tightness in the chest can be plong in a whiny way though.

"Can't all these mistakes be corrected! You never loved Ana, and now try to learn to love her, which is from your heart. Take his heart and cure his heartache. Mama is sure Ana will be able to forgive you, because Ana's heart is very soft and kind. And don't forget to hold her hand tight again, make her happy, don't leave her, and stay by her side, even if one day a storm hits your household again, stick together to find a solution to the obstacles that are in front of your eyes, "the length of your advice, so that makes me cry even more sobbing.

"You're right, Ma! I have to treat Ana's wounds, which have been damaged by my stupidity. Adit promised to get his love again, until the last blood point I would not give up on making it back," The spirit recovered, as a result of hearing the advice of my mother.

"Good, Son. This is the mother's son who won't give up."

"Yes, Ma. Thank you." Thank you."

"Hmm, get ready to seize the lost heart."

"Alright, Ma!" Degan firmly said while removing the remaining melts wet cheeks.

"good. This is the spirit of Adit."

Now many times my body shifted to the right and left, to make up for the makeup, whether this self is suitable and handsome, wearing a white shirt with a jacket. On this sunny morning, everyone was busy to go to work, but another time with me who was now busy to immediately go glide to Ana's house.

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The nervousness and worry now came whack, and it really made it very difficult for me to immediately get out of the car, and many times I just kept pointing fingers to drive the car. Add

This self is now completely engulfed in anxiety, for fear that Ana will not meet let alone forgive, and it feels like the body begins to tremble there is acute anxiety. Long enough I was in the car, who did not want to immediately go down to the small boarding house, where flowers were blooming beautifully colorful in the yard of his house, maybe Ana herself was the one who planted it.

"Bismillah, good luck!" Stability wants to see him soon..

Whatever the outcome is important try first. If it fails, try to get it back.

"Don't give up on you, Adit. Let's get the spirit, Ana!" the heart is encouraging itself.

Tok .. tok, the door of his house is slapped. It was as hard as gathering courage, after an hour more than that did not get out of the car.

Ceklek, the door has been opened.

"Mas Adit?" Surprised Ana.

His face looked surprised when I had dared to come. A week or so we did not meet and greet each other, after the unexpected incident of the kiss accident. A sense of confusion emanated on his face, maybe not wanting to see me, but because he was visiting the possibility that he was not happy to refuse to come to his house.

"What's up?" resounding.

"May I come in for a moment, to come by your house!" I asked for permission.

I am afraid of being rejected.

"Ooh, please .. please come in," Ana's hospitality received me a visit.

"Thank you for being allowed."

"Yes. Please sit down."

"Thank God, thank you, Ana. When you're angry, but still kindly want to accept me," Relief.

While wanting to sit down, the eyes have now looked around the room of his boarding house, which is tragic how the life of Ana and the father-in-law now. In this small and narrow cost, there is no luxurious furniture in the room, there is only a bamboo woven seat that I am currently sitting on.

"Astagfirullah, I really sinned to make Ana hurt and let her live unworthy of this. I do not deserve to be called a husband for him," Sadness of heart saw a wife alive ngenes.

"Ana, my coming here has a certain purpose and purpose, which I want to convey to you. The first is to apologize to you, and forgive my yesterday-yesterday mistakes that continue to hurt you" I said with my head bowed not daring to look at him.

"I've forgotten what happened yesterday, and the issue of apology God willing I have forgiven Adit. But-!" Ana's voice was held back.

"But what is Ana?" manya curious.

"But for our domestic problems, I can't fully get back with you, because the heartache that Mas Adit did was still so intense, and I haven't been able to remove it completely to immediately disappear from within my heart" Ana replied subtly.

He tried to reject what I wanted right now.

"I understand, Ana! I don't want to ask for anything more from you, I'm indeed a person who doesn't deserve love, and a big apology from you. For me you can forgive yesterday's mistakes, can make me feel quite relieved and happy," said trying to understand it.

"And now there's one more request of mine for you, which is to go back to work in the company again, and surely you need that job a lot!" my door.

"Well if that's Mas Adit's request. I am unemployed and need a job. God willing, tomorrow I'll be back at work, but I also have special conditions for Mas Adit too, if I really want to get myself back to work!" said it.

"Condition?" bangtung.

"Yes a condition."

"Whatis that? Say."

"The condition is that Mas Adit in the company should not know me. We should both think of as strangers."

"What?" my surprise.

"Yes. Let's just say we never knew him at all.

"But, Ana!" I have doubts about his idea.

"Well, that's the condition, right? If you don't want to, yes I have to not want to go back to work" he said trying to bargain.

"But-how is Ana! Cook considers a stranger, anyway! Can't say hello anymore. Is that not too much," lamented I who aimed to reject his will.

"Nothing is too much!."

"But weird' is what it feels like."

"That's if Mas Adit wants to. If you don't want to also not pa-pa," Words are still trying to make an offer.

"Emm, fine if that's what you want."

"Promise."

"Well, okay! I promise you, I'll keep my promise, which is I'll never bother you again, and I'll assume that we really don't know each other, but you're really gonna get back to work?" answers asking.

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"Of course, Mum! I'll never break the promise I always make" she replied.

"Yees .. yes. There's finally a chance for me to get close to you, Ana." Hearts cheering happily.

Then this is all the first step to get Ana again, when it has begun to erode the loss of her love for me. On the other hand, there is this feeling of sadness about yourself, because you have to pretend you do not know him.

From now on forever this self has promised never to hurt let alone divorce him, although in fact he often insisted on asking for divorce. But for me it is impossible to be done, because the seeds of love for him began to bloom grow in this heart, which is to start again to grow his love only for me.