The Love Traces of RAHWANA

Quarry 7.

It's getting dark. And Awan continued to drive his motorcycle towards the east of the city of Jogja. Overtaking some vehicles. It seems like he's chasing something. I wonder what he really wants to show me?

Before the intersection of Prambanan Temple, Awan turned his motorcycle to the left and stopped shortly afterwards.

I got off the bike and took off my helmet. The cold air that I had been holding back from earlier made the pores in my hand crackle. My fingers also felt frozen from hugging the Clouds along the way.

I tried to warm my fingers by swiping my hands together. Hoping it would stop the frozen rush on my fingers.

“Cold?” Ask the Clouds who noticed me.

I was honest and nodded my head.

It felt like my life was stuck in the crown as the Clouds suddenly cupped their hands on both cheeks. Not what, his hands also felt very cold. But strangely, there was a warm feeling flowing into my heart. Whatisthis?

Then Cloud turned to cupping both of my hands that were still related to each other. He also rubbed his hands to keep me warm.

“Am I too tight to carry the motor?” Ask Clouds. I caught a streak of guilt from his eyes.

I'm shaking. I don't know why my voice won't come out. I was afraid the clouds heard my voice tremble because of the sweet treatment.

After my hands warmed up, I withdrew from the Clouds. My situation could be dangerous if it lingers like that.

“Why are we here?” My toot.

“I want to invite you to see something.” The clouds pointed towards the large poster that was plastered in front of us.

RAMAYANA THRILLERS.

He wants to take me to see the Ramayana show?

“Awan!” Screaming men's voices from our front. The man with the mustache ran over to us.

“Mas..” Sapa Clouds.

“You've arrived? Comeon, enter. Wait inside only.” Said the man again.

“What is still long start? We want to eat first.”

“One hour and a half more.” Said the man with the mustache.

The clouds nodded their heads and smiled. “Then, we will come back here again.”

“Oke.” Then the man with the mustache went out from before us.

“Who?” My toot.

“Sepupu. Let's eat first. What do you want to eat?”

“Yang simple only. Magelang.”

The clouds agree with my wishes. Then we began to walk towards the fried rice seller who was about a hundred meters from Sendratari. Arriving there, Awan ordered two portions of magelan and two warm orange drinks. After that, we sat on one of the lesehan mats under a cherry tree ornamented by colorful flickering lights.

“You don't want to order something else?”

I'm shaking.

“Still cold?”

I'm back to shaking.

“Why are you? Not usually silent like that.”

And I can only smile. How could I answer that question while the answer embarrassed me?

Embarrassed?

I'm ashamed of the clouds. The little attention from her made me happy until I was at a loss for words.

Two portions of magelan were already presented before us after waiting for a few minutes. The savory aroma of manyeruak makes the stomach crumble. I immediately started my first feed.

“You have a boyfriend?” A question almost choked me.

Clouds bad habit, he always surprises me when I'm chewing food.

“No.” My answer is to try to bring the situation back as best I can.

“Why?”

“No one wants, or no one you like?” Guess the Clouds again.

“Not both.”

“You mean, no one wants you and no one you like?”

“Just Clouds. Can I hit you just once? Hem?” I was half dead. He pretended not to understand me when he understood. I know it's from the weirdness of teasing her.

“Hahahahahaha. So why? Answer the clear.”

“I want to focus on my study. Answer.”

“Buuhh.” Clouds choking. What's my answer? I looked surprised at him.

“Why?”

“You live in what century? We live in the 21st century where learning can be friendly with pleasure. You can focus on studying, and you can also date for fun. Don't focus too much. Your brain can explode.”

“There are some people like me, Clouds. Emphasizing study and education above pleasure.” I was offended by the cloud just now. “We never align the two.”

“But I just found one like this. Turns out you're quite ambitious too. What are your ideals?”

“Lecturers. I want to teach history to my students later.”

I'm just pissed off. It's as if I never had a chance to personally examine Awan and pry up detailed information about him. And I always told him my side.

“So even if I said I liked you, would you reject it outright?”

Ah, the real thing has always crossed my mind lately about the estuary end of our friendship.

“I won't apologize to you. But I have to be consistent with my goals and commitment. Are you disappointed?”

I asked the obvious answer.

“Not really. I'm not sure how I feel either. I'll say it again later when I'm sure.”

And again, I was fooled by the situation. That guy, really successful put me to shame.

“How many men are hurt by your commitment, Ara?”

I don't know. I don't know. As many as have ever expressed their feelings to me. Maybe about three, or four? Oh yeah, there's Yuta too.

“Am I evil for wanting to commit to my goals?” I became inferior because of the Cloud question.

“I didn't mean to demean you. Honestly, I'm even more amazed at you. I've never met a millennial girl like this.”

“Like this?”

“I like you focus on your goal.”

“Those words make me feel like I'm arrogant. As if focusing on the study wasn't something I should do.”

“Sorry that I made you feel that way. I'm sure you must have a good reason and I have no right to doctrine about your future. Do whatever you like. While I solidify my feelings.”

Ah, there's a heavy feeling rolling in my chest. It felt so different when I had to reject Yuta. This time, it was like there was my side that did not accept my own decision. It feels like there's a part of me that doesn't like the commitment I've made. Only this time there was a rebellious side in my heart.

The clouds have really made me wobbly. And I don't like that.

Just this time there was a man who was able to disrupt my commitment about my future plans. I can't even admit that I'm starting to like the Clouds.

“The trick is almost started.” Clouds stood up from his seat. “Ayo.”

I concur. I need an escape from this confusing situation. I followed the clouds behind him. This time, he paid for our food.

Along the way back to Sendratari, the clouds just fell silent. I don't know what he's thinking. The look on his face looked serious amid the dim light of street lights.

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