The Love Traces of RAHWANA

Ravana 5.

“Buuhh.”

I was surprised by her answer when I asked her why she didn't have a boyfriend.

“You live in what century? We live in the 21st century where learning can be friendly with pleasure. You can focus on studying, and you can also date for fun. Don't focus too much. Your brain can explode.”

“There are some people like me, Clouds. Emphasizing study and education above pleasure. We never aligned the two.”

The expression of the voice turned serious.

Is he offended by my words?

I'm not wrong, am I? Nowadays, where there are people who focus on learning to the exclusion of pleasure. Almost all of my classmates already have lovers.

“But I just found one like this. Turns out you're quite ambitious too. What are your ideals?”

“Lecturer.”

Well, that's a noble love-idea. I smiled hearing it. But only my lips are smiling. My heart is pias. I don't think I have a chance to be his girlfriend.

“So even if I said I liked you, would you reject it outright?”

I asked even though it seemed like there was a slim possibility. I am competing with his future. Mending I compete with humans rather than with commitment. Competing with that commitment is impossible.

“I won't apologize to you. But I have to be consistent with my goals and commitment. Are you disappointed?”

Disappointed? Yep. Of course I'm disappointed.

The fact that Kuara does not have a lover has made me soar will a wish to become her lover. But, there is a commitment that is a barrier between us.

“Not really. I'm not sure how I feel either. I'll say it again later when I'm sure.”

Lies. I was lying. Now I am sure of how I feel about her.

My heart ached and shrunk to realize that I had no chance of getting it.

After eating, we headed back to Sendratari. Now I am just more silent. Lamenting the failures I haven't even tried.

After Sendratari, I plan to drive him home.

On that trip, I remembered my own words. I asked Kuara not to think about my words.

Idiotically. I cursed myself. I don't usually give up this easily.

Yeah, I shouldn't have given up. Should I date when I manage to express my feelings?

Wait, I haven't expressed my feelings to her. The plan was so, but not so after hearing the story. I'll say it next time.

The cold midnight air blew all over my body. I'm cold because of my hoodie I gave to Kuara. I want to look cool for him. Ah, I must look cool.

“Woman! If you're cold, slow down.”

It seemed to give me a chance to play a sneaky trick. When I stopped at the red light, I pulled out Kuara's hand and immediately wrapped it around my stomach. The cold became my reason for getting that warm hug.

“Begin only. I'm cold.”

I forced his hand to circle when he wanted to pull it. And I'm full of smiles behind the helmet.

My mind went wild as I felt the chest of the estuarine sticking to my back. I don't want to hurry up.

And, it seems nature is on my side. The rain suddenly fell and I was late to pull over.

My clothes were wet from the sudden downpour. But I was relieved to see Kuara protected by my hoodie.

“I'm not the one you should be worried about. Lookyour clothes. Wetter than me.” Said Kuara after I pulled the bike over on the terrace of a minimarket that had closed.

I'm glad he's worried about me. My heart is so flowery.

We argued a bit as he insisted on going home to the motorcycle. Of course it really supported me. I have to look like a responsible man. I'm not gonna let him go on a motorcycle ride in the middle of the night like this.

Every time I was with Kuara, it always rained. I don't like the rain very much.

“You hate the rain so much?”

“I don't hate him. I just don't like it. Her voice was noisy and I couldn't hear anything.”

I was stunned when suddenly Kuara slipped a headset into my ear. I looked at him. She smiles.

“No need to listen to rain. Just listen to this.”

Jesus, heart, please, beat slower. I'd be embarrassed if I heard you. How could I not fall in love with her more? The voice is very sweet.

My smile returned when I suggested to stop by my boarding house first, and Kuara agreed. It seemed like he could not bear to see me wet and shivering.

I took Kuara to my boarding house. And it turns out, my neighbors are gathering in front of Pakde Ito's room.

“New home, Wan?”

“Iya, Pakde. Why not sleep?” I asked while looking for the door key between my motor keys.

“So there's something in the discussion, Wan. Significant. Hahahahaha.”

I'm smiling too. I know what they're talking about.

“Come.” I asked Kuara to come in after she managed to open the door.

“I wait outside only.”

“Do not. Entry only. Outside cold.” I don't want Kuara waiting outside. I want him to come in and see my boarding house.

The voice obeyed my words. He finally came in and I invited him to sit on the sofa.

You ask what is currently in my fikrian? It's the same with most men out there. What was I thinking while the two of me were with the girl I liked in my boarding house?

I realized my dirty thinking by directly undressing in front of him. I imagined how he would express when he saw my burly back. I became a smile myself.

While I was in the bathroom, I tried to calm my heated heart. Take a deep breath and throw it away. I repeated it a few times. Until my heart is calm.

But, when I remembered the warmth of the chest of the voice on my back, my heart again rippled strangely. That feeling, not wanting to get out of my mind.

After the shower, I just remembered that I did not bring a towel and change of clothes. While my clothes are wet and I can't wear them anymore. In the bathroom there is only a small towel that I usually use to dry my face.

I finally had to wear the pants I was wearing. A little wet, but it's okay. Than I should go out with a polosan.

How surprised I was when I came out of the bathroom, it turned out that there was a estuary that was passing there. He was also surprised by my appearance.

Our views meet each other. I waited for Kuara to step aside first. But he didn't do it. While I, was trying to control the strange hissing that re-emerged.

When Kuara was about to leave, there was no urge from where to force me to prevent it. I stuck it between the walls so he couldn't go anywhere. There's something in me that demands to be released. You know what it is.

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sorry residents yesterday did not up. uprooted eui. you do not forget to take care of your health always yaa...