The Love Traces of RAHWANA

Ravana 16.

And here we were, sitting next to one of the train cars on the way back to the city of Jogja.

The voice is still silent. Makes the atmosphere even more awkward. And I don't like this atmosphere.

“Do not give restrictions.”

I started to express my opinion. I just want to be around him no matter the commitment or whatever. I didn't ask her to be in a relationship. I think that's enough.

“What do you mean?” Finally Kuara looked at me. When our gaze met, it felt like I wanted to devour it to the very end.

“Now you're setting limits for me, right? Don't do that. Or I'll force you to beat your commitment.”

It seems threatening is my only helper at the moment. I don't know why he has to put limits on everything. Just make a runyam.

“What are you talking about?”

“I know you're avoiding me. You refused my dinner invitation and you never looked at me directly. May I know why?”

“I'm shy.”

“Then why?”

“Color you've seen my messy form.”

Huh huh? Is it really just because of that little thing? Just because I saw her appearance when I woke up, she stayed away and didn't want to look at me? Thinking about it made me unable to help laughing.

“Buahahahahahahahaha.”

“Kan I told you. Even if your appearance is as messy as it was. You still look beautiful, Ara. Don't be ashamed. You've even seen my hairy chest.”

He nudged my arm. I was forced to stop laughing. God, what am I supposed to do with him?

The voice was about to attack me again. Maybe because I couldn't stop my laughter immediately, so he was upset.

I immediately fended off and tightly grasped Kuara's hand. Ah, this debaran, I like it very much.

“Women. Release.”

“No. This hand will be like this all night until we arrive at Jogja.”

“Awan..”.

I don't give a shit. I clasped her tighter as she tried to pull her hand. Put it on my lap and then I closed my eyes.

I pretended to be asleep. I deliberately relaxed my hand. And the result was very unexpected. Kuara did not let go of my hand even though she was already free to do so.

Slowly, I heard her breathing that had started to get regular. She's asleep. I immediately directed his head to lean on my shoulder.

I ventured to caress Kuara's smooth face. Actually, there is one thing stuck in my heart.

Soon my graduation exam. And I'm already planning on going to college in Boston. This was my plan from a long time ago.

Just like Kuara, my young soul still did not want to budge with my dreams. I was well aware of my position in the Abhimanyu family. There are various responsibilities that I have to bear because I am the sole heir to the family business. And I have absolutely no intention of changing that plan.

Right now I'm convinced that Kuara is my choice to spend my old days. Merely, I was worried whether Kuara was able to wait in that long time. Will he wait for me to come back?

I had high hopes that Kuara would wait for me. I tried to calm my heart. Our feelings are welcome to each other. So there's no way he won't wait for me, right?

I gently rubbed the back of Kuara's hand. Suddenly my heart piasmed at the thought of our separation.

“I hope you'll wait for me back, Ara. Because my heart has chosen you.” I slowly kissed the top of Kuara's head that was still on my shoulder.

I am still a teenage boy. But the feeling I felt for Kuara, it was very sincere. Only with Kuara do I dare to devise a plan for a happy future together. If I had never done that before.

“You're mine, Kuara. I won't let you be owned by anyone but me. So I beg you. Be willing to wait for me even though this will take a very long time. I really love you. My feelings are deep in you.”

I don't know if he heard that even in his dreams or his subconscious. I just wanted to

I spilled all my feelings on him. I wanted to make her understand that I also have a dream and I can't give up on that dream. A dream of responsibility on my shoulders.

All night I didn't fall asleep and just kept holding Kuara's hand. I've been looking after him all night. Ensure that your sleep is sound and not disturbed.

I wanted to satisfy her before I didn't have time to meet her because I had to prepare for the graduation exam.

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Since that night, I have rarely seen Kuara. I don't have time. Because the graduation exam is in sight. I am busy with studying and studying. I wanted to get the best grades so as not to disappoint my parents.

There was a great hope slung on my shoulders. The hope of the Abhimanyu family that I can't ignore at all.

“Papa has signed you up for MIT.” Said Papa one night.

The Massachusetts Institute of Technology (MIT). It's in Boston. United States's. It is the best university in the world. My desire to take Business Economics will certainly help me take care of the foundation in the future.

“I even just finished the exam, Pa.”

“It's okay. With your grades, papa has confirmed your graduation there. It's not easy to get that place. So you should make the most of this opportunity. Papa also bought you an apartment there for you to live in during college there. This time, Papa will really let you alone.”

“Papa can trust me. I'll be fine later there.”

Papa and I looked at Mama who was sobbing. Mama is crying. Makes me and Papa look at each other in wonder.

“Mama why?”

“Haa.. Huaaa... Imagining that the clouds are going away from us, my heart feels very sick.”

Papa laughed to see Mama who was even more crying.

“Ma, I still haven't left.”

“Stay only. You haven't left yet but Mama has missed you so much. How is this.”

“Mama overload.” Maiga. He seemed to be unconcerned and continued to chew banana chips in his mouth.

I chose to get out of the living room and into the room. Long time looking at the computer screen. At first I wanted to play a game. But my mind kept on going to Kuara.

I tried to convince myself. That I'm not selfish asking him to wait. MIT, and Kuara. I really don't want to let go of either one.

But if I think about distance and time, I can't bear to tell Kuara to wait. Not sure if he will wait or not.

Huf..

I should how? A question that is clearly the answer.

While Kuara still has to focus on her commitment, it seems like I can continue my education. Think of it as my way of killing time waiting for Kuara to finish with her commitment. Even when time has made me more mature. I'll be back with him later.

But one thing is clear. It's all still just my prejudice. I haven't asked Kuara's opinion let alone heard her answer.