The Love Traces of RAHWANA

Quarters 26.

When we got out of the restaurant, the rain started to fall. The clouds don't care. He continued to drive his motorcycle towards the south square.

“are you cold, ra?” Ask Clouds.

“no.” My answer. Because I wear pretty thick clothes.

Either I'm the only one feeling awkward, but obviously, I feel really bad for the Clouds. He also did not protest as I folded my hands behind his back to put some distance between us. Normally, he would pull my hand and wrap it around his stomach.

We've reached the square and the Clouds have parked their bikes. We took shelter in a tent that was there. Not many people because it is raining. The day is almost too late.

“you want something?” The clouds opened their mouths.

“later. Still full.”

I was greeted by a small drizzle that was exposed to the dim light of the garden lights. Ah, I really feel really awkward right now.

Slowly, the drizzle began to turn into rain. People are running to find shelter.

“Awan, I'm really sorry to you. I know I've hurt your heart. I will not seek justification for my words. I just don't want to be tormented in an uncertain wait.” Overshipped. Because we were so close, I'm sure the clouds heard what I said.

“It's okay. I understand your situation. I'm sorry that I was selfish to ask you to wait for me when we had nothing to do. I've crossed the line.”

“I'm sorry too for not being able to return your feelings. I'm really sorry.”

“Already, I don't think we need to apologize to each other. It's weird.”

I concur. The expression of apology actually made our atmosphere awkward and strange.

The rain is falling more and more. I saw a watch, it's 10 p.m. I texted my mom and told her I might be late for home.

A second later, she made a video call to me.

“Ya, Ma?”

“You where it rains like this?”

“We're in the square, Mom. We'll be home when the rain has subsided.” I said. I changed the rear camera for a while to show that I wasn't lying.

“Ya. Careful on the road.”

I nodded then mom turned off the phone.

“Ara?”

“Hm?”

“Tomorrow nights, can you come to the airport to take me? I want to see your face before I go.”

I'm nodding. Coming to the airport is not difficult for me. “Good. What time is the flight?”

“19.45.”

“I will come before 6.”

Ten minutes later, we were silent. I'm really confused what to discuss with the Clouds.

I consider tonight to be my farewell night to the Clouds. I sincerely let him go. He has to pursue his dream. I am consistent with my dreams too.

I don't know why I don't feel strong enough to hold back my tears. I tried to calm my heart. I try not to sob next to the Clouds. I'm shy.

I have no regrets about not being able to make a commitment with Awan. Deep in my heart, I am grateful. I can't imagine a long distance relationship if I accept the feeling of Clouds. Because long-distance contact, it won't work for me.

“Ayo.”

The cloud speech that shocked me was half dead. Maybe I'm not the only one surprised. But some of the people who were there looked strangely at us.

The clouds just pulled me away when it was raining. Suddenly I was drenched in rain.

“Woman! It's raining! Where to?!”

He stopped between the banyan twins. We've been like crazy people playing in the rain while people are busy taking shelter. My body has been drenched and rained by the strange looks of people in the

distance.

“Ra, close your eyes.” Cloud Speech. He started to back forward towards the banyan twins.

I confused? Of course I'm very confused. Which sane person crosses the twin banyan during such a heavy rain? I think it's just us.

But what was more confusing was, I just obeyed his words. When I got close to Banyan I immediately closed my eyes. The cloud continued to hold my hand forward.

Only the swift drops of rain that I felt hit my face leaving a pain in the skin. But it's not just my face that feels sore, my heart as well. My eyes are heating up.

The clouds are not who I am. Especially sweetheart. We're just friends. But why is my heart hurting so much to let him go?

I felt the clouds no longer pulling me. So I stopped too.

“Open your eyes, Ra.” Clouds in the middle of the noise of rain.

I opened my eyes and looked at the cloud standing before me. Then the clouds turned behind me.

“Cry if you want to cry. No one will notice you here. At most they think we're crazy.”

I was surprised to find that the clouds were aware of my sadness.

And already, I couldn't help myself anymore after he said so. My tears flowed even more than before. Fused with melted rainwater that would not budge my face.

The clouds were silent and said nothing. While I was still busy venting my sorrow for having to release the departure of Awan to a very far place.

After I managed to get over myself, I then turned around.

“I want to go home.”

And the clouds just nodded. Then he walked and I followed him behind. I just lowered my face. Shameful with those who are still loyal staring strangely at us.

As soon as I got on the bike, the clouds immediately burst into gas leaving the location of the square. We stayed in the rain which slowly started to subside a bit. Stayed the whole way until we got to my house.

“Thanks for accompanying me tonight, Ra.”

“Sama-sama.”

“Then I go home first. Say hello to Mother. Say sorry 'cause I brought you up so late this night in a drenched state.”

I'm nodding.

The clouds had already climbed back onto his motorcycle and were ready to slide.

“Awan!” I stopped the Cloud.

The clouds looked at me. “Why?”

“Thank you for this one year time. It's great to be friends with you.”

The cloud did not answer. He just looked back to the front and then put his bike forward. I looked at him until his back disappeared from my sight.

“Yeah, kid. Why come home raining? Until it gets soaked like this. Can call to be picked up by Mas Bagus.”

“Ara is afraid of the night, Mom. Ara doesn't want mom to worry.”

“Yes, Deck. Quickly go into your room and change your clothes.”

I'm nodding. “Ara to room first yes, Bu.”

Even the floor I was passing through got wet from the water droplets from my clothes. I continued to go inside the room and take a warm bath then changed my pajamas and immediately wrapped my body in a blanket.

I don't know why I feel cold now. I did not feel cold at all despite the heavy rain.