The Love Traces of RAHWANA

Quarry 11.

I sat on the canteen table. Can't wait for my rice to come out. I was hungry because I didn't have breakfast at home.

While next to me, Fio was stirring up with a bowl of jumbo meatballs that were still puffing out the smoke. It was a bribe from me so that Fio wouldn't tell Yuta that I was with Awan last night. I don't want to feel more guilty about Yuta.

Guilt feels like I'm cheating on Yuta. I just feel bad for Yuta after what he did for me. I try to keep his feelings. I don't want to hurt anyone. Sometimes my way is wrong.

The sighting of a plate of rendang rice plus the leaves of yam and green sambal that is now presented in front of me makes my stomach instantly struggling. I immediately devoured it mercilessly. Revenge on hunger.

“Where to go after this?” The question of Yuta disperse my concentration of rendang rice.

“No.” My answer. Today, I only have one class schedule.

Normally, I would spend time in the library, not this time. I was afraid to meet the Clouds after last night. Just imagine I'm still embarrassed.

“You want to go for a walk?”

“No destination.”

And Yuta just fell silent.

Why is my mind always on the clouds? Sucks.

I sharpened my ears when Yuta got a phone call from his friend. Sayup-sayup heard that they have a promise to play takrau this afternoon.

Yuta looked at me after closing the phone. I know he feels responsible for driving me home. No one asked for it.

“Go. I'll just take a cab. No need to feel guilty.” I sambiil devoured the last mouthful into my mouth.

Yuta only nodded once. Then he grabbed his bag and left first.

“Yuta seems to be angry with you.” Fio.

“Why should he be angry?”

Fio shrugged both his shoulders.

“You work?”

Fio nodded. He heard his phone ringing and he immediately picked it up.

“Sorry, Ra. I've been picked up.” Said Fio who immediately finished his meatball.

I just sneered at Fio. Her face was sumringah because her lover had come to pick her up.

Now I live alone in our dining chair. I was thinking about what I could do after I got home from college.

I pulled my phone out of my bag. The phone is already dead. Maybe the battery ran out. That's a sign that the clouds didn't touch my phone at all. I smiled because he didn't violate my privacy.

I put my phone back in my bag and then left the cafeteria.

The weather was quite hot when it was 10 in the morning. Making a shadow of ice cincau dance in my head.

I walked to the front of the multipurpose building where usually the ice sellers and their friends held out under the banyan tree in front of the building.

Before I reached into the wallet from inside the bag. Looking for a fraction of five thousand rupiah to pay for a glass of fresh ice chirp.

I stopped when I saw an unusual sight before me.

There, near the brick seller, I saw Cloud who was enthusiastic about telling a beautiful girl. The girl even held Cloud's arm with her mesra. Leaning his head on the shoulders of the Clouds while laughing happily.

The one thing that came to my mind was, Cloud lover? Because anyone who sees that intimacy will definitely think the same as me.

The sight made me stumble in disbelief. There was a speck of pain in the recesses of my heart that I could feel right now.

I was circulating my gaze to find an alternative way to not cross paths with the Clouds.

But think again, why should I avoid it? Why did you meet Cloud and her boyfriend? I have no faults until I have to avoid them.

Seeing my arrival, Cloud immediately pulled his arm from the girl. Looking worried at me.

But I don't care. It has nothing to do with me. At least that's what I'm trying to convince my own heart.

Why does my heart feel pain?

“Ara...” Slowly flowed. His gaze was still awkwardly wrinkled.

“Oh, hi Clouds.” Sapaku friendly. I even smiled at him. Trying my best to save a little bit of pain that I could feel.

The clouds neither answered nor returned my smile. He just kept looking seriously at me with a frown.

“What's here?” Ask again.

“Mbak this who?” Ask the pretty girl. And he again wrestled spoiled in the arms of the Clouds.

That question made me feel kind enough to Cloud. That man did not respond to me at all.

“Away home?” Ask Clouds.

I'm nodding.

“Yes already, I'm leaving first. Daaa.” I smiled as I waved at them.

Holding a fake smile on my lips while passing through the Clouds just like that. Then stop a taxi that happened to pass by on the street near the multipurpose building. Squeezing five thousand in my grasp as an outpouring of my pain. I didn't buy ice.

After closing the taxi door, I took the time to turn to Cloud from inside the taxi. The man also stared at the taxi that took me away from the campus.

Ever since that incident for over a week I've been avoiding the Clouds. When the guy calls, I won't pick him up and then I'll send him a message that I'm busy and can't pick up his phone.

I only replied to her message once so that I wouldn't seem arrogant. I need to clarify my own boundaries.

When I got home from college, I always used to hang out in Yuta's car in the school parking lot. Several times I saw the Cloud in front of the campus gate on his motorcycle.

Maybe he was waiting for the girl.

Why should I be looking for it? I don't know what exactly I'm doing. I felt unable to say hello especially until face to face with the Clouds. My heart hurts to think about it.

The thing that strengthens me is my commitment.

“Hufh..” I involuntarily sighed as the Clouds came to my mind.

“Why, Dek?” Ask Mas Bhanu.

The man sitting in front of me still wearing his proud uniform looked in wonder at me.

Ah, I just realized that I was with Mas Bhanu. My brother is the only one who works as an aviator aka a plane pilot in TNI-AU. My sister is the only one who rarely comes home.

“It's okay, Mas.”

“Why is your face so sour?” Investigate Mas Bhanu back.

“It's okay.”

“Thinking of girlfriend?”

“I don't have a girlfriend, Mas.”

“Hhhhhhh! Loss. Pretty-beautiful don't have a boyfriend.” Seloroh Mas Bhanu again.

I just chuckle at hearing it.

“Of course this handsome Masku already has a girlfriend?” My reply.

This time Mas Bhanu who died a flea couldn't answer me. And I could only laugh off looking at his annoyed expression while sneering at me.