The Gun In My Hand's

Chaptre 06. Sometimes I Start to Wonder

Newcastle General Hospital, Newcastle (Tyne and Wear), UK - 08.28 pm.

"How is he doing?"

"It's stable. Doctor Robinson said it shouldn't take him long to regain consciousness."

"What about Elisha?" I thought for a moment to tell Elisha his current state. Since yesterday we arrived in the UK, Elisa has not touched her food at all.

How not, this was so surprising to him. Even I myself have never heard bad news about the health of James Armstrong ever exported in any business magazine. The fact that I just found out turns out James Armstrong has long suffered from heart disease. Of course, Zach took part in silencing all the media about this news.

"He hasn't eaten his food. He insisted on continuing to wait for his father to come to his senses."

Zach's rough breathing was heard from this call. After our arrival this morning, he had to leave immediately for work. While I was instructed to continue with the Armstrong family. Of course I have never seen my face in front of Elisha, except for the night before in Paris.

"Please persuade him to fill his stomach. If he was also sick, it would make a lot of people worry." I was silent, confused to answer if I did not intend to appear in front of Elisha.

" ... "

Long time no sound from Zach anymore. Is he talking to someone?

"Leon ... I entrust them to you. Tell me about any developments about them. I have to finish my remaining work." The call was decided by Zach. Although Zach has a lot of work, but he still put the Armstrong family first.

Strict care has been planned for the entire hospital area. This is the anticipation that has always been made for the safety of some important people.

In addition, many impacts will be caused if this important news is exposed out. Not only does it provide an opportunity for business competitors to attack, but it could also be that the security status of the Armstrong family will be threatened.

Elisha was also very worried. From yesterday's sudden return, he never even filled his stomach. The food I left the nurse she never touched.

I just sighed when she was like that again. Right now I'm just watching this family enough, I can't show up suddenly given the last time Elisha wanted to.

My mind was distracted as Doctor Robinson and the nurses flocked into Mr. Armstrong's room. From the glass door, I could see Elisa and Lady Armstrong hugging each other while crying. It seems Mr. Armstrong is conscious. Afterwards, I sent a short message to Zach.

Seeing that things had improved, I decided to go to the outer courtyard of the hospital. I took a little time to smoke and leaned against the wall at a dim angle.

The cold night air tickled my nape. The hospital has many concerns for many people inside. The hysteria of the person I witnessed one of them was the cry of Elisha when he saw the condition of Mr. Armstrong that was not good.

It was the third time I saw the haughty woman crying. How could he hide his fragility so well? The look on his face that always shows arrogance and his lips that always throw harsh words does not guarantee his firmness.

She is still a woman who needs a backrest when in her slump. I can't imagine that woman would carry such a huge burden if Mr. Armstrong were indeed helpless. All the wealth and possessions owned by his father will make him an easy target for many people. His security will really be at stake when that happens.

This situation makes me very grateful to be born with many brothers. Yeah, even though they're all so annoying and noisy, at least I'm not as lonely as Elisha.

He was born as an only child who has always been a pride and is required to be perfect in everything. It was only fitting that his attitude made me a bit confused to deal with him. Sometimes he looks so spoiled with Zach but in front of others he looks so haughty and tough.

Her tears made me speechless. Frankly, the first time she cried because of me, I also realized for the first time feeling guilty. I was well aware of my attitude that was too rude even to a woman.

Sometimes I just say harsh words to a woman, but every time I meet Elisha I feel like I want to explode. Unknowingly I had also been physically rude to him. Maybe it was the one that made her so scared and hate me. Maybe also during his life, I was the one who contributed the worst physical injuries. Gravely.

My mind kept wandering thinking about Elisha. Since I first met him I've been very interested, I mean physically interested. I can't lie to myself.

There is no man who refuses the charm of Elisha, for example, I can't even finish my passion just because I keep thinking about it. I couldn't even sleep with another woman after meeting her. Of course, I don't want to be the real bastard who forced her to sleep with me.

Shit, what am I thinking. At a time like this you can still think about it, Leon. Irritatedly I threw away my nearly finished cigarette and stepped on it. I brought back my new cigarette. Just now that I had taken the trouble of turning on my cigarette lighter with a strong wind around it, I saw the woman that had been on my mind all along.

He seemed to be unconsciously walking to the dim corner of my place. With his high heels, he walked on the barren path until he finally looked straight and found myself staring at him.

I don't know what made me quickly hide the previous cigarette on my lips back. Of course, he had seen it. I slowly loosened my finger and a cigarette fell onto the floor.

Elisha approached me and the next thing he did made my mind go awry. He propped up his body with both hands touching the wall. He cried while bowing his face.

He immediately burst onto the floor, and I quickly caught his body. I positioned myself to sit next to him and hold both of his vibrating shoulders. He hit his chest very hard. I'm sure he feels tight in there.

I held her hand so as not to hurt her too far. In this condition he was very unable to control himself, until I finally decided to embrace him. He spilled all his sadness on my shoulder.

I've seen Zach do it, I hope it works. Slowly my free hand rubbed his back and head. I spoke words that calmed him down. This is really my first time, I couldn't think of a better way than this.

It turns out what I did worked. Elisha calmed down again and his body did not shake. Just a small snitch was heard that slowly disappeared. I let this position go on until he calmed down completely.

Elisha was finally the first to let go of this embrace. He leaned his back and head against the wall. This atmosphere is so awkward. I ended up leaning my back against the wall. For a few minutes we didn't talk to each other.

Elisha suddenly extended his hand towards me. I was confused as to what he was doing until he finally started making noises.

"Give it."

"What?" I scrunched my forehead a sign of not understanding.

"Give me your cigarette." Taking my cigarette box out of my pocket, I asked, "What for?"

He had not answered me as he took out a cigarette and slipped it between his lips. He put the cigarette box back in my hand.

"Where's the lighter? Turn this cigarette on."

"You shouldn't smoke, Elisha." He looked into my eyes. For a moment I was bewitched by her gaze. It went on for a long time until I gave up and turned my gaze in another direction.

"All right ..." I reached into the lighter and turned it on for a cigarette tucked in Elisha's lips. He is the one who is focused on the burning fire and I who is focused on his slightly sad face.

At first I thought she was a woman who sometimes calmed her mind by smoking. I was a little surprised by this request. But it turns out I was wrong. Of course, because all this time I never saw him smoke.

After taking a sip of his cigarette, he suddenly coughed uncontrollably. He just threw away the cigarette. I helped him by patting his back.

"Yahuwk ... Ohuuk ... Uhuuk. Shit, my lungs are poisoned. How can you be okay with this sip?"

I watched him in silence. Yeah, Elisha we're back as we were. I laughed out loud at this behavior. He couldn't smoke, and he had confidently asked me for a cigarette.

"Why are you laughing! It's not funny."

"You hungry?" I broke the silence with questions. He finally stopped looking at me and looked around.

"Yeah, I'm a little hungry. Crying drains a lot of my energy." I smiled silently at the answer.

"You didn't eat your food from yesterday. You know I bought it using my precious money. Should I ask Zach to replace it?" He looked back at me. Her pouting face made me even more anxious with her.

"You're so stingy! I can even replace that money as big as your salary. So bring your cheap food now. I'm so hungry right now!" His grumbling makes me chuckle. He changed quickly from his condition.

"Alright ... Are you sure you want to eat it here?"

"Why not?"

I noticed his current condition. It is an open and very cold room. While he does not care about his clothes are quite minimal. She wears her blouse and short skirt. How do I know he didn't freeze after I left him for a few minutes?

I finally let go of my cout and I put on his shoulder. At least he did not refuse to cover his body with the cout. I assume it was the first hospitality I received from him.

"Wait a minute."

I got out of my seat and went to the hospital. I don't know why I had to do it, I should have been able to contact the other bodyguards to bring me some food and I didn't have to bother picking it up myself.

I headed to Mr. Armstrong's nursery where many of the foods Elisha had forgotten. When I entered the room, Doctor Robinson was having a light conversation with Mr and Mrs Armstrong. I bow my head in a sign of respect for them. Doctor Robinson who saw me immediately asked, "Leon, are you with Zach?"

"No, Zach's still not done with his work. But I've contacted him so don't worry. I'm still here until everything's safe."

"Ah, thank goodness. I don't know how to handle this anymore if the media finds out."

After saying so Doctor Robinson continued the conversation with the couple. From his talk, Doctor Robinson sought to advise Mr. Armstrong's health. I let them focus on the conversation and took a bag of bread and mineral water for Elisha.

As I was about to get out, Doctor Robinson asked again, "What's that food you're bringing?" I stared at the bag in my hand.

"Elisa needs this."

I unknowingly mentioned Elisha's name in front of them all. Shouldn't I call her Miss Armstrong? Doctor Robinson and the Armstrong couple stared at me. I'm sure they'll ask me a lot of questions if I don't leave right now.

"I have to hurry, he's waiting for me." That's why I came out without permission. I don't want Mr. Armstrong scolding me against his son.

Soon I returned to where Elisha was. He's still in the same position. He stared straight ahead watching the other patients enjoying the night air.

"Eat."

I put the bag of food in front of him. He opened the bag and opened the bread. He ate very voraciously, it seemed like he was very hungry. Two loaves of bread he had finished. He had just eaten his third loaf of bread in one big bite, but he then stopped it. Is he a glut?

"It's peanut butter ... I don't like it."

He slowly put the bread back in the bag and looked for other breads that did not contain peanut butter. Seeing the bread he disliked, I decided to finish it. Besides, I'm also very hungry. Elisha, who was eating his new bread, noticed me chewing on his used peanut butter bread.

"What?" We looked at each other as we chewed on each other's bread.

"What other than being stingy, you don't really want to throw food away until you eat my leftovers."

I was engaged in my chewing. How could he take my joke seriously. I was just kidding about money.

"Dad. You know I really need money and you easily throw away this food."

He paused for a moment and went back to chewing his bread slowly. It seemed like he was very embarrassed by his words towards people who needed money like me.

After the incident, we had no further conversations and only ate in silence. I'm not going to invite him to chat about many things that will even make him sad again. When all the bread was finished, I invited him to go back inside as the air grew colder.

"We have to get in. You'll freeze if you keep going here."

"All right."

He's very obedient for now. When I helped him get up from sitting down, I was very uncomfortable with his high heels. My eyes even hurt to see him walking in those shoes. I finally stopped walking and asked him to take off his shoes.

"No, are you crazy? I won't walk barefoot when witnessed by many."

"You think I'm stupid? You saw your own feet blister."

I forced him to take off the shoes and give them back to him. Afterwards, I turned my back and squatted in front of him.

"Hurry along. You're gonna leave me like this for a long time? You'd be so annoying if you didn't get on my back right away because everyone's watching us." He looked around and there were some people watching us.

She finally got on my back and I carried her to Mr. Armstrong's nursery. He hid his face in my neck. Maybe he was embarrassed to be noticed by many people.

When I was at the door of Mr. Armstrong's room, I tried to open it with one hand. I was so shocked that Mr and Mrs Armstrong still hadn't slept and there was a man I didn't know. Mr and Mrs Armstrong who was busy talking with the man turned his eyes towards us.

"Elisa?"

The man stood up from his seat and was shocked by our arrival. I slowly lowered Elisha from my sling. But the next incident surprised me. The man immediately hugged Elisha who was beside me.

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