The Gun In My Hand's

Chapters 10. I Don't Know How to Make It Stop

Armstrong Company, City of London, UK – 08.32 am.

Yeah, you're still there. I know it. My eyes again stared at the mobile screen that displayed the confused face of Elisha behind the glass wall there. I still vividly remember how irritated he was with the female employees who were somehow so interested in my presence.

I'm not a stupid man who doesn't know what they're talking about. And I let that be because I wanted to see the irritated face of Elisha which to me was so beautiful.

I put my phone in my pocket. I can't keep my brain crazy from looking at Elisha's face. As I sipped my cigarette, I kept looking at the glass wall. For a moment I closed my eyes to think about what happened this morning. 

You're driving me crazy, Elisa. Slowly I remembered whatever we had done. That lip. That kiss. That body. Everything was. I want to touch it and keep going.

My imagination stopped when my phone shook. Zach's? I picked up Zach's call and threw away my cigarette. I went back into the waiting room. I don't want our conversation to be observed by some people, even Elisha. I chose a far corner.

"Zach?" That was the first word that came out of my lips. Zach's rough gasps rang out into my ears.

"Leon ... I called at the wrong time, but trust me this bothers me a lot."

"Say, Zach." I know the direction of this conversation. I'm certain.

"Please don't be Elisha, Leon." For sure.

"She's not a woman you can sleep with at any time and you can leave if you don't want her anymore. Please whoever it is but Elisha."

"Zach, I—"

"We've been friends for a long time, Leon. I know how you treat a woman. He has a fragile heart. She's an honorable and untouchable woman, so I hope you understand."

Shit, I get it, I understand exactly what Zach is asserting. Not position and money, but whatever it is about my personal life.

"Give me a little time." I can only say that.

"Allah ... Ii'm sorry. Really, I don't mean to blame you. But I'm well aware, I'm not stupid to see any interest between the two of you. You can think it's just a physical attraction, but I can't imagine how devastated Elisha would be when he brought his feelings. I'd feel guilty if it happened—"

"I get it, Zach." Zach's rough breathing was heard again.

"After the next three days, I want you in Greece with Dereck for a week. I hope you can finish whatever it is that's about Elisha." After that request, Zach immediately turned off the connection because he had to work again.

I thought about Zach's request, frankly feeling very disappointed. Disappointed about me like this. I don't know why I don't want this to end so soon. Zach's request means that I will cease to be responsible for Elisha.

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Three days later ...

I didn't expect it to be like this. The closeness I should have avoided was the opposite. Elisha narrowed the distance between us. How many times I swiped, but he pulled me back. No matter how hard I avoid the look in her eyes, she still continues to be my concern.

For these three days he kept wanting me to accompany him. Shopping, work, and even eating together. I felt myself softening with his attitude. I never snapped at him, more than that, I just ignored him and answered so that there was no dispute between us.

Unknowingly he also did a silly thing that easily made me smile and even laugh.

He was once angry with me and ignored my every question just because I was starving while waiting for him to work, so I decided to look for food. When I approached him and told him about the food I had from the employees, he rambled a sign of dislike.

"It's unhealthy food. Why do you so easily accept this cheap food. They could have poisoned you. Are you stupid?" He took all the food I brought and threw it in the trash.

Once she ended her dinner at a restaurant just because a waitress rolled her eyes at me. I still clearly remember the chatter at the time.

"You're an impolite woman. Why are you like that to my friend. She already has a woman who is much more beautiful and sexy than you. Ah, I don't have a taste for eating here anymore." 

The maid was very panicked when Elisha was like that. He begged Elisha not to leave his desk. Elisha finally relented to the request he wanted that each of us serve was a male servant.

Her childish and jealous attitude like that made me want her even more. Ever since our first kiss, I've been dreaming of nothing about her. The desire to touch him grew. But I can't cross that line. I can't tarnish Zach's trust.

These three days I want to dispel every thought of Elisha. Every night I always make myself on the long way to the club, but believe me everything always ends up free. I can't even touch any woman.

I always ended up drunk and asked Dereck to pick me back up. I always wake up with a sweaty body. I've never been like this before, not even with that woman. Not once.

Just look at what Elisha is doing right now. He knew Zach wouldn't come home tonight to the Missions, so he deliberately forced me to accompany him to swim. Is he not cold? At first I refused, but this was the last night I could see her beautiful face.

I also still remember the first time I found her with a wet body. She's a stupid woman who walked around stalking me in the middle of the night. I just found out he has a weird hobby, which is swimming in the middle of the night.

"You don't want to join, Leon. I'm tired of just swimming alone." My memory stopped as the voice interfered with me. He said that casually while swimming backstroke. 

His body was extremely seductive with every radiant water touching every curve of his body. Without thinking much, I took off my shirt to catch up with him. I immediately threw myself into the column to reach Elisha who was on the side of the pond.

When I had arrived at the side of the pond not far from him, he looked shocked at my whereabouts. I'm restoring my hair to clarify my vision. Did she not think I would follow her wishes?

But then she smiled, very charming. It made me more interested in approaching him. The distance between us is getting smaller. The dim atmosphere of the night encouraged us to look at each other.

No one can deny the fact that we are very interested in each other. Let's say I'm physically interested, but it's true. I can't just look at him. I want to touch it too.

The interest only grew stronger when Elisha also narrowed our distance. And out of nowhere the signal got stronger when Elisha suddenly kissed me. The longing to touch her is getting stronger. I can't lie to myself when I want to. 

We need each other. 

I subconsciously grabbed Elisha's body and forced him to hold on to my shoulder because I was holding him. Nothing's stopping us. I felt Elisha pulling my wet hair.

I don't want to lose by pressing his nape. We didn't even feel in the cold water because what we were feeling right now was a heated passion because of this kiss.

I continued and continued to thirst for Elisha. Elisha's voice was muffled on my lips as I slowly began to touch his body. He gave absolutely no rejection of my actions, making me even more confident. The kiss came off and I took the opportunity to explore Elisha's neck.

That beautiful voice kept coming out from her ripe lips. I can't help it, really. I leaned Elisha's back on the edge of the pool as my eyes wanted to see that face. I slowly lowered the bikini bra she was acquainted with and held what was behind it. I kissed Elisha again on the neck and gave him the sign of my possession there.

The fog of passion was so intense that I destroyed it. My sense returned when those lips called my name out loud. I took Elisha's shoulder away from me.

"Leon .. you ..." 

Elisa could not continue her words. My eyes suddenly opened. Elisha looked puzzled, he quickly covered his exposed chest. I can't, I can't go on.

My mind wanders everywhere right now. I can't focus my mind on anything I've just done. I was silent as I let go of my grip on Elisha's shoulder.

Elisha slowly turned to walk away from me. He managed to reach the stairs leading out of the pool. He just walked and kept walking. I watched his back go.

My heart's sore. I was like .. abandoned. My mind came to a realization and I tried to get out of the pool to chase after Elisha. I managed to see that back in the dark. I quickly grabbed Elisha's hand.

"Norris ..." 

He stopped walking, but he did not answer and faced me. I felt his hands shake.

"Leon, I'm fine. I need a break." His voice was small and unusual. What's wrong with her?

"Leon ... Please let me." Elisha's shoulders were shaking. I immediately turned her body around and that's when I found out. I had unknowingly hurt Elisha. Hurt her feelings as a woman.

Elisha shed his tears, I was stunned speechless. My body squeezed for a moment. Elisha grabbed my wrist and let go of my grasp.

He just walked away from me. He didn't look at me, not at all. My feet can't move. I can't even go after him. One sentence that kept ringing in my head was ...

Leon, good-bye.

Elisha's face disappeared from my mind. I tried so hard to remember that beautiful face. Can't do. I ... forgot. What the hell happened to me? I shed my tears—

"Leon! Leon! Hey, Leon ..." I opened my eyes. Cold sweat was flowing down my forehead. Dereck looks astonished at the moment.

"What's wrong with you? You don't usually fall asleep on the way. You were having a nightmare, so I woke you up. We'll be here any minute. Be prepared." 

I was still silent and wiping the sweat on my forehead. No. gabe. It wasn't just a nightmare. I still remember how I rejected Elisha last night. And here I leave him the wounded.

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On the Road to Thessalonica, Greece – 05.47 am.

After last night, I didn't even say goodbye to him. I don't want to keep thinking about it that's gonna make it harder for me to leave. But really, I never imagined a farewell like this. I just ...

"Zach what's wrong?" Dereck's voice came back to my attention.

"Leon? Yeah, he's with me." Dereck gave me his phone.

"Zach—"

"Damn it, what have you done, you son of a bitch! I won't forgive you if anything happens to Elisha!"

I started to panic. What happened to Elisha?

"Zach what do you mean? What happened to—"

"Don't go back to the Missions before I allow you and never show your face in front of Elisha. That's an order, Leon." After saying that Zach ended his call.

I checked my phone and there have been a lot of calls from Zach. My hands can't wait to contact Elisha and find out what's going on. Can't do. Unconnected. I checked the actual cctv still connected to Elisha's room. Shit, I think Zach took it.

My mind wandered about Elisha until we reached our destination. I can't focus at all on what I'm going to do right now. Everything still turned around for Elisha.

...***...

One week later ... 

Port of Thessaloniki (Tealonica), Greece – 02.21 am.

"Leon! Leon! What's wrong with you? Focus this time. How many times have we made a mistake." Dereck whispered a little insinuating precisely my mistake.

I shook my head and put my Barret well on the target. We are now in one of the old buildings in the harbor, where the secret headquarters of the Russian mafia has long been the target of missions.

The building is surrounded by many guards. Frankly, it is this syndicate that continues to bombard the British who are now secretly using our services.

A few days ago the attackers at one of the clubs in London who managed to pierce a bullet into Dereck's stomach were these mischievous pets. One ... two .. five ... six. Shit there should be seven.

I have information that this syndicate was built by seven leaders and one of them is the most dangerous. That person is the mastermind of the kidnapping of various state officials.

"Dereck, tell me how much time we need to get out of the way the fastest."

"Two minutes."

"How many people will hinder the trip out?"

"About 40." I refocused myself on choosing the easiest target to target.

"Well, I can't shoot everything." I can't focus a long-range shot. My focus is very difficult to control right now.

"You're kidding! We're only 10 here, Leon. If you don't shoot them all, I won't guarantee that we're all out of here alive."

"Only three, Dereck. After the third shot everything will immediately move faster. The two of us and three agents will settle directly. The rest cleared the way out. Prepare medium scale bombs. You see, it's a little inside, but it contains martial arts and important people."

"Your jokes aren't funny. I can't set up a bomb with a lot of people who'll target me. I'll be here waiting for instruction—"

"I'll protect you. You have to throw a bomb at Dereck's target. They will move faster when they realize it. We can't let them get away. How many bombs do you have?"

"Two great powers, six medium, and ten small."

"Good, take it all down. You're the one holding my Barret. I need a lighter, high-strength shotgun. Maybe AA-12 with full ammunition." 

I tidied up my Barret and took care of it. Dereck who looked panicked, immediately brought his backpack which of course all contained bombs and all the trinkets of weapons. Dereck and I walked down the dark corners of the building to our main destination.

Shooting at close range will be better if the target is quite a lot. However, if I shoot at a long distance, it will be difficult to detect the movement of the target because at this time my focus is very poor.

"Leon. Hey, you're crazy! All I can use Barret is you. I can't target a target with that killing machine. I'm not stupid to use this for close quarters."

"Stop babbling. I need AA-12. Tell me whoever the agent who brought it is currently giving it to me. And one more thing, I'm just telling you to take my Barret instead of using it." Dereck looked so relieved when I explained it.

Before entering the room, we hid in an invisible corner, waiting for my weapon to come. While Dereck took out the kind of bomb he would need when we went inside. He is very good at picking out bombs that are suitable for urgent situations.

Just look at what he's doing, he's tucking all kinds of bombs in his clothes. It was like he wanted to commit suicide. He also slipped two small-scale bombs on my body. I don't know how Zach can get weapons and bombs with this advanced technology. It really helps our work.

Before long, the agent who had the weapon I wanted approached us quietly. He gave the weapon away and had a little discussion with Dereck. When everything is ready, I with my gun and Dereck with the bomb in his hand will open this door.

Let's start the game ...

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