The Gun In My Hand's

Chapters 19. You're My Lover

Greenwich Park Cherry Blossom Avanue, Greenwich (Greater London), UK - 11.23 am.

Ten minutes or so I had no intention of responding to anything Leon said. This is because of what he did earlier, he kissed me without permission in front of people.

Embarrassing.

I glanced beside me and found him acting like nothing had ever happened. Am I the only one here who's embarrassed?

"You hungry?"

He finally opened the conversation.

"Little bit. But I still don't want to leave this place."

"Come, Elisha. There's nothing interesting here, we're just walking aimlessly."

I stopped my steps because I was annoyed to hear his chatter. He himself wanted to take me for a walk, why he also had to protest and whine like a child because he could not find something interesting here.

Can't all men feel the beautiful nuances of nature?

"Leon, stop like this. You're making the atmosphere of this place really unpleasant."

My mood got bad because of Leon's babbling. I turned my walking direction and went back down the road we first entered into this place. Leon was back in action when I managed to leave him at a quick pace.

"Elisa, I'm sorry. All right, you can enjoy this place for as long as you want. I'll keep you company."

"Shut up, shut up!"

I don't know why I can say such a scream until the people I pass by glance at me.

However, shortly after, my arm was quickly blocked by Leon until my steps stopped. His actions forced me to focus on him.

"Sheel!"

He raised his tone higher than me. We have taken a lot of people's attention. We were like lovers arguing.

I felt Leon's face change instantly. She's upset. Just look at the veins on his forehead popping up. Why do we always fight with little things like this? It's very damaging to the atmosphere.

I don't like him always being rude and yelling. I want him to always give up on me.

I looked intently at my arm that he was holding. He instantly let go of my arm and exhaled a rough breath, as if in frustration.

"alright. I won't ruin anything after this. I'm sorry." 

Gotches! Forgive me.

I said nothing and continued with a smile. We found ourselves in the car.

All right, this time the agenda I want is to take control of Leon's abusive nature. He had to keep suppressing his emotions for me.

"I want sweet food."

"alright. Is there a restaurant you want to go to?"

He said it while running the car.

"No. I want to go to the river Thames . It seems that by looking at the river, my mind is calmer."

Leon was quite aware I was mocking him. We had a hard time with our emotions.

"I just don't like crowds, Elisha. It'll be hard to keep an eye on you when a lot of people are passing by."

"I'm a child indeed. If I get lost I'll just call you."

"You know that's not what I meant. How in the crowd and we jostle all of a sudden you're stabbed with a sharp knife until your stomach is torn and spewing out your internal organs."

"You're kidding! That's too horrible. We're not in a thriller."

"That could have happened. Who knows there are enemies of your family who hate your family so much and want to kill you right now.You don't know the danger will appear anywhere—"

"Then I have to go! Should we go to the club to find you sleeping with the bitches. Is that a place you're interested in?!"

"Sheel!"

Leon stopped his car suddenly. He hit the steering wheel very hard. Anger enveloped the atmosphere inside this car.

He closed his eyes again and slowly turned his head. I chose to lean my back to the seat and look ahead. I don't know why today was so emotional.

"See, we're doing it again."

He's pinching his head. It's very draining when it comes to getting your emotions out. It's just a trivial thing, why do I always want to be angry too?

"All right, I'm sorry. We're going to the Thames."

He relented. But I didn't expect to be there when our mood was so bad.

"If you're uncomfortable with a lot of people, then I'll call my colleagues. I'll—"

"No. Let me take care of it myself. Before that, we'll have lunch."

He cut my words and I let him because he didn't want to re-ignite each other's emotions.

...***...

Royal Greenwich Cafe, Greenwich - 01.05pm.

My mood changed instantly as I tasted many desserts in this cafe. Yeah, although nothing changed my interaction mood with Leon, at least it made my mood go back.

Leon just ordered a quick sandwich, and I ordered nothing but a dessert. He did not protest at all, although from the beginning he entered until now he continued to look at me sharply and chose silence. The previous situation made him not want to ruin this situation.

From the beginning we entered, the cafe was quiet because it closed suddenly and we ended up just eating together. I don't know how much he spent renting this cafe to fix our awkward situation. And I ruthlessly ignored it.

After leaving the cafe, we continued our journey to our next destination. To travel to the Thames river is actually not too far away. However, somehow Leon seemed to take a different path so we were long on the journey. I try not to protest against that.

"You're better?"

I glanced at him.

"Hmm, yeah. So ... why do we use the detour to get to the Thames?"

I hope my question doesn't ruin the mood. Come on, I don't plan on that.

"You realize that?"

He never answered by looking into my face, only I did that while talking to him.

"Yeah."

He didn't elaborate and I'm not asking him to do it either.

...***...

A few minutes later ...

Westminster Millennium Pier, Westminster (Greater London), UK - 02.05 pm.

After a long time, we finally reached the Thames. At first, I tried to talk to Leon not to force myself to have to board a ship with many people. Enough on the river bank is enough. But, she had already grabbed my hand and took me to sit in one of the places to wait for her to talk to someone.

I don't intend to listen to his talk. I was just watching him talk to someone in cooperation, maybe one of the tour boat facilities. A few minutes later, Leon finally took me on board. But like before, this ship was also deserted. There was no one but the crew.

"Leon, aren't there many people today? Why so quiet? Come on, let's just get out. It's so weird."

"Elisa, relax. I did deliberately make this ship just boarded by the two of us."

"What?!"

Okay, I'm really surprised this time. How could? He easily rented this facility in just a few minutes. I squinted my eyes at him.

"You're asking Zach for help?"

He rolled his eyeballs as it passed just like that towards the top of the deck of the ship. He leaned his body on the boat barrier while taking out his cigarette. He was still ignoring me when this ship started walking.

"The only thing Zach wants to talk to me about is getting you home safely."

I'm speechless. What then?

"I rented this tour boat for 24 hours. You can eat or sleep if you're bored up here."

Does he have enough money for this? I think he's gonna spend his whole life on this one day.

I ignored him enjoying his cigarette. I looked at the scenery around me which immediately made me happy. The wind that hit my face gave off an immeasurable atmosphere. I don't know why I'm so happy for this.

I've never been here just to enjoy the atmosphere. Wh why? Because I can't come alone for security reasons. The last time I came here was just to accompany my father to meet his business colleagues.

I pulled out my phone instantly. Don't ask why, because everyone will do the same. I took all the photos of the scenery I liked.

I also want to take my own picture, but it's very hard to be alone. I glanced to the side and found Leon still struggling with his cigarette while looking at me.

I think my head will be hollow over time if he doesn't keep his eyes off. Why is he always like this? I wouldn't be lost if he let me breathe for a while without being stared at. Ah never mind, I undo my intention to ask her to help me take a photo.

We enjoy this facility properly. This tour ship will actually stop at several docks, but this time it seems not. Leon and I enjoyed our time here just to look at the view with some food and drinks.

It's been a long time up here making me sleepy. When I glanced at my phone, it turned out to be a bit late afternoon. Maybe I'll take a nap.

"Leon, I'm sleepy."

He finally moved from his position with me following him into the interior of the ship. He took me to a room and opened the door for me.

"Take as much time as you want to rest." He's gonna close the door.

"Aren't you going to sleep?"

I don't know why I asked that stupid question. My face immediately flushed red, I mean he might as well have to sleep for a while, but not with me. Maybe in the other room.

"No." After saying that, he immediately passed.

My fingers stopped sliding my phone screen when I found some pictures of me and Leon in Greenwich Park. My face is back red.

"Ohhh!!!"

The photo where Leon kissed me was also taken. Between joy and shame mixed in my mind. I kicked the air around with my bare feet. I even hit the pillows so shamefully with the photo.

Maybe about a minute I did that stupid thing. I'm tired, my breath is panting. I sweat too. And this is how things are, pillows are falling and blankets are no more. Is this what many women do if they like someone?

I replaced my phone screen wallpaper with a picture of me and Leon embracing my arm. There I tried to smile stiffly and Leon with his flat face.

Have I gone crazy?

I'm so happy.

Finally, I slept well when tired of smiling to myself like crazy.

...***...

Five hours later ...

I woke up with great difficulty to move. My head's dizzy. When I opened my eyes, I realized I was in Leon's arms. Oh, naw!

I shouted, "Ahhh!"

And instantly Leon woke up on standby in a sitting position. I was still lying in shock. Leon's bewildered face was still very visible and with a moment his unfortunate face appeared.

He seemed to be upset by my screams. Come on, I'm also shocked to find myself waking up in his arms. I thought he was a ghost.

He restored his hair while closing his eyes and rising up instantly. He returned to pick up his cigarette and his cell phone which was located on a small table.

"Leon, why are you here?"

"You didn't see me sleeping."

He said it while sipping a cigarette and still looking at me who was a mess. I glanced at this room which was also a mess.

My god.

I woke up feeling ashamed. Shortly after, my phone sounded. I couldn't find him because he was in Leon's grasp. Oh, naw. That photo!

Leon's eyes narrowed instantly as he looked at the screen of my phone that was still ringing. I got up instantly and grabbed my phone quickly and picked up the call without checking. I turned my back avoiding Leon's gaze because I was so embarrassed right now.

'Elisa, where are you?!'

Zach's?

"I'm .. I'm in one of London's tourist attractions. Why?"

'When are you going home? I can't leave you out there any longer unattended. You know it's very difficult for us, you don't think about how your mom and dad are worried right now.'

I was silent for quite a while. Oh, I hate this moment.

I turned my body towards Leon. He observed his phone as well and immediately looked into my eyes. I don't want to part ways so soon with Leon. I don't know when I'll have another time with him.

I closed my eyes and replied in a heavy tone, "Alright, I'll be home tomorrow."

I watched Leon be surprised by my answer. His face changed instantly. He came out of this room with a very loud door slam.

I forgiving?

I finished the conversation immediately. I'm looking for Leon who's now talking to the crew. He glanced at me and at that moment I heard what he was saying, "Go back to the dock. We're done."

No. gabe. Is he angry with me? My fault.

I got out of the crew room and went back to the deck on the boat. Ah, just now that I was enjoying this sight, I was very disappointed with me who was like this.

Nothing goes well with this, except my career. What exactly can I achieve with that little pleasure? Unknowingly I shed tears.

"So our journey ends today?"

Leon's voice rang out in my ear. He stared at the flickering night scene. I don't want to answer that question with these sad tears.

"I'll be back in Germany for a long time."

I glanced at him quickly. Did he leave me? Again.

"You ... don't have to say—"

I wiped my tears.

"—For what also tells me."

"Aren't you going to miss me?"

What answer does he want? I'm not gonna answer that.

"You want to go to the London Eye?"

"We're too late, Leon. That facility has closed—" I paused my sentence to catch my breath. "—Let's go home."

He checked his phone again without responding to my advice.

"You can't believe I'm renting it right now."

I smile. His jokes serve to please me at the moment. Why did he change his attitude when we were about to part?

We finally made it out of the dock. It's not exhausting, but I don't know why I'm so lazy to walk. I really wanted to put myself to the surface because I didn't want this day to pass.

However, Leon clasped my hand back and pulled me, not toward his car, but toward the facility that would take us somewhere.

The London Eye?

Justright. He really did. Again, the question came to my mind. How much money did he spend today? Did he actually rent this facility just for the two of us? I choose not to ask.

Before we got into the capsule, Leon went back to talking to someone in the suit.

"We only need three rounds. Prepare dinner for us."

He just said that and took me straight into the capsule. I'm still shocked at everything he can do. I sat next to him. He did not release his hand to me.

"Is there anything you want?" I smiled before answering.

"Ice cream and wine."

He narrowed his eyes. Is he going to grant it?

"All right, I'm just kidding." I'm in accordance with my request.

"No. You'll get it."

He re-typed whatever it was on his phone and within minutes it turned out that dinner and my order had been prepared. Is this a farewell dinner?

This giant mill managed to move when all our food came. We ate in silence for a few minutes. Leon ate only a little and the rest of the time he spent looking at me.

I can't read what he's thinking. Are you sad this is our last dinner?

After our meal was over, I stood up from my seat and brought a glass of wine to see the great night atmosphere from up here. Leon stood beside me in silence.

The long silent atmosphere led us to the end of the second round. Leon immediately took the wine glass in my grasp and finished the rest of my wine. He looks frustrated too.

I chose to sit back to where I was because I wanted to enjoy my ice cream. I don't know why I came back to cry. The ice cream in my hand trembled and some of it spilled out of its place and soiled my hand. Leon grabbed me for a moment.

"Hey, relax. Why are you crying? Is this not fun?"

I shook my head. No. gabe. It's even very fun. He wiped my tears with his fingers.

"One day I'll take you back to this place. I'll take you away from Zach a lot. Isn't that fun?"

I laughed at hearing it. Leon smiled too. However, we were silent for a moment when the ice cream I was holding fell onto Leon's shirt and pants. He swore.

"Ah, shit!!!"

I laughed again when I heard his curse. Leon subconsciously approached my face and it managed to keep me quiet without a word.

He said that sentence so clearly that I ignored the scene I should have witnessed because this was our last round up here.

"Should I say this is a couple's date?"

Does that mean the same thing as 'you want to be my lover?'

Oh, naw. There's nothing that takes my attention more right now than Leon in front of me. He said it very clearly in front of me. He said it with a sincere smile.

What am I supposed to do about all this? You took everything, Leon. And I willingly gave it to you.

I smiled and nodded my head. This feeling of happiness is far from anything. Immediately I held onto the side of Leon's face and kissed him. No more tears to come out. Millions of butterflies flying over my head.

I ended the kiss by closing my eyes and resting my body on her chest. Leon hugged my body very tightly, as if afraid of losing me.

Shortly after I heard a whisper in my ear, "You made your lover's face gooey with ice cream." I laughed again very loosely. Can you feel my feelings now?

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