The Gun In My Hand's

Chapters 15. I'm Too Far Gone in All The Wrong Ways

Penthouse Greenwich Avanue, Greenwich (Greater London), UK – 07.07 am.

Does the world above the clouds exist? The silly fairy tale I believe to be real. I believe there is an invisible land where you can set foot on a soft cloud made of cotton. You can even jump and hover very high above that fine blob.

And without realizing it, so high you jump you can drown in it. But take it easy, you'll never fall to the bottom. You'll be trapped by that blob that offers all its softness. Slowly you will enjoy it and fall asleep with the comfort you feel.

Duk ... Duk ... Duk ...

What the hell's going on? This cloud is moving. I woke up from my sleep among the cotton swabs. A whisper is heard. Did the cotton-thieving dwarves come? 

Oh, naw! 

I won't let my cotton go away. I almost reached the source of the vibration by continuing to get rid of the obstructing clumps.

As I put away the last lump in front of my face, I found sunlight hitting my face. It's blinding. When I opened my eyes again, it was true. That's a thief dwarf. 

He laughed innocently and kept beating me. My nose was sore and wet because he threw me a grain of frozen water. Look, I'm gonna get you, Dwarf!

Just now I wanted to push him who was running to the edge of my clouds, subconsciously I tripped and I felt like I was going to fall that very second. Oh, the Creator of the Clouds, save me! 

Wait a minute, I'm not falling. 

When I opened my eyes, I saw my feet floating in the free air and the bottom down there looked really creepy. Thank you to anyone who saved me.

I felt my whole hair being gripped so strongly, my head hurt. When I looked up, it turned out that the dwarf was holding my hair. He laughed foolishly and .. managed to save me. I gave my best smile to this dwarf. 

Are we gonna be friends?

Duk ... Duk ... Duk ...

Wait, what else is this? The cloud is getting louder. My head is getting sick. The dwarf was trying to keep his grip on my hair.

But ... It didn't work, I finally got loose and fell to the bottom of that creepy. I saw the dwarf's face so sad. I fell down and kept screaming so loud that ...

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I fell into a place so soft. Slowly I opened my eyes again. I'm still so scared of where this is. I blinked my eyes and went back. Is this real? 

The dwarf was lying next to me. His face was right in front of my face. His lips were even so close to my nose. He braided my long hair, precisely ruffling my hair. He laughed and looked happy when he could hide his face behind my hair.

Wait a minute ...

I'm still thinking hard. I watched my place now lie.

One ...

Two ...

Three ...

"Oahhhh! You're that dwarf. You kidnapped me!" 

I wake up from my sleep. I pushed my body to the corner of the mattress and covered my body with a blanket. Am I still sane? How could the dwarf in my dream come true? He really kidnapped me.

I ventured out to peek out the blanket. The little boy who was a dwarf in my dream sat down by crossing his legs right in front of me. He was silent and looked confused watching me. What does she want?

"What do you want? What are you a creature?" I asked as if whispering. He was silent, but then he hit the bed and laughed.

"Ma .. mah .. ma .. mah .. ma .. ma .. mah" 

The mama? This kid looks real. He was wearing a star-studded nightgown. I slowly touched her cheek. He went back silent. 

She's real. When I touched her face again, she suddenly got up from her seat and immediately wrapped her hands around my neck while throwing them on my thighs. It's paining.

"Hey! Oye! Unleash it. What the hell is wrong with you? Unleash it. You're scaring me." 

I let go of her hand with great difficulty as she kept jumping calling out the word 'mama' perhaps. However, it seems like I'm so outrageous.

He was pushed and just lying down. Fortunately, he fell still on the bed. I seem to surprise him. His eyes immediately began to tear up and I was sure that he would soon cry.

Sure enough, he sobbed but he did not cry roaring like a child in general. Oh, I'm a bad woman. Look, this kid is crying sobbing. It seemed like she was holding back her cries until her face turned red.

I instantly scooped up his body. He's light and I can still carry him. I brought him down from the bed by stroking his head and resting it on my shoulders.

"Hey, relax. Ii'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you." He still sobs. I don't have a clue to make a child stop being sad. How'this?

"Dad, yeah, I'm a bad woman. You can hit me. Hit me." I moved her hand to beat my cheek but she didn't stop shedding her tears. Aha, hair.

"Hey, look. You like my blonde hair? Here, this is hold. You can play it. I'll teach you how to properly braid it." 

I took a handful of my long hair and showed it in front of this child. I played it by touching it to its rosy cheeks. Succeeds. He stopped crying.

Her face was so sparkling as she held my blonde hair. The next second he throws my hair. He tried to hide himself behind my hair. Okay, looks like I found one person who really likes my hair.

Ignoring the fun of the child in my sling, I glanced through this entire room. So alien. Hand hurts. When I saw the bruise on my wrist, I finally came to my senses.

Leon ...

Overnight ...

Ah, I don't want to remember that incident. I heard the sound of water. Did Leon take a shower? I watched the child in my arms. You're son? You the one who came with him last night?

I turned my body and saw the glass window that was already open. The air is also foreign. There is that woman here too. I closed my eyes. Does he want to make me his mistress? It's crazy, I shouldn't be here.

"Ma .. mah .. ma .. mah" I opened my eyes again. This kid is so adorable. Just look at him so enthusiastically biting my hair. Does she like my hair so much? Too bad ...

Ihate you.

I don't like your whereabouts.

I don't like your mother. Because ...

Ccq ...

I'm looking for the source of that voice. Leon. This is the first time I've seen him like this. His hair and body still looked wet. He's so exposed. He just covered his waist area down with a towel. I could see the tattoo on his upper body clearly.

One day the time stopped. We just focused on looking at each other until the child in my arms moved while calling, "Pa .. pah .. pa. .. pah .. pa. pah .. pa. pah ..". pah"

Papa's? She thrashed in my arms and tried to stretch out her arms, hoping Leon would come to her.

"You woke up the princess, Son."

Leon approached us and took the child in my arms. The boy seems to like all hair. He laughed so heartily as he ruffled Leon's wet hair.

However, right now I was so stunned when the sound of laughter was mixed with Leon's laughter. Leon laughs. I mean, I laugh with his voice. He was as happy as the boy. I don't know why my heart hurts a little bit to see it.

Soon there was a knock on the door very loud. Not a knock but it's a punch.

"Leon! Open this door. Edwards ... Edward is not. Is she with you!" 

Leon who was joking with the boy immediately glanced at me. I don't know what to react to. Should I hide?

Leon said nothing. He slowly just rubbed my head and passed towards the door. I turned around and looked back at the scene outside the window.

"Leon ... Oh, Edward! You scared me. You slept with her?" Edward. The boy's name was Edward.

"No. I was even surprised that he could reach my room. About what his mother did to the unconscious of her son climbed a very high ladder and knocked on my room in the morning blind." I wonder about their togetherness. I turned my back and my heart came back so painful.

"What's wrong with your face?" I saw Leon examine the woman's face carefully. He rubbed the woman's face gently.

"No ... I'm just worried Edward's missing."

"Don't fool me. Your eyes swell, last night you—"

"Ma .. mah .. ma .. mah"

The little boy I now know named Edward thrashed Leon. He looked at me and spread his hand. He managed to interrupt two very perfect people in my sight.

"Hey, Boy, relax!" Edward kept struggling to get dropped. Leon resigned and dropped the boy off. With agility Edward ran staggering towards me.

He made it to my thigh, he tugged at my jeans, hoping I'd carry him. I carried her and she was playing with my hair.

As I glanced towards the door, Leon and the woman looked at us. The woman looked confused. Of course, he must have kept many questions.

"Leon—"

"I'll explain later." Leon immediately cut off the woman's speech. 

"Alright .. I'll wait for you at the dinner table later. Take Edward's bath." After saying that, the woman passed and Leon again closed the door. He approached me.

"Discover Edward. He's probably heavy. You want to clean yourself up?"

"Nothing .. she's light."

Edward turned to sling Leon back. But he seems a little bit laughing. He kept pulling my hair that he was holding onto and was reluctant to let go.

"Edward, release! He's not going anywhere. You should let her take a shower. You should take a shower, too."

Leon looks different. His nature softened with Edward. When Leon got rid of Edward's hand in my hair, Edward suddenly glazed over. It's like he was. She's gonna cry.

"Leon is okay. Let her be with me. I'll take a shower with him." I don't know where that thought came from. I was amazed to say that too.

"You sure?" Leon's left eyebrow raised. One man was also obsessed with my words. I don't know what to bathe a child like.

"Yeah... I just make it smell good when I get out of the bathroom, right?"

"Yeah, I think it's like that."

"Call." When I got back to Edward, he was so happy. She's not crying.

I laughed when he laughed too. Instantly I felt my head gently rubbed. Leon did it and he smiled. The first time I felt his sincerity was when I smiled. My heart feels back beating uncharacteristically. It's not worth doing. 

I'm speechless I can't respond more to all of this. Leon seemed to realize the confusion I was feeling. He kissed my forehead, and Edward, who was looking at me, stopped laughing.

"Take as much time as you want. Edward loved to linger in the bathroom. I'm not gonna interrupt. I'll get you some clothes and Edward's. I'm waiting for you at the dinner table." I'm confused, Leon. You don't have to do this to me.

My confusion stopped when my forehead felt wet. Edward imitated what Leon did. He kissed my forehead with his wet lips. She's so adorable. I can't turn my back on this kid.

Leon smiled at our closeness. He immediately told us to go to the bathroom before he passed out of the room.

When I entered Leon's bathroom, it was also so foreign. And surprisingly Edward was also like a confusion with this bathroom. I feel a very strong masculine scent in this bathroom. Leon's real here. And I found a bathtub in the corner of this room.

Okay, Edward. We'll spend a lot of time soaking in it.

I put the water in the bathtub and thought about what I would do with Edward who was silent. I lowered it to the floor.

"Hey, Edward listen to me. You're lucky. You were the first man to shower with me. So don't steal my eyes with my body. I know my body will impress you, but I hope you don't fuck." Edward was silent watching me speak with his innocent face.

"Ah, I'm crazy. How could he understand what I said." I ended my monologue by taking off both of our clothes. I was a little embarrassed when I realized I was bathing with a boy. He is the son I love. The world is so crazy.

When I put Edward in the bathtub, he was so happy. He did not stop laughing and splashing water around him. I drowned myself and closed my eyes.

Stupid leon. He didn't provide sweeter soap for both of us. I feel the scent we use so much like Leon. I checked the little cupboard where the soap was in but found nothing suitable for us.

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15 minutes later ...

I don't know why this always happens when I shower with a bathtub. Definitely asleep. I woke up with Edward stepping on my thigh and hitting my shoulder.

"Ma .. mah .. ma .. mah"

Why does he always say that. I'm not your mother. Ah, the bus is all gone. This bathtub is no longer so interesting to Edward. I hugged Edward's little body and looked into his eyes.

"You have different eyes to her, Edward. Too bad you didn't inherit those beautiful eyes. Wait a minute, this shitty face reminds me of someone."

Edward laughed again and made my thighs hurt as he jumped back up and down. I lifted her body to flow into the shower. We have to finish this immediately. How long have we been soaking?

I put on a bathrobe to cover my body and cover Edward's body with a thick towel. It was like he was drowning in it. She was always adorable.

When we came out, Leon's room was quiet. The bed was neat and on it was my clothes and Edward's clothes and baby trinkets. I put baby oil and powder all over Edward's body. His face looks very white. I laughed out loud. What I've done.

Afterwards, I let Edward play around in the bed while I dressed and tidied myself up. I was so embarrassed to wear this dress.

How can the underwear I introduced also fit so well. Leon gave me nothing but these clothes. I ended up using a baby fragrance that made me smell the same as Edward.

By the time I was done, Edward was already visibly saturated in this room. He was banging on the door wanting to get out, but he could not reach the doorknob. I finally decided to take Edward out. We have to get to the dining table.

When we made it to the dinner table, I saw Leon and the woman had already finished their breakfast. Edward again whined to sit on Leon's lap.

"Hey, Boy. Have you taken a shower? Look, you so ..." I sat down before Leon and glanced at him who was still thinking of saying unfinished things. "... fragrance, hehehe."

Thank goodness Edward was scented. Our shower was not in vain. Perhaps he was confused by the look of Edward's face filled with baby powder. I don't know what to do. Yeah, so I let it go.

"I couldn't find anything that could make him smell better than this. We're wearing whatever's in your bathroom." I can only say that to make the atmosphere less awkward.

"Yes, I also forgot to prepare it."

"Eat."

Instantly someone placed a plate of pancakes in front of me. That lady. He sat down next to Leon who was feeding Edward. The closeness of the two of them with Edward is very envious of me.

"Elisa, eat. Don't you like it?"

Leon asked with a worried face. I shook my head, reluctant to make a sound. I cut the pancake and put it in my mouth. Tasty. For a moment I forgot those in front of me.

When I glanced back in front of me, they all fell silent. It's a little awkward. I ate witnessed by this happy family. Should I just finish my food in my room.

No, that's not polite. I lowered my face and continued to devour the pancakes. My calm was gone when the voice of the woman sounded.

"Leon ... isn't there something you need to explain with this situation?"

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