Silence With Wounds Go With Wounds

pinpoint of hope

right now at my house I'm just quiet after coming home from a school breakup I just locked myself in my room a lot of things that bother my mind and that keeps me from concentrating on learning

"the image was why you did not want to escape from the embrace of your teacher" asked the mother who was suddenly in front of my bedroom door

"oh no bun"

"it looks like you're very late with your teacher"

"it's hu aknes a teacher of image drift"

"so ma'am aknes said mom, mom should lecture you because she said you're a smart kid" I just kept quiet and didn't answer the words of mommy if jawap won't change the situation.

"ki's quiet"

"indeed the image must answer what bun, even if the image answers will not merybah pendant mother right"

"of course you know the answer to your question I really want to go to college not just so that I am the same as my friends I want to go to college because I want to learn to find new experiences and the greatest expectations I'm the one I want to change the way we're bun"

" and I hope you can do it, though, mother does not want to give you false hope because you know hope in something uncertain it will hurt you later then from that all this time mother is silent not because mother does not want you to continue your school mother very wanted but it will be very painful later for you when you have entered college and in the middle of the journey you stop that you are always aware so as not to make you too expect the uncertain reality"

once again I misjudged my mother, my mother did not not not want me to go to college but my mother did not want me to be hurt more deeply, honestly when I heard his words my heart was sliced how stupid I thought all along that you didn't want me to continue my school but why did you have to make the spirit I built up during the break with just an instant her pessimistic words that made me a pessimist, a non-confident person, why? I'd love to ask like that but this tongue complains that I want to ask a lot of questions but that question can't come out of my mouth that question is only in my heart and mind, I wanted to ask but I was afraid the answer would hurt me back, yes this is how I am now I am someone of a very fragile and insecure image of swingtias.

" pardon the mother who has been discouraged from wanting to forgive also for all the words of the mother so far that might make you sick hkam, from now on pursue your ideals mother will not hinder her but, but, one that you should know your mother can only help you in prayer you can not provide material for you because you yourself know our current economy, you also want you to succeed, want you to succeed, want you to succeed, because you know your own economy, mother also wants to say to the world that the mother's daughter's youngest daughter has succeeded the mother's youngest daughter has become an adult pardon mother for immediately the words of the mother who had been discouraging you, you know now you are not confident but you also know that you can rebuild your confidence"

I can only cry and want to feel like I've been screaming for all my mistakes, I also know that my mother often hurt with my words the more I sobbed the more guilt haunted me I walked towards my mother bumping my body into my body, I hugged her very hard my sobbing sounding so soothing this mother came crying, too, I know you can't give me material, but the most important thing is that you will never get tired of praying day and night just for me.

" pardon the image of the mother, the image of the fool does not understand the feelings of the mother, does not know the taste of the disposition of the mother, the image has been thinking only about its own image, the image of the mother, I want to make your mother happy but it turns out that the image given to you is sadness for the mother image indeed deserves all this because it has hurt your heart, mother, the image of feeling lucky to have a mother is an image that requires material but that image is more needed is the mother and mother prayer that is always there for the image, the image, thank you for everything mother and sorry please forgive the image for any misrepresentation of the image of the hiks, no matter how strong the image will try but if there is heartache that image toreh right in the heart of the mother image will never succeed because the ridho mother is ridho god and the image is very hopeful of ridho from the mother that love get ridho from god pray the image of the mother nodding in your arms I cry even more considering all my mistakes to the mother and at this time I have a speck of hope to keep fighting because of the mother's prayer it will always accompany me wherever I go and I hope that a speck of hope will come true, I realize I should not be too hopeful because if it fails later it will be very painful for me but I already do not care I have often felt pain because of failure I have often been to feel heartache because hope that has never been achieved and this speck of hope I hope all that can come true hopefully.