Silence With Wounds Go With Wounds

slowly but surely

it does not feel like the day continues to change the day of the month and it is true what he said ana we started busy with tests, tests, busy learning no more words to wander and I bar-bar girl was no longer as violent as before slowly but surely my quiet and innocent attitude at home began to be carried to what school again when it comes to college they are all busy choosing they will go to college where they also ask where I am going to college but I just divert the conversation as if I don't want to talk about college. I used to have great hopes for college but as time went on it disappeared with the disappearance of its also the giver of hope, honestly I was very disappointed he gave me that hope but he also destroyed that hope.

and from that moment on I decided not to trust humans too much I began to doubt those close to me were no exception my family and friends.

honestly I envy those who will taste their college so enthusiastic even their parents. but not with me I'm very enthusiastic to study and want to go to college but my parents are not sure of my ability they are afraid I can't but I continue to convince them but they continue to have the strongest reason and reason is that there is no cost.

"mother's want to go to college"

"don't expect too high a cit, you have to realize who you are, who your father is, what your father's job is"

"the image is aware of whose image"

"if you know of course you know the answer from the mother, not her mother forbid you high school but mother is afraid you stop in the middle of the road"

"every will there must be a way of being, and God must also love the wind if it is to practice the right"

"heard what you said would happen"

"that's exactly what you have to say is good to happen the best, many people out there who suffer more than we bun but they remain optimistic not pessimistic"

"pass SMA aja you uda sukur cit, why ask for more" this is my mother stubbornly always wants to win alone even though what she says is always the reality I still try to change the way you think even though it is very difficult. every time I talk about college I always cry in front of my mother is no exception today.

"the mother is always like this selfish, will always win by herself, never heard the words of others, although the mother is older and more experience of her life but not necessarily the mother is always right, but not necessarily the mother is always right, mother also occasionally must hear the words of the mother's son hiks"

"what are you going to college see that your brother is attending S1 but his work is only building porters out of money"

"this is one of the mothers bang angung is a student who can not compensate for his knowledge many students out there who managed not to be seen who failed bun, now that his college work is not clear bun let alone who did not lecture what would be the nation's children bun, mother does not envy see the child of people who succeed, mother does not want the child mother succeed" after saying the contents of my heart and my mind I left my mother I know my mother is hurt by my words but I also want you to understand my wishes.

all day I didn't come out of my mother's room just kept calling me but I didn't come out I fucked my mother but I couldn't keep my mother quiet, I don't know what they were talking about in the living room I don't know but not long after that bang angung call me to the living room.

"you're going to college anyway"

"yes" I replied briefly

"if you have to charge mom and dad" huh. I really hate this question where there is a child who wants to charge his parents.

"answered the deck" said bang Awake again, my eyes began to my farsighted puddles in my eyes had begun to unstoppably end his teardrops were down as well, my eyes began to my farsightedness, I began to dare to look at the bang angung for a moment I was silent and they were so just sobbing my money sounded.

"no child wants to burden his mother who has children who want to make her and his father happy as well as I hiks... I want to change our situation is not like this you continue to understand, precisely because I feel sorry for my father and mother I want to make them happy in their old days later hyks.. " my tears can not be weathered anymore not only tears that dripped my snot also dripped along with the dripping of my tears.

"what's more after brother married and had a son brother began to no longer care for us brother cuek brother is not as warm as before, must help my mother to fund my school so that later if I like it I can help my brother schoolin older brother but brother does not think that brother is not as long as his will be young and strong for work there will be a time when his brother will be old and not strong anymore to work and that's where later brother will need the help of younger people..to whom the brother asked for help is impossible to adek others surely brother will mind please adek brother hiks..hiks..." the Emosiki began to overflow my voice growing higher my tears were not as hard as before and so was my snot.

"it's already pretty" Mother told me to end my words but I won't end it before I'm satisfied

"why do you allow the word image, you do not have to lie. if you know I really want to be a child who makes his parents happy through myself through my brain, not my muscles, you understand my max. bang Anton also used to say that your deck studied diligently so that you could go to college and if you managed to rise your ranking, you choose which college you want. the real zero is big, I managed to show my brother that I could ride my screeching but brother did not keep my brother's promise" bang anton just kept quiet he did not speak up because he knew he was wrong

"you must not promise if you cannot keep your promise, it will only give false hope to me"

"little bit of your voice, you know who you're talking to, this is not an image that you know is very polite" said bang agung

"those of you who do not know me too far, you only know a quiet, obedient, polite and kind image, but you do not know a rude, dissident and dislike image"

"what's your max deck" the end of my kaka-in-law who is most loved by my brother who spoke up this is what I've been waiting for.

"what's my max? I also do not know what I mean, all I know is that you only focus on your favorite children and favorite grandchildren so that you forget these neglected sisters and children, so that you forget to give your attention, support and support, even though at a time like this I need it all, mother also uda no longer want to listen to my story as if you are tired of listening to my story hiks" after saying it all I went to the room and came back crying again I was very disappointed in all of them.

Assalamu'alaikum friends do not forget like yes here kontarapersinga new want to start will be many tears later that will come out as well as your snot🤣🤣happy reading and may you like Assalamu'alaikum warohmatulohi wabarakatuh