Silence With Wounds Go With Wounds

farewell

there was no fast day and today is the day my school held a farewell event while three more days is the day all 12th graders in Indonesia conduct UNBK (a computer-based national exam), before we go to a hard day we are on a sad and pleasant day.

all the parents of the students were present, not least my parents and my friends, event after event was carried out with wisdom ranging from entertainment, entertainment, maap request and a word of thanks from the 12th class represented by the former chairman of the osis, the farewell words of the underclassmen represented the new head of the osis and the farewell words of all the teachers represented by the Headmaster's mother. continue with the heart-wrenching drama of the 12th grade represented by most of our majors, until the end of the disembarkation event from 12th to 11th grade from uks, pks, pks, scouts and sausages are all done by the previous extra heads and the one representing the extra uks is myself.

a sense of pleasure and ease enveloped my heart because as long as I served everything went smoothly and God willing I left a good impression on the extra I was in, but when releasing my office there is another feeling tucked in my heart that is sadness, because of course I will miss the moments where I help those who need it.

and at the release of the dove and the balloon I stared at all my friends "maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow we won't be able to laugh together again, can't be naughty together again this is what I hate from the meeting, we parted at the time of his affection" I can only say in my heart that I feel no tears falling without my permission, my mind kept saying don't cry but my heart couldn't hold back our parting and my eyes betrayed me by letting out the clear water that represented my heart.

"why are you crying" asked Ana, sontak anisa, tamara, salsa and dianra turned towards me

"no, I was just glimpsing"

"don't lie to napa" dianra

"tau tuh, uda is clearly crying use ngeles again" salsa

" i'm just sad because we want to split up I'm afraid we won't see each other again"

" swear yes new cit this time I see you crying" said salsa who hooked them all up, it is honest I just this time cried in front of them for 3 years I never cried in front of them maybe they were surprised because among them I had the hardest to shed tears

" meaning you're lucky to see my tears in our last moments and you know not everyone can see my tears" I said with an expression they couldn't describe

" what's lucky try to see your tears if it's tears of happiness, we're lucky this is you cry because of us, right? " said ana

" just relax we will meet again later at different times in different places with pleasant susana" said tamara sontak we all gaping perfectly

"what demon possessed you" dianra

"that's your saying"

"that's right"

" we think you only know about guys now it turns out you have grown up your words are heartbreaking" I said with a cry while others were laughing satisfied

" cih turn to say right aja said possessed turn will change aja girlfriend aja times who said there is no ahlak what the hell you want" asked tamara sambal pout

"ha ha ha we're just shocked, so we're not mad at tamara dear" said salsa

after the tamara was not angry anymore we continued the event to listen to the tausiah from the principal to release us and did not feel we had reached the end of the event, which was a greeting to many students who cried especially those who are the most recalcitrant all cry no one does not cry be it men or women, neither, maybe this breakup is the beginning of their stubborn changes especially us where at the end of this farewell event our new step awaits us, we all remembered the sins we committed in school making teachers angry was a common thing that we did in school and this is where we regret everything and only this time I cried at the school my farewell and this is the fourth farewell I have been through and this is the most painful parting between my passing.

my tears never run out without my permission, I kept wiping it off but the clear water kept flowing down my cheeks I was amazed by myself I never cried in front of anyone but my parents now weep in front of hundreds of people, my erratic mood made my emotions overflow the instant I hugged them my most beloved teachers crying as they pleased in their arms was a novelty for me the teachers patted my shoulders saying 1 words that make me cry

" you must go to college, son, don't let your ideals disappear immediately convince your parents to support you at every step of the way"said ma'am aknes my dear teacher who knows all my problems because I always confide in ma'am aknes and nothing I cover from her even my own best friend does not know not to know my secret.

I can only nod in his arms while behind me the mother continues to watch out for me who never want to take off my embrace.

"cit don't take too long to queue" said ma'am aknes accompanied by he wiped his tears and smiled at me.

now it's my mother's turn to copy that Miss Agnes ma'am agnes is cursing at my side

" the image of a child who is a pinter mom, unfortunately if he does not continue his education the image is also a talented child mom I hope mom can continue to support the image because at this time in need of support from mother" said ma Agnes who I still had time to hear because I was still copying the teacher who was next to ma'am agnes my mother just nodded and smiled.

honestly I'm not sure I can continue college I saw my mother who always broke my spirit I know my mother was just trying to make the gravy not too hopeful because of circumstances that did not allow me to continue college and this is one of the reasons why I cry today because I think in the future my friends are in college I just stay at home without feeling the beauty of the lecture world sad if I imagine I'm not going to college, though,because from a long time ago even before I entered this school I always wanted to study at Jogja UGM campus is my favorite campus jogja is my dream city but all those dreams will only be buried so deep not to go too deep to hurt me.