Silence With Wounds Go With Wounds
a dense busyness
lately the Citra schedule is getting crowded days must be missed with friends of UKS members no longer there is fun with Ana, Anisa, Salsa, Diandra and Tamara.
honestly I was guilty of leaving friends even though Ana was still beside her but everything felt lacking for a whole week I had to leave the lessons at school in the sun and after the afternoon I going home and in the evening continuing the lessons left honest I feel very tired but on the other hand I am also happy because the more knowledge I have gained outside of school. my friends also often protest he said I am no longer the same as before, I no longer attach importance to them, I am more extra than them.
" cheat You are now changing You rarely get together with us as well as your children are busy with your respective world If to be honest We feel lonely there is no you and you also certainly do not know that now Bang the Salsa's got a new guy"
" it's not like that Tamara, but it's like this, I honestly feel lonely but this is our job let alone me, I played a major role in it I can't just leave them alone I hope you understand"
" Yes this is how things are now we also miss the same you miss Joking around with you Oh yes another one about Salsa's new boyfriend we know how, We keep looking for information about you, we keep looking for information about you, although as busy as you are Still your best friend we promise after Monday arrives everything will return to normal our fieldwork will end and we can gather together again" he continued
" maybe no longer as talk" Diandra suddenly spoke up
"you say it anyway" I'm annoyed
immediately silence no one spoke until the end I spoke up
" it's true you said Nis, after this we will look at a brighter future again, after this we will very Rarely Meet Comah and after this we no one knows what happens in the future. but I'll keep remembering you guys I'll keep being your best friend anyway I'll be there for you whenever you want and I hope you guys are like that"
after the conversation ended I returned to struggling with my duties as the head of the UKS honestly Nisa's words disturbed my mind I was afraid they would forget me especially Only those who understand me, only those who understand me, at school I was a bar girl whose mouth never stayed but at home I was a plain, quiet, obedient girl. Honestly I don't know what will happen in the future and honestly I don't want to add any more friends I just want them because they understand me the most.
Honestly I don't want this breakup I don't want to part with my friends I don't want to get out of my comfort zone I want to stay with them Even though I know it's impossible let alone a possibility I am not going to college. Honestly I'm so sad about this fact that I feel God is unfair to me Maybe you've also felt the same way as me when the world wasn't on your side that's when your world seemed to collapse when your closest people are not sure of your abilities that's when you want to disappear from this earth when you try to explain your desires but people don't believe your words when you want to strive for your future but people are not sure of your ability it is the most painful thing and it will kill you slowly and when it all happens you will not you can trust the people closest to you. But right now I want to believe in the people closest to me even though they often hurt me in silence, even though they often offend me but I try to keep going. Honestly, I was so afraid that later my friends would forget me, so I was afraid of this breakup, I know very well like my friends, they are very easy, they are very easily instigated, that's one of the reasons why I not wanting Them to walk away from me may sound very selfish I'm afraid of being betrayed, afraid of being forgotten and afraid of reality that may be very painful.
assalamualaikum friends Sorry yes just uploaded now the problem is again busy in this story began to enter the sad story where the beginning of the wound will occur and this will be very fun where you have to drain your emotions later where you will continue to cry who forgot to vote as much so that my work continues to run and I am excited to upload every day Insyaallah but yes. I have not uploaded for a long time yes maybe almost 3 days or a week but soon Upload again yes do not forget to be photographed may also be given criticism advice all may be because I still really need direction from the seniors in Toni's auditors' novels are also very much looking forward to advice, criticism, criticism, vote and like you and one more I remind one like of you will be very meaningful to me Thank you I happy reading and hopefully not bored Assalamualaikum.
