RAGIL (First Love)
Season 2 #6
Even if you find something else out there. Please don't stop holding on.
- Saga
"Damn you Cha! I swear, I can't stop!" Pekik Azka when the phone call was answered by Ocha with the greeting 'Halo'. Azka believed that maybe Ocha there had closed his ears so as not to be deaf suddenly due to the screams of Azka.
"Propay Ka. Apaan. Try to calm down first" Ocha is still a little sane, so realize that responding to Azka's emotions with the same emotions is futile.
"Do you know what Ragil's problem is?" Azka again spoke in an undescended tone.
"Why Ragil?" Ocha paused for a moment, "Wait! Have you contacted Ragil Ka???" This time it was Ocha who screamed. But his voice was then held back. Maybe he just realized that his tone of voice can make people around him disturbed.
"Cha. I'm really hurt. I feel sad and guilty at the same time"
"Why do you feel guilty?" Ocha is a little confused.
"You know I haven't fully succeeded in making my heart neutral? And I now have to do this behind Saga. I feel guilty about him. Aaah Ocha's"
"Please story. I'm kepo Ka"
"Don't lie! you must know. Ragil said that he also told me the same thing with Rizky. There's no way your husband won't tell you" said Azka.
"I don't know much.I want to hear what he told you Ka"
Azka told me everything. About his accidental meeting. About his visit to Ragil's mother in the hospital. Also about their conversation that reeks of feeling.
"You crazy? You said it was the same Ragil?"
"Cha, I'm carried away. And I really want to see him happy. Cha, do you support me?" Azka asked weakly
"I don't know what to say. But it seems like Ragil needs you. Hmm it's my fault Ka" Ocha said in a regretful tone.
" why?"
"I'm sorry I had to call you" Ocha said, "I just thought he was so stupid. It has to be destroyed like this. For a long time he had the love of an Azka. You guys are the most powerful first love I've ever seen" I don't know what Ocha's voice shakes.
"Cha.."
"I'm sorry Ka. I just don't want to be sad alone after knowing how Ragil's condition with a strange problem like this. And I can only share it with you. You are the one who has the most right to know about this. That's what I had in mind" Ocha sobbed. Develop a sense of compassion in Azka. If he could, he wanted to reach out to his best friend. Sharing the sorrow and warmth together.
"Cha don't cry. All this will pass. Ragil will be fine. He's a strong man, right? I'll make sure myself that he'll be all right"
"Promise me one thing Ka. You won't have anything bad with Saga. I beg you"
"I'm fine Cha. I will defend my marriage with all my might no matter what. I promise"
Phone connection disconnected.
Azka sighed slowly. He is confused with himself. What made him talk like that? He knew that Ocha was easy to empathize with. Knowing someone who had grown up together in school seedang experiencing big problems, will certainly make Ocha very sympathetic. Moreover, the one experiencing this was Ragil. Someone who had been very close to both of their lives. Yes, a dozen years ago, did not the conversation of Ocha and Azka barely escape the complicated love problem between Azka and Ragil?
Oi! What kind of promise is that? So, what are you going to do after this Azka? Please don't trouble yourself anymore with the past you've painstakingly buried. The warning from inside his head made himself shudder in horror.
Azka returned with herself in the living room. He was still standing, glancing at the wall clock hanging above the TV. It's nine o'clock in the evening. But Saga hasn't come home yet. Azka had not eaten yet, she intended to wait for Saga to come home so that she could eat together. But what he was waiting for did not appear. Azka chose to lay herself on the sofa in the room. His hand moved to pick up the remote to turn on the television. The sound of laughter from one of the booming comedy shows in the room. Channeling a carefree atmosphere to the entire corner of the room. But no matter how loud the laughter, Azka was not touched. The laughter was bland in his hearing. Indeed, the event no longer has a humorous life, or even the humorous side of Azka who is disappearing.
The door knocked from outside. Immediately Azka got up from her seat walking towards the door. He opened the door wide letting Saga pass him by. Saga dropped herself on the sofa that Azka was sitting on. Glancing at a glimpse into the unprofitable spectacle his wife enjoyed. His head hurt, he massaged the base of his nose hoping that a little pain in his head could evaporate.
"Cape? Lots of work in the office?" Tanya Azka stood next to her husband.
"This project really makes me dizzy Yang, I just presented the results of the revision of the program but it doesn't seem to be going well"
"Do you want me to get a massage?" Azka asked again, Saga looked up to see a beautiful face smiling towards her. Seeing Azka smile, made her calmer. And he nodded too. Azka pinched her head, giving small pulls at the pinch of hair she held.
Saga grabbed Azka's hand that was still dancing on her head, She pulled it to her lips. He kissed her inside before he took her off.
"Sit dong. I cape you while dongak on the gini" said Saga turned her hand to pat the sofa next to her.
Without rejection Azka sat next to the saga. Glanced at her husband who was still displaying a tired face. Saga shifted her body before landing her head on Azka's thigh. He closed his eyes just looking for comfort there. The heat spread, making some of his anxiety disappear. Especially when Azka stroked the soft hair on his head.
Saga opened his eyes, looking at his wife's face with a glare.
"I love you, don't stay with me even if you find something out there. I beg you" Saga said that with a glaring glare. Her net was not staring into Azka's eyes. Saga is more like glaring.
"Dear?" Azka stopped her movement. Looking at Saga with a confused look. Just this time Azka saw Saga talking with such a gaze.
"I know you're not fully healed. But, I beg you to hold on for me. I don't know what it would be like without you" again, a long touching remark. But spoken with eyes.
"Saga" said Azka calling her name.
"Ka, if later I turn out to lose patience, please do not easily turn away. Please don't feel hurt by my attitude. I'm gabisa let you feel sick again. Especially if the pain is me who made it" Okay the language they use sounds not as usual. It's like there's an invisible bulkhead in there right now that separates Azka and Saga.
"You need to rest. Let's go to the room" Azka was about to stand up, but Saga's head holding him back made him unable to move further than just shifting his body.
"I want this to be what it was. Just a moment" and Azka couldn't resist. Long after that they kept quiet. Dive into each other's minds. Until one of them fell asleep. They stay in position when picking up dreams. Forget dinner until the sound of the alarm wakes them up in the morning.
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"Repeat again" said the penghulu there.
"You need to calm down. Take a deep breath. Just read what's on the paper" the man added.
One more time the young man tried to distort the ijab from the man before him. But his words were again stifled. The words just disappear. Not continued. The pat on the shoulder many times he got. He did not find peace either. This was his first experience, and he swore it would not be his last. Consider Him to be evil, bre****k, or any name that sounds bad. But this marriage was really far from her wish.
Who will survive the unexpected bond? With people who hate him just getting bigger and bigger? Ragil swore, that marriage would only be for a short while. He will do what he thinks is right. Let this be the most painful penance. The future cannot be ignored, right?
After the third repetition in a stamped voice, finally the SAH call from the witnesses was heard. The woman beside him smiled happily. In a moment, does it look more like a winning smirk? I don't know.
