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Loving you used to feel real

Right now losing you is a fact

Missing you is my hobby

Being able to hug you is my hallucination

Everything I feel is all

Your body I can't touch

But your name will always be in my heart

I sat next to my husband's belly button….

I hold a Headstone that says “ Andrean Atharazqa”

“ Bg, Ara want a story. Queen is pinter. He always laughs when spoken to, queen can already fall on her stomach. He often sleeps hugging figura abg. If only there were to be happy. I used to want a queen, right? He needs abg loh, he needs papa's figure. What if later he starts school to see his friend ushered his papa? If he misses you what to answer? Why would you let a baby like that be an orphan ? Is there no mercy for him? Abg said dear brother fig, if mama doesn't care abg will always be there for ara. But now my mother has changed, even though she is too late to realize her mistake. Oh yes ara want to move to the parents' house bg, although in fact ara already comfortable in the parents' house but it feels impossible bg. Abg reason ara was in that house, and the departure of the brother also made ara go away from the house . Sorry if all this time evil is same abg, from the beginning of our marriage ara always nyakin abg. But ara already loves abg, and it turns out loving alone is sick huh bg? What else to love a person whose body we can no longer touch. Sick bg... hiks hiks..... how does ara continue his further life? Ara doesn't need all the inheritance from you…. Ara want to come back again “

After quite a lot of complaints that I made for my husband, I wiped my tears that had flowed until it made my eyes moist.

My husband's….. Thank you so much for your care, affection and love all this time. Thank you for making me a lucky woman to have a husband like you who is very patient, even if all that is only for a moment…..

After my husband's farewell, I drove the car to my in-laws' house. On the way, my mom called to buy her favorite meatballs. Finally I decided to buy meatballs near the intersection of my in-laws' complex….

“ Bu, his meatballs 3 packs yes “

“ Okay neng, wow beautiful already what is the birth of his son ? “ ask meatball seller mother

“ Hehe already mom, baby girl” I said smile

“ Must be beautiful.. her mama aja meni geulis pisan, papa nya casep “ said the mother laughed, I just responded with a smile. my heart was sliced when the mother called her papa which meant it was my husband, bg razqa who was gone

“ Haiiii ra, how are you ? I heard your husband just died, right? I'm so sorry. If you need anything call me “ said someone reprimanding me

“ Uh hi.. thank u. But I don't need your help, I still have a family. Ma'am, is it finished yet my pesenan ? “ word I'm ketus

“ Already this neng “

“ I first yes . Marii” I left after paying for my order.

So overall I, what does he mean try to talk like that ? Ah yeah…. You want to know who he is? He's my ex who's always in mama's soul mate. Even though he is only a man in this world I will not return to him …..