Police And Accountants
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“ Is not so what ma?not enough reason I love? I'm sick and sick and miss the laughter gathered in this house. Having a warm loving whole family. Since college I never found it again ma pa. Not that I do not have time to go home, the distance from the boarding house here is only 1-2 hours. But this is my reason that makes me never want to stay home long. This is the talk I always avoid. If my mother is my soul mate same man who is really good manners I accept anyone's ma, I'm not nolakan. But if the man is widi sorry ma pa I will nolak 100%...mama papa can I hurt him? no matter what, he took another woman to the hostel. What do you think good papa mama men and women both in 1 room? Is that what a good guy calls?haaah ? Answer mah..pah.esak I keep all this. Pain maaa yaallah. Broken my hardest heart when I saw my parents are more desirable feelings of others than their own children. After my story, if your mom still wants me to be the same, it's up to you, and maybe this is the last time I come back to this house. Sorry ma pa I need time alone I want to rest first” I passed to the room while wiping my tears
I take ablution, I pray, complain to Him
“ Yaallahh...please soften the heart of mama papa.give me the best mate you choose yaallah. I'm sure the path of life that you're destined for me will never be wrong. My soul mate, life, and death I leave to you yarabb” I pray while sobbing to remember his death my parents defend widi in front of me. Finished praying I lay still wearing my face. The tightness in my chest never goes away, only tears that accompany me at this time until I finally fall asleep….
The next day after dawn I prayed and went straight to Grandma's house without saying goodbye to the house.
“ Assalamualaikum kek,nek open this door ara” I said while knocking the door but there were no words as well. Then I took the initiative to ask the next neighbor, said his grandmother and grandfather went to the event to the city of S for 2 days.I went straight back to home”.
On the way my mind wandered forward. Why the tubi-trial?is this a sign that God loves me and wants to raise my level?I want to be fooled by the same people who fake in front of my parents. While my heart fully loves Darrel for whom there is no news. Love seems to be on my side. When I got home, I went into my room and locked my room. My eyes were on the gift I bought yesterday for Farza. I almost forgot the gift….
“ Hello...bg, no time ga? I want to meet you, I said
“ Iyaa Ra,abg today solid training times in the arena here.you come aja yes ntar abg kedepan” said the person across there
“ Oh okay at readyp”
I lay my body on the bed and play my phone open instagr*m app…somehow arrived at the post of a woman who posted a photo of the handrails of men and women with the caption “ alhamdulillah finally last night was given status as well.takeen 💓@Farza”
Yahh.. Like being pierced by the waves of my heart. Whereas I just wanted to open my heart because of his kindness, but I was again hit by a bitter reality. It hurts.that's what I think. I think I should be far away from men. I thought this was going to happen….
