Picking Up the Past

Quail

“but you've really teased me since I saw you when I came home from that hike Mil, I really can't believe I can still hold this until now” Arya meaningfully continued to Mila,

“then why don't you do it if you have already been tempted by my body?” tanya Mila is still full of probes.

“I don't want to hurt your heart Mil, you definitely want to give it to your loved ones” replied Arya again who made something back piercing Mila's heart, for some reason the sin still gave him such guilt, ‘he withheld the right he should have from me just to keep my feelings, O Lord, I do not know what he really is like, I really don't know how wide her heart is Mila's inner’ with teary eyes staring at Arya.

“if you don't want to do it for me yet, I won't force you Mil” Arya said as she laid her back against Mila.

Mila doesn't know what to say anymore, she wants to say that she wants it now too, she wants Arya completely to be hers and she completely belongs to Arya, he longed for the presence of a little angel beside him with Arya who would further strengthen their bond.

“Arya, I've been ready for all this since the day you returned from the mountain back then, since then I know I won't be able to lose you from my side, and now I'm ready for everything with all my feelings for you” Mila said carefully to Arya.

Arya then got back up and looked at Mila, she felt like she had the wind of heaven to hear it all, her passion that soared from seeing Mila when she woke up this morning seemed to be soon channeled.

He looked into the eyes of Mila who was also looking deeply into her eyes, “you are serious Mil?” arya asked softly which Mila answered with a nod, she was really embarrassed to say yes at that time.

“you didn't have to do this right?” ask Arya again, because all this time she heard a tinge of compulsion when teasing Mila about it.

“i am your wife and I will never be forced to serve my husband” Mila replied by bowing her head in shame.

“can I open your hijab Mil?” arya asked carefully, there was an awkward feeling she felt back then.

“do what you want to do, I belong to you completely Arya” said Mila with her face reddened, Arya then pulled the hijab sorong Mila until the hijab was removed from Mila's head, Arya pulls Mila's chin so that Mila's face is seen by him and he repeatedly swallowed his saliva to see the beautiful face, he then turned his eyes, as if his eyes could not see the beauty of his own wife.

“Why Arya ?” asked Mila who was surprised by Arya's attitude that turned her face away. ‘astaga, why am I so stupid anyway facing women’ upset Arya to herself.

Arya then turned her head again to Mila, and she immediately gently kissed Mila's forehead with a deep, deep kiss that felt right up to Mila's heart and into her heart.

After removing her kiss on Mila's forehead, Arya again looked at Mila's face, for some reason she had to go back many times swallowing her saliva with that sight, he tried to touch Mila's face with his right hand and suddenly his hand shook violently which made Mila laugh at him.

“you laughed at me” Arya said with a stifling nervousness.

“you why so much as it touches me, why your hand shakes like this” Mila replied by holding Arya's trembling hand.

Arya turned her face away from Mila, she was really not ready to see that beautiful face, what else to see Mila's body without clothes, she really kept the purity of her eyes.

“Arya, why?” Ask Mila who is confused at Arya's attitude. “ini is the first for us Mil, maybe we better pray first before starting” said Arya slowly and then rise to the bathroom. And this time it was Mila who had to swallow the salivary saw Aryan's attitude.

'had he really never been close to a woman before, why did his hand shake so much to begin with, O Lord, was I really dirty to him, I used to be even without any fear and embarrassment when bang Arnes touched my skinMila's inner’ with an erratic feeling.

Mila then looked deeply into the eyes of Arya who was already sitting by her side, the gaze making the man tremble instantly. “Arya, you,” , ”hurry Mil, we must pray first before starting, I need additional strength from God so as not to disappoint you tonight” said Arya who turned her face away from Mila.

Mila then immediately got up and went into the bathroom, while Arya hit the mattress hard to vent the upset feelings on herself, ‘why am I this stupid actually facing women?, I was really embarrassed in front of Mila earlier,’ annoyed Arya many times.

While Mila in the bathroom was staring in her face in the mirror, she could no longer hold back her sadness, for her Arya was too perfect for her, ‘I used to let bang Arnes touch my skin, I was even inedible when he asked me to do that, but now why do I get a husband as perfect as this, he's still holy, and I'm this dirty, is this virginity the only holiness I can give to herMila's inner’ holds back the sorrow of being disappointed in herself.

The sound of the bathroom door was knocked 2 times, and Mila immediately wiped her tears, “after Arya" she cried so that her voice sounded out. He immediately took ablution and came out of the bathroom.

“why so long Mil?” arya asked without looking at Mila's face when the girl came out of the bathroom door, her face was really tense at that moment, whereas she had hugged Mila before, kissing Mila's lips and Mila's forehead without any such feeling at all.

“I urinated earlier” Mila replied lying, then Arya got up from the bed to their prayer place, while Mila looked at Arya's tense face with her guilt-filled feelings. They then pray 2 rakaat before starting their husband and wife worship.

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Arya stared at the flawless, pure white Mila's back, letting out a sigh of relief now that she had managed to make her sigh reach the top of their relationship on their first night.

“Mil, thank you for giving your chastity to me”, Arya said slowly, but Mila did not respond to her remarks that made Arya worried for a moment

“Mil, did I disappoint you earlier?” arya asked quietly to Mila, Mila again had to swallow her saliva to hear Arya's words

“Arya, can you not say and behave that makes me feel this dirty” Mila replied in her cold tone, she really felt tired of holding that feeling in her heart.

"what do you mean Mil?, have I corroded you over all this?” asked Arya who was disappointed by Mila's words, even though the girl herself gave her permission to do that.

“Arya do you want to accept me that is not as good as you expect, I may be much dirtier than you imagine” said Mila again.

Arya slightly breathed a sigh of relief as Mila did not feel dirty after she touched the girl, Arya then raised her hand to touch Mila's white shoulder, Arya, but somehow the hand was still trembling which made him upset with himself. ‘astaga, this hand why sih’

“do not discuss it again Mil, everything is done when we talk about it on the hill,”

“but Arya,,, I”,, “you are not tired of talking about it, I am tired of hearing it” said Arya with annoyance at Mila. ‘why he always discusses the problem anyway, does she not know how nervous I am facing her tonight’ Inner Arya.

Mila then turned her body and hugged Arya. It instantly made Arya again swallow her saliva because her desire re-emerged when she felt the part of Mila's body without threads touching her body that was still without clothes.

“thank you Arya, I promise I will try to be the perfect wife for you” Mila said by tightly hugging Arya's body, while the man can only freeze holding back his desire which again requires an impingement.

“Mil, do you want to do it again for me?”