Picking Up the Past

Guilt

“mother also apologized, Mila, father and mother did not come to your wedding and Arya, mother was also surprised why Arya did not tell us about her marriage, though I really want to see her wedding” said Tomy's mother who made Mila's heart pierced sharply to hear it.

Mila tried to calm her mind so that she could think clearly from her heart that hurt, but her mind felt empty not knowing what to answer.

“this is not the fault of Arya bi, but our grandfather who wants the wedding to be done immediately, so Arya did not have much time to do preparation” replied Vanessa who knew about the state of Mila.

“so yes, but why Arya does not give any news at all, aunts and uncles even yunya from Tomy” said Tomy's mother who increasingly pierced Mila's heart, the old sin seemed to tear her heart, he realized, Arya did not tell Tomy's parents at all about their marriage because of the agreement he made unilaterally at that time.

“this is not the fault of Arya bi, but this is my fault” said Mila in the lowest tone possible, both people Tomy can feel there is something different from the tone of Mila's speech that has looked glassy.

“ayo to the room first, you must rest, you must be tired after the long road, let alone through the ugly road earlier” said Tomy in a relaxed tone while carrying Abel's suitcase and carrier, While Arya walks behind with her carrier as well and 2 suitcases belonging to Mila and Vanessa.

Walking casually to the door of the room near the family room, Tomy's mother immediately stood up to accompany Tomy and Arya into the room to help arrange the room.

“Come, you guys take a break to the room” said Tomy's father who also stood up while inviting Abel, Mila and Vanessa into the room that was in Tomy's mother's care, Tomy's father said, Arya then exits the room with Tomy so that the three women can enter and rest.

Abel and Vanessa go in first, and Mila walks slowly behind them. Just as Mila was about to enter the room, Arya suddenly pulled her hand into the living room.

Aghast Mila tries to hold back Arya's hand, “Arya, what's up?” said Mila who was confused at Arya's attitude.

Arya then looked at Mila's bead which was clearly glazed over. Arya then touched the temple under both eyes Mila with both hands, “you are okay?, why your eyes like this?” arya asked with a worried tone.

Mila then holds both hands Arya who touched the temples of her eyes, “aku is okay, this is just a glint earlier” said Mila with a tone as cheerful as possible that he could make at that time, “you didn't lie right?, your eyes are wet lo Mil, did anyone offend you earlier? arya said with a worried tone.

“I'm fine, 'emang who would want to offend me here?,” said Mila asked back. Arya just silently stared in Mila's bead eyes, she got the look Mila's eyes did not imply the honesty of her speech.

Mila then pulled Arya's hand to return to the living room and let go when Mila had arrived at the door, “I entered first yes, I was tired, I was tired, want to rest first” said Mila with a smile behind her veil.

Arya just nodded her head slowly at Mila, she still felt worried looking at Mila's teary eyes. Mila then closed the door of the room and looked towards the bed that was quite large, there Abel was lying down while playing his phone, while Vanessa was sitting on the bed also by playing with her phone.

Mila then went up to the bed next to Vanessa and opened her veil, took a pillow and lay down beside her sister-in-law.

“the weather here is quite cool, why did his father Tomy say here is hot huh?” abel murmured in a soft voice.

“maybe because Tomy's father lives here Bel, so it feels hot, we will be ordinary in Jakarta which is hot every day, he said, so meet the weather like gini so feel cooler” explained Vanessa to Abel.

“emang can do it?” ask Abel innocently. “iya can be Bel” replied Vanessa briefly.

Vanessa then looks towards Mila who puts her head right next to Vanessa, Vanessa then rubs Mila's head with a smile, “all will be fine, all will be well, don't worry like gini” Vanessa calms down Mila who still seems to be harboring her guilt.

‘ya Lord, I was really stupid at that time, why did I never think the impact would be so far for Arya, she must have faced a lot of difficulties because this is all Mila's inner’.

*

While Annisa's mother Tomy watched her two sons cook thoroughly, making sure there was nothing wrong with what the two sons were doing.

“for a long time I did not cook like gini” said Tomy who was busy slicing onions.

“now we are cooking, later in the afternoon until we return to Jakarta, their turn is cooking” said Arya with a smile.

“agree me, now told to rest first, later on a new afternoon of work Rodi” said Tomy with a humorous tone.

“ehh what are you talking about?, the talk is so for your own wife” said Annisa's mother reminded her two sons.

"no bi, we are joking about bi” explained Arya to her foster mother.

“your wife turned out to be veiled yes Arya, aunty is happy you get a wife like her,” said Miss Annisa who sat in the chair in the kitchen.

“he still needs to learn a lot bi, understand bi, young people sometimes have a lot of wrong intentions when doing something, sometimes the intention is not worship, but follow friends doang” said Arya casually while starting to put cooking oil into the cauldron.

“everyone is actually also learning Arya, you are also Tom, you must be able to guide Abel to want to close the aurat as well, if you can like Mila, veiled also”, Annisa said to Tomy.

“ready ma'am, if he does not want, I will find another one instead” replied Tomy who was still carried away by their joking atmosphere.

“ehh you, can't do that, you think marriage is messing around what, just as you talk find instead, you want to play with people's children?” said Miss Annisa lectured on Tomy's attitude.

“that is according to the advice of bi religion, if the wife does not want to follow the orders and guidance of the husband that is not contrary to religion, yes in the process, until the end point if it cannot be changed and remembered, yes pisah” seloroh Tomy.

“iya, but I see Abel is a good person, his son is also innocent, you do not like it with him, if later you have become her husband, you must also be able to be patient to guide him, he said, don't play divorce aja” Miss Annisa told Tomy. It was also the speech that made Arya smile bitterly when she remembered her problem and Mila.

“what aunt said something earlier to Mila?, she looked sad I saw” asked Arya at Annisa ma'am,

“it seems like auntie mispronounced earlier, aunt only said that aunt felt surprised because you did not tell aunt and uncle when you married” said Miss Annisa in a slow tone.

Arya momentarily stopped what she was doing, she then approached her aunt, who was sitting on a chair, Arya knelt in front of her aunt, she clasped her aunt's hands and kissed her deeply. “sorry Arya ya bi, Arya salah” Arya said in a guilty tone.

“eeh, you are kayak gini dear, aunt and uncle do not matter kok” said Miss Annisa did not want her adopted child to feel guilty for what happened.

“but Arya remains one of bi, Arya wants aunty and uncle to accompany Arya when Arya is married, but the circumstances of that time are beyond the control of Arya bi, Mila's grandfather wants Arya to marry Mila immediately, he wants to see Mila get married soon, we get married just by a simple event bi, in the nursery of Mila's grandfather, there is only the Mila family and the penghulu there” explained Arya in Miss Annisa.

Miss Annisa then rubbed Arya's head, she wanted to accompany Arya to face the happy day of her adopted son, but she realized she also should not be selfish on Arya, but she was aware, what else if the conditions faced Arya as told by the Aryan.

“nothing Arya, everything is predestined by God, do not regret what happened, you already have a family now, it means you already have a big responsibility on your wife, he said, if it can make the state of Grandpa Mila improve, and you and Mila can build a household that is in accordance with our religious teachings, you should have thanked him” said Miss Annisa by wiping Arya's hair a little long.