Picking Up the Past

All-round Feeling?

Tomy was in a small park, he was sitting on a piece of tree and in front of him there was a lake with clean blue water, “aku where?” muttered Tomy, Tomy then heard the voice of a child laughing on his right side, he then turned to look towards the source of the voice.

Tomy watched the figure of himself when he was 10 years old playing with a small Arya who was also the same age at that time, “Ayo Arya, pass the ball to me”, said Tomy Little, who was also the first, Arya then passes the ball at her feet towards Tomy, and Tomy accepts it, then Tomy kicks the ball hard towards Arya, the ball went hard towards Arya's stomach which made the child fall down grimacing pain while holding her stomach.

“you're what the fuck is Tom?, want to kill me huh?” arya said, and Tomy then approached Arya, she then gave her hand to Arya to help Arya stand up.

“sorry, I did not accidentally, where maybe I want to hurt you” said Tomy by smiling at Arya, “lie, said Tomy, you must have killed me.” Arya grabbed Tomy's hand and then she stood up with Tomy's help, the two of them then laughed at their silly behavior.

“I promised you I would take care of you, where I might want to kill you”, said Tomy while cleaning Arya's dirty clothes because of the fall.

“aku who should take care of you, you are my sister” reply Arya innocently. Little Tomy's face turned unhappy to hear it.

“I have to take care of you, I'm your brother” said Tomy sarcastically to Arya, Arya who heard that then snorted annoyedly at Tomy.

Arya stared cynically at my older Tomy “”, so I am your brother said Arya, and there was a fight among the 2 boys.

Tomy smiled at her silly behavior and Arya at the age of 10 years, “I will take care of you Arya, that's my promise to father, mother and also you Arya, Arya, the promise I hold to God Almighty Esa” muttered Tomy who was still smiling seeing the 2 boys in front of her still fighting.

The situation suddenly changed, the 2 children in front of him suddenly disappeared, the atmosphere of the garden where he was in turned frozen into ice, the trees were covered in ice, the grass he stepped on also became ice, the atmosphere of the garden he was in was frozen, Arya then looked around her, she saw that everything there had been covered by ice, and the lake nearby stood already frozen into ice, “ini why?” tomy muttered confusedly.

Tomy heard the sound of ice falling into a puddle on one side of the water where he was. “Arya, are you?,” said Tomy worried, but he did not find anyone there, only he was alone in that place. Slowly the cold temperature penetrated into his body which made him embrace his own body to give warmth to his body.

"Arya, where are you?” said Tomy holding the cold.

While Tomy is still holding the cold in her subconscious, Abel and Mila are still in a serious chat next to Tomy's bed,

“why did you betray Arya Mil?” abel asked in his disappointed tone.

“I did not betray him at all bel” replied Mila who defended herself.

“I heard myself the man called you dear, said that he is your girlfriend, and I also heard you say that he is your girlfriend in front of Arya and her friend, do you think it's all not betrayal of Arya?” abel asked in an angry tone to Mila. He really did not understand why Mila still said that he did not betray Arya at all.

Abel put on a flat face hearing the story of Mila, after Mila finished telling her wedding trip with Arya, Abel then looked towards Tomy, “if you do not want it, just leave her” Abel said without burden.

Mila shook her head, she did not accept what Abel said, “ this life is simple Mil, do not need to be complicated, if you are not happy with your matchmaking, leave it, leave it, pursue your happiness with that jerk boy” said Abel in a tone that is still without burden.

Mila was stunned to hear it, pain penetrated into her chest, it was really painful to hear Abel's words. But Mila does not know the pain is because Abel told her to end her marriage with Arya or because Abel said Arnes is a jerk. ‘astaga Mila, why are you like this? heart, what do you really want?’ inner Mila bore the guidance in her heart.

“I love that guy Bel, but I also don't want to lose Arya, I'm really confused with myself” Mila said hoping Abel can understand her situation at the time.

“you already have Arya, but you still love that man, that means you don't really want Arya, because if you want Arya and you already have her, it means you don't really want Arya, there will never be another love for that man, your desire for Arya is just a pseudo Mil, it's just a momentary feeling, unlike your love that you have long planted and you take care of for men it” explained Abel to Mila.

Abel then turned to Mila with his flat gaze, “your love is only for the man, not Arya", for a moment Mila remembered Arya's words which were almost similar to Abel's. ‘your desire to stay with me is only a pseudo Mil, a desire that momentarily exists and will disappear’ again that's the sentence Arya who echoed in Mila's ear.

Mila exhales violently, telling Abel that Abel can understand his difficult position, because it is not easy for him to forget Arnes, but on the other hand he still hopes a lot for Arya.

But Abel with his innocent attitude only took a one-sided conclusion as if his hope in Arya was a false hope, ‘if this is a false hope, where maybe I can be this crazy thinking about it’ inner Mila.

“I better go home Bel, talk to you not at all give me a solution to the burden I feel, I just want us to be like we used to be, to be friends like we used to be in school, but now that you look so hate me” Mila said her words weakly, Abel's innocence thinks the problem is too simple really can't accept, though he has told a long story about what he went through so that Abel can understand his difficult position.

“Do you think everyone will return to the way Mil was?, I saw you humbling your husband in front of me myself, I can't even imagine how hurt Tomy was to hear it all, you have to be aware, you know, sometimes we will hate what our loved ones hate” said Abel who further clarified his heart to Mila.

Mila stepped lethargicly towards the door after hearing it all, maybe Abel was right, if Tomy knew of the incident, Tomy could have also hated him a lot, even more than Abel hated him, he said, even now he could not imagine what kind of Arya who might also be very hurt at his attitude, he thought back to all his mistakes on Arya, when he saw Arya coming with his duck bike and he was alone with Arnes, when he tells Arya that he loves Arnes and says that Arya does not expect that their marriage will last long, as well as when he says that he is Arnes' girlfriend, in front of Arya, as well as when he says that he is Arnes' girlfriend, in front of Arya, Abel and Ari.

‘I really can't be forgiven, my God, I don't want to lose it' Mila's inner self endured the grief.

When Mila was about to pull the doorknob, Abel again said that made her heart even more painful, “I will only allow you to meet Tomy again if you come with Arya” said Abel who made Mila can only close her eyes, and take a deep breath, even though he came there to look for Arya, being sure that if Arya returns, she will definitely be on Tomy's side.

Mila then walked out of Tomy's room, and when she closed the door and was about to step over, Ari was already standing in front of her.