Owner of Heart #1
Chapter 9
Bandung, November 2014
Five months after my last video call with the Lieutenant, which meant that I hadn't heard from him in five months. Yes, after that day the Lieutenant disappeared without any news, I tried to contact him but his phone was never active. All I can do is wait and wait.
I went back to reading all my conversations with the Lieutenant all this time trying to find a clue that was missed, and I finally found it.
“If one day I disappear without giving you any news and you can't contact me. You don't have to worry, that means I'm on duty.”.
“Danger no?” At that moment I asked worriedly.
“Hehehe... All jobs bear risks, Za... but you don't have to worry, I promise you will be careful to return home safely... You will wait for me right?”
“Insyaallah, hehe... Usually if the task is so long not?”
“Depends on command.. It can be a day, a week, a month even a year.”.
“So how do I know if Mas Yudha is all right? If I miss how?”
“Quite a prayer, and God will take me back home to you safely. And believe me that you miss it is a sign that I miss you a lot.”
The longing was so intense that it felt tight in my chest as I read my conversation with the Lieutenant a few months ago when every night we would send messages until midnight. I miss you so much, do you miss me too?
I took a deep breath trying to remove the tightness in my chest before my hands retraced the traces of our conversation stored in the memory of the phone, occasionally I would smile when reading the words of the Lieutenant.
“Za, can I miss?”
“Whose same customers?”
“Kangen same you are the same kangen time Agus.”
“Hahaha..”.
“Eh even laughs.. Can not?”
“If you can't?”
“I maksa.”
“Hahaha..”.
“So can not?”
“Hehehe... can... if I can not?”
“By what?”
“That's what Mas Yudha said.”
“Iya, can what? That I said a lot.”
“Chiih! The last Mas Yudha tanyain.”
“I was what?”
“Know ah!”
“Hahahaha.. Can I miss?”
“Iya, hehehe”
“Whose same customers?”
“Sama Agus!!!”
“Know ah!!”
“Hahahaha... Kangen yes, Za?”.
“Whose name?”
“Sama Agus, hahahahaha.”
“Know Ah! Mas Yudha nyebelin!”
“Nyebelin or ngangenin?”
“Nyebelin who makes kangen hehehe.”
“Hahahaha,.finally ngaku also.”
“What's my value?”
“My when you miss.”
“Ih when did I say kangen?”
“Barusan.”
“Ih engga, I said Mas Yudha nyebelin.”
“Yes but ngangenin.”
“I know, I did ngangenin.”
“Hahahaha..
“Hahaha..”.
“I miss, Za.”
“Sama, I also.”
That was the first time we ever expressed our longing for each other, after which I was not ashamed to be the first to reveal that I missed, and he would say that he missed me so much, he said, his words would make me smile with a flowery heart. But now there are no more words that calm me when I miss.
All this time to divert my longing and worry, I busy myself with college assignments or activities in the OASIS but as the night got late I would again dissolve in longing and worries that were getting bigger and bigger.
I've been like a puppet smiling and laughing soullessly, doing all my activities like a programmed robot. There's nothing I can talk to because up until now no one has known about my relationship with the Lieutenant, except of course Arga.
Arga who knows my condition will try to cheer me up by keeping me busy when there is no activity, he will take me for a walk on his bike just to hang out in Dago or Lembang, tell funny stories just to make me laugh. Like this time Arga suddenly came to the house and forced me to follow him.
“Where?” manya lazy.
“Streeting,” he replied while forcing me to wear a jacket.
“Tomorrow yes, Ga, males ah.”
“Now, tomorrow is different again.” Arga said as he walked into the kitchen, “Bu, Arga took Kekey the way first huh?”
After getting permission from my mother, Arga immediately pulled me out of the house and forced me to sit on his motorcycle, which I would not want to immediately participate. Without waiting for long Arga immediately turned on his motorbike to split the streets of Bandung.
I just fell silent saying nothing, my hands hugging my best friend's waist looking for a little peace, but somehow the afternoon wind even made my eyes sore and finally tears fell down my cheeks which I immediately removed violently.
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Haiii.. starting tomorrow up his night yes, let read it relax ga rush because of the activity of morning duty 😁😉 as a start later mlm I up again 😘
