Owner of Heart #1
Chapter 40
The Lieutenant hugged me tightly, one hand stroked my hair, I think he kissed my head sometimes.
“Ahh.... can finally hug you again.. I miss, Za, really miss, but that gave me strength when training yesterday, because I know you are waiting for my return.”
“Yesterday must have been very heavy.”
I felt the Lieutenant nod, “You did your best, Mas, I'm proud.not just me, but both your parents and I can also see my Dad and Mom are proud of you… you're great.”
“Because of you who always give me support and prayers.”
The Lieutenant looked at me with a smile never off his face, “After a great man, there is always a greater woman.”
I smiled while nodding to hear it.
“Mamah dong, Mamah is great for giving birth and successfully raising a son like you.”
“Ohh it sure, Mamah is second to none. but besides Mamah, now there are you who always support and pray for me. So you are the great one, Za.”.
“Hmmm... I know, I am great.”
The Lieutenant laughed at my words, “So now, can this great man kiss his great woman?”
Now it was my turn to laugh before looking around again and after believing it was safe I nodded. That night was not satisfied we spilled the longing that had been buried but the night was getting late and I knew that the Lieutenant must have been very tired now, and finally came home with delivered Mas Juang using a motorbike.
The next day because I still miss him so much I decided to come to Sukajadi, but the Lieutenant had not woken up maybe because of the soy sauce, and I was sure last night was his most comfortable sleep for the past few months.
While waiting for her to wake up, I accompanied Mamah who was cooking in the kitchen with Bi Aas, their housekeeper. Mamah offered to wake the Lieutenant but I forbade him, out of pity not to disturb him for a break.
The clock was showing at 11pm when I was sitting on the living room couch playing my phone when someone hugged me from behind and kissed me on the cheek to my surprise before realizing it was the Lieutenant.
“When to come?” he whispered with a hoarse sound of waking up.
“From earlier.”
The Lieutenant jumped over the sofa to sleep on my lap and closed his eyes again.
“Why not built?”
“Do not want to disturb, must be very tired especially during these few months lack of sleep.”
The Lieutenant just smiled at my words, “5 minutes, I want to sleep again in your lap for a while.” I smiled as I stroked his hair, and the Lieutenant actually went back to sleep for not just 5 minutes but almost an hour.
The mother who had just returned home from the supermarket shook her head to see her sleeping on my lap.
“So sleeping here?”
“Iya hehehe, she said it was only 5 minutes but now it is almost an hour,” I replied in a whisper to make mom shake her head again with a smile before finally going to the kitchen with both hands carrying a grocery bag.
I felt Mas Yudha move and now on her back, I watched her face sleep quietly. I just realized that the Lieutenant's eyelashes are long enough and pliable for a man's size, his nose is pointed with a slight bend due to a broken mark, his jaw is now overgrown with short beards aged 2 days.
“I haven't shaved from yesterday.”
I was shocked to hear his voice as my index finger played his short beard.
“Hehehe, already awake?”
“Engga, just tingling,” I said while grimacing to make him sit straight and I straightened my tingling legs.
“Hehehe.. sorry you should have woken me.”
“Already, but Mas Yudjust don't want to wake up.”
“Times anyway?”
“Iya.”
“How do you build it?”
“I call-call keep me rocking but still not wake up.”
“Yes yes you are wrong.”
“How should it be? Ditiupin trumpet rich in war movies so?”
“Hahaha, no.”
“Terus?"
“You should kiss sure get up.”
“Hahaha.. Sleeping beauty dong.”
“Not, but sleeping handsome.”
“Hahaha.”
That was us after the Lieutenant's return from his Kopass training, we spent a few days off given together including the new year's night we spent at home together with my brothers, Arga, and the rest of the family, some OASIS friends and some close friends of Dirga.
The days we spent were always full of laughter and a romantic atmosphere when the two of us, all looking perfect, were too perfect. My relationship with the Lieutenant went very well, my script was completed without any obstacles, even my side went smoothly. All is amazing.
A few months after the Lieutenant was assigned to Cijantung we still have a very good relationship. The distance between Jakarta-Bandung that can be reached only by 2-3 hours makes our relationship never constrained by anything.
Until finally one day the Lieutenant began to be difficult to contact, my message was always late to reply, my phone sometimes never lifted, and sometimes I was not, at first I thought that he was busy considering that he is now a member of Kopassus who is very strict in training, and I really understand that. So when the Lieutenant finally replies to my message and apologizes for the new reply I will always say it's okay I understand.
Or when the Lieutenant returned to Bandung less and less often for busy reasons, I also understood and said no problem because all this time we were used to having a long distance relationship. But everything changed when one day the Lieutenant came to me, making me very happy because I hadn't seen him for more than a month, let alone meet in that time I only received news from him once or twice.
What he said that day when he met me was not the usual word of longing and love, but, “We'd better break up.”
I was surprised to hear that and thought that he was just joking, but he wasn't. he looked very serious when he said that and when I asked him why he said, he said,
“It's not your fault, but I.” A cliche reason in my opinion, until I asked him to tell the truth the real reason, and finally he said it.
“Sorry to me, Za, but there are other women in Jakarta.”
A reason that makes my heart feel squeezed, and my heart is broken into pieces, I tried to find lies from the look in his eyes, but I did not find it… all I found was a look of regretful eyes and that was enough to prove it all.
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