Owner of Heart #1
Chapter 11
Bandung, January 2015
A month before the return of the Lieutenant to Indonesia.The Lieutenant had told me that he would return to his homeland in February 2015, but I don't know the exact date because that time said he could have gone forward or maybe even backed down, it all depends on the warrant. And whatever the result of his decision I will be faithful to wait, because I am sure he will look for me upon arrival in the homeland.
And it makes me excited and cheerful again. I remained active in the OASIS on the sidelines of my lectures. As I am now helping my friends to teach at SKA, Arga also came to take some photos that he said he would include in the race. Oh yes, Arga has broken up from Vienna, of course I was shocked when the nights Arga came home and told me about it.
“Why break up, Ga?”
“Many.
“One of them?”
“Personal ego still high.”
“Yes, you are glad dong, Ga, you are a guy.”
“Ya can't do it either, if every time I'm the one who's caved he's even bigger head and assume that he's always right.”
“Slow down later if it is calm you tell him he is actually wrong.”
“Never want, if I say the ends he must say that I do not love him and love you more because I want you more.”
“I?”
“Iya.”
“So you broke up because of me?”
“Not also, Key, it's just an excuse to cover other problems only.”
“Means?”
“Ever time we fight again just because I was smoking in front of him, but all this time he never got angry if I crowed, he's mediocre but don't know why that day he was so angry, yes I've killed my cigarette I keep apologizing.”
“Terus?”
“So he says it's your turn, I don't smoke because I don't want you to be sick, just like him I smoke because I don't love him and don't care if he's sick.”
“Hahaha.. he is right, if you love him, yes..
“And I don't know if he doesn't like me smoking, if you're going to say that he's interested, I can't read his mind.”
“Iiih, basic guy.”
“We fight right again on the road, keep him asking to go down.”
“Keep you down?”
“Yes it is he who asked, uh pas dahurinin he was angry keep asking to break up, yes udah.”
“Hahahaha... oon!!!”
“She said that you, I anterin until the house her turn was dropped in the middle of the road, whereas I dropped her on the side of the road you know, Key, seriously.”
“Hahahaha.. iiih if I were your girl too, I would break up.”
“I'm wrong huh, Key?”
“It is.. hahaha.”.
Arga laughs with me, but I can tell that it's not really a problem.
“So..”.
I asked after we had a chance to talk about something else and I thought Arga was ready to tell me the truth.
“So?”
Arga was silent for a while with eyes glaring before he finally started telling stories.
“He wants my time really just for him, and I can't. I still want to gather with friends without every minute asked again who? Whereabouts? Why?, I still want to stay up late playing rummy or playing guitar until dawn with my friends even though finally scolded the neighbors for being noisy without being told to go home every minute as if he were my parents or my wife, he said, I still want to go up the mountain without anyone banning it for unreasonable reasons, I still want to channel my hobby of photographing other things not just him as my photo object, he said, and I still want to be your loyal friend, Key. I still want it all.”
I fell silent listening to him carefully because I knew that moment all he wanted was to hear and just wanted to spill all the grunts in his heart without having to feel judged and blamed.
“We are only 20 years old, Key, our soul still wants to feel freedom but I also know the limitations of that freedom. Maybe later when I graduate from college and work, I will not be as often as I can meet my friends, I will be more busy working and too tired to stay up late and prefer to sleep. While on vacation maybe I will spend more time with my family or with my lover than going up the mountain, maybe later I will be more interested in taking pictures of my family than other things, and certainly until when you are my loyal friend, but maybe later I will not always be there for you because you already have someone who will protect and love you far more than me, vice versa I will pay more attention and protect the people who will accompany my old age. All that there is time, Key.. but for now let me enjoy my youth.”.
I nodded in understanding while patting his back encouragingly. I know Arga as well as I know myself. He may look indifferent, no matter but believe me he is the first person who will give his shoulder when you need a backrest even without you asking, he is a person who is willing to be cold as long as you stay warm, he said, he is the one who will make you smile when you are sad.
Does that only apply to me? No, she might treat me more than that but trust me she will also do that to her other friends, especially if you are her lover.
“Stupid woman.” I said with a serious face making Arga look at me.
“Because he lost a nice and handsome guy like me?” Arga raised his eyebrows trying to smile ignorantly.
“Not.”
“Not? Then why is he stupid?”
“Because didn't disconnect you from first.”
“Hahaha.”
“If he doesn't like what you do, why is he dating you, isn't he stupid? He should have rejected you from the beginning, because from the beginning he already knew that you were his hobby of going up the mountain and photographing whatever you saw, from the beginning he also knew that you were friends with your friends much earlier than you were dating him, and he should know that even the same Mother Father never forbid you stay up late which is important not to do strange and know the time not every night, not every night, and he should know that we've been friends since the days of still wearing blue white. If he already knows it all and still does not like it, then he is stupid for still forcing to date with you.”
A few moments Arga looked at me with a warm smile that made me smile.
“Means I'm right?”
“No, you are also wrong.” I shake my head seriously.
“What's wrong?”
“Because dropped it in the middle of the road.”
“Hahahaha.. I swear, Key, on the edge not in the middle, in front of the shop even so as not to overheat while waiting for his angkot.”
“Hahahaha.”
That night we no longer talked about Vienna or the Lieutenant, that night like two friends who would talk and laugh at anything including the unimportant though. Dirga, Mom and Dad soon joined us in the backyard, enjoying the cool night air of Bandung, although not as cool as before.
And now that I can see Arga has returned to cheerful as before, he really enjoys photographing busy street children learning interspersed with laughter, he was so happy, I myself was accompanying the little kids coloring when Mira exclaimed with a shocked look on her face, attracting all of us.
“This!” He shouted with wide eyes and a gaping mouth pointing at his phone.
“Aaan, Mir?” I asked curiously, everyone was staring at him waiting for an answer.
“Mas Yudha!”
The deg! My heart seemed to stop beating for a moment when I heard a name I had not heard for a long time.
“Kunaon (Why) Mas Yudha?”
Mira's face still looks in disbelief, she looks back at her phone before finally answering.
“Mas Yudha, dating Leona.”
As soon as I could not breathe, my body trembled, my face paled, I stared at Arga in utter disbelief who was also looking at me with round eyes, I could see him cursing without a sound, I could do nothing but just sit still as if my body was boneless. Everyone who had known the Lieutenant immediately swarmed Mira to see articles that contained news about celebrities.
Arga walked quickly towards Mira without saying much she took the phone from her hand, everyone looked shocked by her reaction. With giddy eyes he read the article, my eyes kept staring at Arga waiting for him to say that it was just gossip and not true, but I could see his jaw starting to harden, his face flushed with his anger.
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