Owner of Heart #1
Chapter 20
The third day at Kubu, we have a guest from Dinkes Musi Rawas who will examine the residents of Kubu. 3 extraordinary doctors, who will be visiting the city, who dedicate their lives to the health of rural residents who have difficulty receiving health facilities such as residents in the city. It can not be every day they come but at least once a month Kubu residents will receive free health checks from them.
Residents waited patiently for their turn to be examined by doctors in the newly-built room yesterday. The house without walls whose roof is supported by four pillars, if in Java we analyze it as a pendopo, well I don't know what the people there call it. So let's call it a pendopo.
The artists are now assigned to help doctors in pendopo, as usual the men are now doing the construction of MCK is almost complete, as is the case, the women were cooking in the kitchen for lunch this time considering that the Mamak had been sitting sweetly waiting for the doctor from the morning, so it was now the turn of Teh Vita, Kak Yoan, Veny and Yuni who were cooking. While I wandered around with the camera in hand trying to capture every moment of the day.
Now I am at the MCK construction site, not only is MCK apparently being made but they also make some showers that water is drained from the river which will make it easier for Kubu residents to bathe, but they also make some showers that water is drained from the river that will later make it easier for Kubu residents to bathe, washing and other clean water needs.
I walked down the gallon paralon being done by the Fathers of TNI. Ah, our soldiers are indeed very extraordinary, not only good when they have to take up arms for the sake of NKRI but they also go into the corners to help the citizens, he said, they really devoted their lives to this country.
I took some pictures of them working hard and continued my journey down the gallon until the river bank, and I stood there staring at the scenery.
The Lieutenant was standing in the middle of the river in black pants that had been soaked in water to his knees, he was just wearing a white singlet that had been soaked in sweat and splashes of river water. He was intent on working hard with his TNI colleagues assisted by friends from Dinsos. And he looks so cool!
My hand without command was immediately raised capturing that moment in the camera, I don't know how many pictures of the Lieutenant I took but that must have been quite a lot! After feeling satisfied I went back to walk down the river, then sat on a rock beside the river under an acacia tree, opened my mountain shoes and soaked my feet in the cool river water.
I sat down while looking at the photos I took on camera while in the Fort. I smiled when I saw the photo of Kubu residents who smiled happily, my colleagues who were working also looked happy as if there was no fatigue for them, he said, and the last pictures I took were of the Lieutenant who looked absolutely incredible. I smile but my heart hurts, because this amazing man is not mine.
“What are you looking at?”
I almost jumped in shock when suddenly the Lieutenant sat beside me and smiled at my reaction. He has now been wearing a white shirt no longer using a singlet like that.
“By me see.” He said that while taking the camera out of my hand made me protest, but it was useless that he did not listen to it and began to look at the contents of my camera memory.
He looked serious looking at the photos of my shots, and like me, sometimes he would smile when he saw a photo that captured a funny moment. Seeing his reaction made me let him see all those photos, while I was late to enjoy the natural scenery and peace I had never found in the past few years. I took a deep breath filling my lungs with very cool and clean mountain air yet polluted by factory and vehicle fumes.
The sound of camera shots made me re-awaken and look to the side where the Lieutenant was smiling behind the camera taking my picture.
“There are no photos of you in it,” said the Lieutenant while looking at the results of his shots, “beautiful as always.”
My heart rippled at his praise, and I hated that taste which should not be present every time I saw or even heard it. But it was as if my body rebelled against not wanting to hear my brain's orders not to act like it.
I took a deep breath trying to behave normally by staring into the distance ignoring the Lieutenant who was still staring at me.
“I met Bang Eddy a few months ago before serving here.”
I remained silent staring at the peaceful stream.
“Say you got sick and hospitalized huh?”
I remember the times I was down from hearing the news of her relationship with Leona and making me end up in the hospital for a week. I nodded in response without taking my eyes off.
“Sick thypus?”
I nodded back.
“Arga guard?”
I nodded back.
“You're angry, Za?”
As I looked at him with emotion on my face, I took a deep breath so I could hold back my anger which had reached the crown.
“Why be angry?” I asked cynically while looking at him sharply, he silently said nothing to see me who had almost exploded.
“What because suddenly you disappeared without news?” Ok my emotions began to ignite and it seems like my defense began to collapse.
“Is it because I'm so worried that something might happen to you, when I shouldn't have to do that because it turns out you're okay?!” my voice began to rise, and I hated myself for not being able to hold back my emotions.
I stood up, put on my gunshoes quickly, the Lieutenant stood in front of me and was still silent, he just looked at me.
“What because I suddenly heard the news that you were dating... Leona?” I looked at him with fiery eyes spilling the stored anger all along.
“Za,” said the Lieutenant gently as he tried to reach me, I raised my hand and retreated to tell him to be quiet.
“I have no right to be angry for all those reasons, because what? Because we have nothing to do!” I really let out my emotions no matter if anyone listens to our current conversation.
“That's all just my stupidity! My stupidity for waiting for you every night hoping you would call me, my stupidity for worrying about you, my stupidity for waiting for you as you ask, my stupidity because I think at least you have the same feelings as me, but it turns out. “.
I can't go on with my words anymore, if I go on I'm sure I'll yell more and end up crying. I don't want to look pathetic in front of him, even though I know I look pathetic now.
“Za, you should listen to my explanation.”
I raised my hand again, for now I don't want to hear any explanation from him. With a hunting breath I took my camera out of his hand violently, and turned to leave it.
“Za!” The Lieutenant called me but I kept walking quickly, he chased me, pulled my hand until I turned to face him, “You must listen to my explanation first.”
“What should I listen to? If you're sorry for giving me a million wishes but you're with another woman? Or will you explain how you ended up falling in love with an artist who is indeed in its entirety far above me?” I tried to let go of his hand, “Not do you explain I can understand all that, and don't worry I really understand about it.”
“I beg you to listen first, I don't..”
“Key!”
The cry of the one who called me stopped whatever he was going to say and I am grateful for that. I turned to look at Brother Yoan who was standing not far from our location.
“Again lunch.. Mas Yudha also.”.
Not wasting a chance I immediately turned around to walk quickly towards Kak Yoan who was still standing waiting for me. We walked together towards the settlement with the Lieutenant trailing from behind. Along the way was tense, no words were spoken from the three of us, and I was sure Kak Yoan could feel something was wrong with us.
When we arrived, everyone had gathered and started lunch, we sat down to join the others but I had no appetite even though the menu was a sweet, that is a kind of pepes fish that is burned again trus on it given tempoyak.
But this time it all seemed bland when I entered my mouth, I could not even listen well to what was being the conversation this time, I just smiled when all laughed. And for sure I really want to quickly get away from there away from the Lieutenant sitting next to me.
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Bonus week morning 😍
