Owner of Heart #1

Chapter 34

The news on television almost a week can not be separated from Leona, me and the Lieutenant. Leona increasingly fills the TV screen by attending several talk shows that talk about celebrity gossip, such as, music show that more disgrace and make ‘infidelity’ the Lieutenant and I became a joke that was laughed at by the host and the paid audience in the studio.

I've never opened the sosmed again because the maki caci getting worse and worse, even some blaspheme and swear me. But friends who know me very well do not just sit back, as if they were angry they replied to the evil comments and finally there was a war on social media.

Until finally one morning I was surprised by the WA in the OASIS group who told me to open the instragram, they said that the Lieutenant last night uploaded something. With curiosity I opened the ig after a long time and a lot of notifications that I ignored, I immediately entered the account ig the Lieutenant and immediately went wide when I saw some photos attached there.

I opened the first photo and couldn't believe it when I saw it was our picture in Ciwidey, on the last night. In the photo we were smiling at each other with a cup of coffee in my hand that the lieutenant received. My eyes read the status writing of the photo with a trembling heart.

Ciwedey, August 2013, it was the first time I met a woman who made my heart seem to stop, a beautiful woman face and heart, like an angel that God sent to us all in the midst of disaster. Yes, we met not at a party or any other place in general, but we met at a disaster place where I was serving as a member of the TNI, and he was a volunteer who helped the victims.

Beautiful, young, has a high social spirit and humanity enough to make me admire it more and more. But believe me to get his heart is not easy, he is very fierce and judes, hehehe.he was the first woman who dared to turn back all my words and it always makes me laugh while shaking my head. But that's why I like it more and more.

I smiled as if reminded of our first conversation, now I see the second photo where we both sit in front of the campfire. And now the Lieutenant writes as if he were talking to me.

Do you remember this moment? for the first time we sat side by side like this, and believe me my heart was beating violently back then, I didn't even dare to look to the side for fear that my heart would explode from happiness.

Just sitting next to you is a joy for me, but I am also sad because it is your last night there before tomorrow you go home to Bandung. At that time I was too busy at the disaster site not even had time to say goodbye to you. And I am also sad that I can't see your jelly face anymore, a face that can take away all my fatigue, a face that I will always miss. But I'm sure God will find us again.

The third photo is a photo at Bang Eddy's wedding, not only was I there but the others were also when we were both taking pictures with the bride.

I've been waiting for this day.the day when I'll see you again, but it turns out we have to postpone our meeting because I have to go for country duty… and you know I was angry when I saw this picture? You shouldn't dress up too pretty that day because it will make other men know that you're beautiful and my rivals will grow more and more. You can only dress pretty when you are with me. Remember that!!!

I smiled reading the writing, the next photo was a picture of me that I had sent to him while on duty in Myanmar.

This photo is one of the photos that you sent me when I was on duty in the country of people, fortunately, I had moved your photos into the laptop before my phone was lost. This photo and our conversation every night is my encouragement while on duty, but seeing the photo and hearing your voice makes me even more longing to go home quickly.

When I lost my phone and all the contact numbers in it I was like a madman trying to remember your phone number, until my friends tease me often by saying if I had told them your phone number then I wouldn't have suffered that much. Of course I won't tell them your phone number!! But fortunately I still have your picture that permeates my days in the land of people.

The next photo is a photo at the Embassy.

At this event my phone was lost, whether it fell or what because on that day too many people were present to watch the singer who was said to be on the rise in the country. We took a picture with the singer but it was nothing more! You know for yourself I don't like crowds and I ended up with some of my colleagues going to find peace elsewhere.

That day my mind was so screwed when I realized my phone was gone, which meant I would no longer be able to talk to you like the nights before, and I knew you would be waiting for news from me. I know you're gonna be so worried, and I don't know how to reach you to just tell you I'm okay and I miss you so much.

I'm getting excited to open the next photo, which is a photo lunch with Leona, but in this photo there are not only the two of them like Leona uploaded but also with some people I don't know.

It was the next day when I went along with my friends to buy a cell phone, that was when we accidentally met some of the people we met at Kedebus the day before. Meet with fellow countrymen abroad, believe it will make us like meeting our own brother, which is why we join lunch with them. But believe me, at that time we were not both.You see alone if it was not just the two of us, and I did not know that this photo will make a scene in the country.

The time of our return to the homeland is getting closer and I am very happy which means I will be able to see you again. But upon arrival in my homeland I was surprised by the news about me dating one of the country singers. Not only me but all my colleagues were shocked to hear the news.

How did the news spread without my knowledge? I didn't even analyze who my lover was on the news, other than we had 2x photos in Myanmar! Who spread the news? I don't know, I didn't think much back then all I thought about was explaining to you that it wasn't true!

I immediately looked for my friend who also knew you to ask for your phone number, but he said that you already have a new lover. I was disappointed and devastated, I thought you would wait for me to return to my homeland, but what I heard was that you had been with another man.

I quickly changed the next photo and it was the first time we met at Kubu, when we shook hands and there was a face of shock.

Knowing that you have a lover makes me let the untrue news go without clarifying it, why else would I deny that it means nothing to me because I have lost you. And I'm grateful that I was assigned outside Java in the hope that the further I get away from you then I'll be able to forget about you and the news of my date will disappear over time.

But God has another plan by finding us back in the unexpected. At first I thought I only met women who people know as ‘loverku’ when it was our second meeting after the first in Myanmar. As a representative of the TNI, I welcomed them all, and when I experienced it, I heard the sound of laughter that I had longed for.

Believe me, my heart immediately seemed to stop when I heard your laughter, I even immediately left the group of guests with the reporters covering them. I quickly walked to prove my ears were not wrong, and there you stood laughing with some of the friends I had known before.

My heart suddenly ticked crazily, longing bursting to the surface when I saw you. You have not changed a bit besides your hair that you cut short, you still look beautiful as before, even now you look more beautiful and mature. But when I look into your eyes, I see anger and disappointment there, that's when I realized there was something wrong with it all.

The next photo was of our first night in Kubu, when the Lieutenant was sitting next to me eating noodles.

That night when everyone teased me with ‘my love’ I saw you just bowed silent making me shout calling you so that everyone is silent and realize that there is a heart of someone I want to protect.

Not without reason that night I asked you to cook noodles for me but so I could sit next to you and talk to you. But you kept wanting to not even talk to me, right then and there I could see you getting angry every time someone teased me about that woman, and it made me smile knowing that your heart was still mine.

So that's why all of a sudden you just yelled at me and told me to cook noodles? I smiled remembering that night before I went back to the next photo, which was at lunch at Musi Rawas, I could see Fadhil, Marsya and Doni there.

Realizing that there is a misunderstanding between us and realizing that your heart is still mine made me talk to ‘lovermu’ both for the first time (Isn't this funny, isn't it funny, everyone thought we were dating but we haven't even spoken to each other in the past, other than that day? I don't know). I asked him to end it all, and at that time he apologized and promised to take care of it after he returned to Jakarta. I trusted his words and kept his promise.

This photo was taken our second day at Musi Rawas, when they were going to shoot outside Kubu, he said, and I'm coming because I want to borrow a sleeping bag in Dinsos' office for you and your friends who last night had to sleep on a board without any pedestal, and you're too stubborn to wear mine, even to take my jacket. I finally had to ask one of your friends to cover you in my jacket when you were asleep.

Maybe if this show has been aired and hopefully not edited here and there, you can see that that day I only acted as a driver, he said, I drove them to the market then I went to Dinsos and I went back to pick them up by waiting for them in the car. I just joined them back at lunch.

I smiled reading that, I liked the way the Lieutenant tried to explain to everyone the truth, in a way as if he was just explaining it to me. And make me the lead, even though I know she actually wants everyone to see the lies that Leona has made.

I went back to the next photo, the one I stepped on his foot?

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