Not Love But Married

Big Decisions

The applause rumbles as the musical ends with a victory from the heroes who can fight their enemies in battle. Rania stood up proudly while continuing to wipe her tears, smiling haru with a broken feeling in her heart. Andra immediately ran down from the stage to approach Rania who was still standing waiting for Andra.

" Mother...!!! ", he exclaimed with a big smile because he was very happy to have managed to look cool on stage.

" Mother's child."., welcome Rania directly into her arms, continue her crying over Andra's small shoulder which now looks confused. It's like dejavu, again Rania feels the same but with a different feeling after watching the Andra show.

" Why did you cry?. Daddy didn't come???. ", asked Andra disappointed while glancing at the empty bench next to Rania.

" Daddy is busy baby, the important thing is that now there is Mommy here"., said Rania while gently rubbing Andra's head.

" But daddy promised to come see Andra wearing army clothes... ", andra immediately bent his face sad, then played a toy gun tucked in his pants.

" Maybe daddy has an appointment with someone else, so can't come here. There are still many more opportunities to see Andra perform on stage later. ", Rania continued to calm Andra from her sadness.

" No papa, Andra can't be sad anymore. In the drama, Andra was great to appear, Mother was very proud to see Andra was able to defeat all enemies. Andra really can already be a protective soldier Mother now, Mother becomes calmer if you go with Andra. ", Andra finally smiled hearing the praise from her mother. Then his outstretched hand rubbed his mother's cheek that was wet with tears.

" But why did Mother cry?. ".

Rania immediately shook her head while rubbing the rough of her tears, "This is because Mother is happy dear, very happy to see Andra being a great child like this. ", he said with a big smile. But in fact his tears still can not be held at this time, his heart really can not be lied to, Rania can hardly withstand his pain in front of his own son.

" Oya, Andra will go home with Joko sir first. Mother there is a need for a while, after the completion of the Mother's appointment directly home. Okay. ".

Andra just nodded her head obediently, as if understanding the state of her Mother who was not okay without the slightest protest, then followed the steps of her Mother who tightly held her hands out of the school hall.

Now Rania is on her way to a place escorted by an online taxi after making sure Andra has gone home first with Mr. Joko. Mr. Joko also had a little forced him to want to be escorted to his destination, but Rania refused on the grounds the direction of his goal was opposite and pityed Andra who had seen soybeans after appearing earlier.

Rania sat quietly in the back corner while occasionally glancing at her HP screen, still hoping for a reply from Arsha that would make her change her mind right now. But it turns out his hope must be dashed leaving a huge sense of disappointment, because until this moment there has been no reply from the message he sent to Arsha about two hours ago. I don't know what's going on with her husband right now, it's so important that she decides not to come to Andra's school and ignores her own promise to come watch Andra's show.

Rania again opened the photo sent by Sarah for him, a photo that showed Arsha's figure who was removing her white hem in the walk in closet of her apartment and showed her open shoulder. One photo that managed to open again the wound that has not completely dried, but only last night he felt happiness after hearing the words of her husband who so adores her like a queen.

" I'm sorry, but we've reached our destination. ", Rania was aware of the words of the online taxi driver who drove her. His eyes stared straight at the tall building in front of him with a nanar view and an increasingly pounding heart. " Thank you, sir ", said Rania as she was about to get off the taxi.

With a doubtful step, Rania entered the building, then immediately boarded the empty elevator which happened to be on the basement floor of the building. His hands squeezed together as if he wanted to strengthen himself when he faced the truth. Repeatedly saying Istighfar to calm his increasingly restless heart. Until unconsciously finally his footsteps stopped right in front of the door of an apartment in the building. The door that has been a few weeks since he never entered again because he felt uncomfortable when he knew the history of this apartment. For a moment Rania closed her eyes tightly, praying inwardly and determined not to cry over the matter anymore. With trembling hands Rania ventured to press the bell next to the door, and after twice pressing the bell, faintly heard the voice of a male voice from inside the room which made his body tremble even more violently. His eyes suddenly immediately fogged up, blurred by the puddles of tears that were ready to spill right then and there, in fact she was not a woman as strong as it was facing her strange household problems at this time. In a hurry Rania immediately wiped her tears and immediately prepared with the reality that she would meet.

Rania was just glued quietly in front of the door that slowly opened and immediately showed a male figure that was very familiar to her was wearing her favorite sky blue oversize shirt and only made a home color dress.

" Rania...??!!. ", said the man with wide eyes and almost glared because he was so shocked by his arrival.

" Assalamu'alaikum, mas. ", said Rania with a great shaking voice and then painstakingly pulled her lips to be able to smile in front of the person who had made her anxious and curious.

" rania... L'm... Please don't misunderstand Rania... ", rania spontaneously withdrew as Arsha walked up to her with a panicked and very frightened face.

" I can go inside right?. ", asked Rania then in a flat tone.

" Rania please... ".

Rania is still trembling to avoid her husband who wants to grab her shoulder immediately, her palm facing Arsha as a signal she does not want to be touched by her husband at this time. Her chin was slightly raised up as if she was defiantly staring at her husband, expressionless still with a forced smile, so wanting to look firm and strong in front of Arsha. Arsha seemed increasingly riled up by Rania's behavior, violently rubbing her face that looked very frustrated, "I beg Rania, please listen to my explanation first. ", he said begging.

" I heard it clearly last night Mas, and I'm now trying to prove the truth of what Arsha said last night. ", I don't know what kind of power suddenly came into Rania, but I'm trying to prove it, until now it feels more ready to face her husband who is still in shock when he sees her. Her voice sounded more resolute with a cynical smile filled with hatred for her own husband's actions.

" rania... ".

" Who came Sha?. ", a woman's voice came from inside the apartment.

Rania smiled bitterly, staring at the woman who was standing just wearing a tanktop and hotpants in front of her. His heart this time was really crumpled, until the pain he had been holding was now like numbness because many times hit by a reality that was so stifling the chest. Arsha shifted her body blocking Rania's view, then gently squeezed both of Rania's shoulders. Irritatedly, Rania turned to look at her husband who looked increasingly pale in front of her.

" Why did you?. This is what is called the woman who is calming down to be able to accept the reality?." , said Rania with a slanted smile.

" Rania, please listen to me first... ".

" It seems like everything is quite clear now, there is nothing more to explain. Please mas Arsha continue as before, I will not bother you anymore. ", cut Rania quickly.

" Rania!. ", Arsha shook Rania's shoulder a little hard, trying to assuage his wife's anger.

" By looking at you like this, I'm so ashamed... I think Arsha can take care of himself, but in fact it is exactly like this that mas do behind me. Before I really believed in the earnestness of Arsha, but now it feels like my trust is getting thinner on you. If Arsha has not completely left the past, please do not involve me in your past. Let me go, let you be free to do anything. " .

" Rania!!. ", Arsha snapped out loud.

Rania chuckled softly at the loud snapping of her husband, this was the first time her husband had spoken out loudly to her.

" Hear me for a moment" said Arsha slightly suppressing his emotions.

" I'm sorry, I never understood modern society like this, but for me and my religion, everything I did was a big mistake. I really can't accept this anymore for any reason. Rather than you continue to commit such a great sin, you better decide to justify it religiously. And I will sincerely retreat from your lives forever. ".

Bruck

Rania and Arsha turned to the voice behind him, "Celine.!. ", call Arsha in a stifled voice, then look back at Rania with a gaze like he was asking for understanding from his wife, and then it soon passed leaving Rania who was still standing staring at Celine who was now lying unconscious on the apartment floor.

With a bitter smile, Rania looked at her husband who was frantically trying to wake Celine up from her stupor by holding her head and gently patting her cheek. Clearly the look of panic in her husband's eyes at this time, occasionally turning towards Rania who was still silently staring at the door without the slightest intention to help her husband. After feeling enough to see the dramatic scene, Rania quickly turned her body immediately leaving the apartment with a feeling full of wounds. Now her determination was completely unanimous, there was no reason for her to continue to survive with her husband's condition like this. His hand rubbed his flat stomach, as if telling his son that he was fine now. There is nothing more to cry about, because everything is just a small trial for him, there are many other trials that are ready to wait in the future.

Arriving at Hanum's mother's house, Rania is greeted with warm hugs and regretful cries from Hanum's mother who has been waiting for her in the guest room.

" I'm sorry, Mama... I am ashamed of Arsha's behavior. Mama really did not think that Arsha would make you sad like this. Mama's ashamed Ra... ".

Rania replies to Mama Hanum's embrace and gently rubs her back, "Yes ma, Rania is not papa. Rania has sincerely accepted all this. ", he said trying hard. Although her heart was so sick, Rania has now promised to no longer cry over all this because she wants to keep her psychology for the children she is carrying.

Mama Hanum immediately let go of her embrace and looked at Rania full of sadness, "Are they okay Ra?. ", asked Mama Hanum while rubbing Rania's stomach.

Rania spontaneously widened her eyes in shock, "Mama, already know that... ".

" Nobody doesn't know Rania, you know everything even though you keep this a secret from your mom. Only that stupid kid doesn't understand this, right?!. ".

" Can Rania ask for help not to tell Arsha about this first Ma?. ".

Mama Hanum nodded with a smile haru, "Yes Rania, that brat must indeed be taught a lesson because it has the heart with you and his future children. ".

Rania seemed hesitant when she was going to say something, "Ma.mm there is one more thing that Rania wants to ask her. Can Rania move out of this house right now?. ", asked Rania hesitantly.

Again mama Hanum nodded confidently, "Surely Rania, you should immediately move out of this house right now. ".

Rania smiled at her father-in-law's understanding, "Grace Ma... Later Rania will submit a letter from the religious court to mas Arsha if...".

" Ssttt. ", mama Hanum directly held back Rania's lips with her index finger, "Don't rush to decide something Rania. Mama knows very well what Arsha's true nature is, she will not be able to do things that are out of her will. Trust me, Rania, I promise, you'll take care of your problems. Now just teach that stupid kid a lesson so he'll regret making you like this. You just follow the same mom, mom is ready everything and you just follow the scenario of mama, Okay. ".

Rania fell silent and still did not understand what mama Hanum meant. She could only nod obediently as mama Hanum gave her well-arranged instructions, despite not understanding what she was going to do in the future.