Not Love But Married

I miss you

...I cannot change the past and I cannot know what will happen in the future. Why should I regret the past or feel anxious about the future?. (Rania)...

Siska sobbed in tears saddened to hear all of Rania's stories, repeatedly embracing Rania as if to share the burden of grief with herself.

" Ra... Hikhik... How come you never talked to me?. Least... Hikhik... I can be your loyal listener when you are sad, hikhik. ", Siska said amid sobs. Rania smiled and looked at Siska who was so sincere to her.

" Siska, this has become my way of life, God must have measured my ability to accept all these trials. I can definitely get through all this. ", Rania tried to stay strong and strong in front of Siska.

Siska rubbed her tears that continued to flow on her cheeks, "And you want what now Ra?. ", asked Siska then while holding tightly to both hands of Rania.

" I don't know Sis, I can't think at all right now. But for sure I should be able to take care of these kids. ", Rania gently rubbed her still flat stomach.

" I don't want to be like Sis anymore, I want to really take care of my own health now, I have to be strong for the sake of these children and also Andra of course.

" Ra, you must be strong, I'm sure of it. I will always be there for you, Ra. I must always be with you. ", Siska hugged Rania tightly, feeling how complicated Rania was feeling right now.

" Sis, please don't tell anyone about my pregnancy yes. ", ask Rania to Siska.

" Why Ra?. Does your husband not know if you are pregnant?. ", Rania nodded weakly while smiling blandly.

" You have to tell your husband dong Ra, he has to know if his wife is pregnant with her child so he can focus on looking after you. ".

" Siska, I'll tell her myself later when she can deal with her own problems. ". Rania sighed softly before continuing to speak, "I just want to know how strong Arsha will maintain this household without feeling burden because of my pregnancy. I will give him a little time to solve his own problems without the interference of others again. Because only he can decide about his past. You understand Sis?. ".

Siska is silent, Rania is right, this problem will be finished with a big decision from Arsha himself, because after all Arsha must be able to choose which is best for himself and also Rania.

After spending two bottles of infusion containing vitamins to overcome dehydration, Rania decided to go home for outpatient treatment at home because it was late afternoon. Although in fact doctors recommend to remain hospitalized because of the condition of Rania's body is still weak in a very young pregnancy. But Rania still forced to go home on the grounds that she could overcome her nausea and would try to eat and drink as recommended by the doctor who treated her.

After arriving home, Siska gawked at the house with a giant gate in front of her. " Ra, is this really your in-laws' house??".", he said amazed by the luxurious house he only saw when watching soap operas on TV.

" Yes, Siska. Ah, don't do that expression. ", Rania pinched Siska's heavy cheeks that were still staring around the vast courtyard of the house.

" Geez Ra, you are actually married to his son Sultan ya Ra... How similar is the story in the soap opera Ra?!. ".

" Yes very similar to Sis, just wait for the ending, want a happy ending what sad ending?. ", said Rania trying to entertain herself.

" Ishh you Ra, do'a aja may happy ending kayak in drakor that... ".

" Uh ah Sis, Yuk went inside, later I know my mother-in-law who is super duper good and beautiful. ".

Siska nodded happily, when else could enter a luxurious house like this, from birth to large like this, had only ever added buildings and courtyards like a palace.

*

Meanwhile, Arsha's hospital is seen busy calling someone who has not been willing to take his call.

" And, you can call Rania what Siska is?. ", asked Arsha desperately while rubbing her hair violently.

" No. ", Dani replied briefly. He was also no less anxious and felt guilty for just leaving Rania with such a weak body condition.

" What the hell is Dan?!. Kan I've told you from earlier!. ", Arsha's hard drive is frustrated because it has tried to contact Rania several times but has not been accepted.

" I went to the office again, boss. Said security earlier Rania same Siska went to take an online taxi after Rania in please same security because of fainting. ".

" What!!. Rania fainted?!. Why just say it now!!. ", arsha growled angrily at Dani who was still busy trying to call Siska.

" Boss was also busy calming Miss Celine, how would I say that Rania fainted. I also just found out after I returned to the office. ".

" Why did he faint Dan?. Was he in shock about the incident?. ".

" His body condition was already weak before that incident. That's why I told Mr. Joko to get ready downstairs because I want to take Rania to the hospital. ".

" Why not tell me, you ungodly base Dan!!. ".

" Rania banned him Boss, she said Boss again there's a guest. ".

" So Rania met Celine before Dan?. ".

" It's possible. ".

Arsha cupped her face with both hands, "But she doesn't know about Celine, does Dan?. Why did he go into such shock?. Is he afraid of blood?. ".

Dani was just silent, there was no point in explaining about the photos that Rania had found in Arsha's apartment. Because surely only anger will come out of Arsha's mouth at him.

" Where are you Rania.?.?. ", he said anxiously.

Arsha grabbed her own hair hard, earlier she had also called the house person without the knowledge of mama Hanum to ask the whereabouts of Rania, and it turns out that Rania also has not returned home this afternoon.

It's been almost two hours that Arsha has been in the hospital where Celine was treated. She had wanted to leave after Celine had gotten her hands on the wound, but suddenly Celine was hysterical and tried to hurt herself again by pulling out the infusion hose and throwing all the items nearby. Arsha was asked to stay by the doctor before the Celine family came to this hospital for fear that if something unexpected happened to the patient then the hospital will not be responsible. Finally Arsha was forced to wait until Bobby's former assistant Celine came after it could be contacted directly by Dani. Meanwhile, Celine is now asleep due to the influence of sleeping pills given by doctors to calm her down.

" Arsha's. ", Arsha looked up at Edo who was already in front of him.

" He was temporarily still calm because his sleeping pills were still working. What really happened Sha?. Why would Celine do that?.".

Arsha was silent, imagined again the incident that so quickly happened in his room.

The flashback

Arsha steps out of the meeting room and immediately searches for Rania's whereabouts in her room, but turns out to be nil. Rania's room was empty and she finally decided to go to her own study.

Haph!. A pair of delicate hands instantly covered his two eyes the moment he entered the room.

" Surprise...! ", arsha was caught hearing a whisper near her ear, this was definitely not Rania's voice, but this was the voice of the woman she was very familiar with.

Arsha violently squeezed the hand and kept it away from her face.

" Hi Arsha, miss you so much... ", Celine immediately rushed to embrace Arsha who was still standing rigidly staring at the woman who had been forgotten five years.

Arsha immediately pushed Celine's body to the point of almost falling down.

" Asha... ", Celine tried to grab Arsha's hand but could be pushed off quickly by Arsha.

" Well what else are you Celine?. ", hardik Arsha hard.

" I miss you so much Sha... ".

" We've finished Celine!. ".

" But I still love you so much Sha... I don't want to split with you. ", reject Celine.

" But I don't!. I really want us done first!. ".

" Sha, I'm sorry Sha... Sorry I'm Sha... ", Celine cried sobbing.

" I've forgiven you and I've forgotten you! ".

" Sha, please give me another chance. We can live our love again and build the family we dream of. We can have as many children as you want and we can... ".

" enough!. Celine's done, go!. I will not change my decision from the first time. "

" She, I really can't live without you. I just love you Sha, I can't love anyone else but you Sha.".

Arsha stared angrily at Celine who still held on with her stance, "Celine, now listen to me carefully!. I'm married, I already have my own dream family, and I love the woman who's my wife now. ".

" What!!. ", Celine glared in disbelief, "No...!! No way Sha!! You can't marry another woman besides me!. You're just mine Sha!. And you just love me!. ".

" I'm sorry Celine, but that's the truth. I'm married to someone I love very much. ".

Celine suddenly chuckled in her cries, "Hahaha... You lied to Sha?!. You're still mad at me, and you want to test me even longer, right?. ", Celine's grin was in disbelief.

" No Celine, I'm not lying to you at all.

" Arsha, don't you know if I really suffered five years?. Is it not five years to forget that?. Is it still not satisfied to punish me Sha?. How much longer do I have to wait for Sha?. ", Celine sobbed loudly demanding Arsha to understand her.

" Celine, I never asked you to come back again and I never asked you to wait, because we're both really done long ago. ".

Celine bowed uneasily with her wistful cries that still shook her shoulders. It quickly grabbed the cutter on Arsha's desk and directly aimed at her left wrist.

" Celine stop!. Never do something stupid like that. ".

" Haha... Stupid thing you said!. I've done even more stupid things than this Sha!. You want to know how stupid I am that has been tormented by your anger?!. ", Celine chuckled again as she broke down in tears.

" Celine, please... Be calm... We're talking okay. ", persuade Arsha while walking slowly towards Celine.

" I'll calm down if we can go back to what we used to be. Tell me that everything you said was Sha's lie!!. ".

" Celine, please calm down... Give me that cutter. ".

" Why Sha?!. Don't you want to see my stupidity now?. "challenge Celine to keep avoiding Arsha who walks over to her.

" You're not married, are you Sha??. You can only marry me, right Sha?. ".

Arsha immediately stopped and quietly looked at Celine in front of him, "You quiet Sha?. Does that mean yes?. Haha... I really can't believe it's over like this. ", Celine smiled bitterly returning Arsha's gaze.

" Celine... Please calm down, let's talk to Celine. ", persuade Arsha to panic at Celine's desperate gaze.

" Okay Sha, I'm gonna make you regret that it made me stupid like this!.".

" Big!!!. ".

Fresh blood immediately poured out from Celine's left arm that had just sliced through her large cutter. In a matter of seconds Celine was instantly unconscious as Arsha tried to endure the constant rush of blood flow out. It quickly removed its tie to tie up Celine's injured arm, hoping that the blood would stop soon.