Not Love But Married

Emotion of Heart

Eventually all the paths of life are forced to pass as usual, both Arsha and Rania are equally reluctant to open up about Celine's problems again. Rania remains calm through her daily activities, preparing breakfast for Arsha and Andra, then preparing Andra's equipment before leaving for school and Arsha's equipment before leaving for office. After that, we brought Andra to school as usual. Everything seemed ordinary during these two days, although it was a little different when it had to be together in one room with her own husband, there was a sense of awkwardness created from both. That's why Rania always tried to avoid Arsha for a while by sleeping early in Andra's room. Coincidentally Arsha two days is also very busy with travel back and forth Jakarta Bandung because the mega project that will finally remain realized in the near future, and make him always come home late until late at night.

Arsha stared fixedly at his wife who was currently busy preparing breakfast for him, Rania was really calm in silence and always tried to keep smiling as usual. Meanwhile Andra was already looking neat in her school uniform and was already sitting sweetly while swinging her short legs waiting for her parents to prepare breakfast for her. There were only three of them in the dining room, mama Hanum last night went to Cantika's house after being called by Cantika's husband who reported that Cantika had a false contraction.

" This is the rice. ", Arsha received the plate that Rania offered while continuing to look at his wife who was reluctant to look at him.

" Daddy, tomorrow Andra has an art show at school. Daddy can come to Andra's clay school perform?. ".

" Andra... My mom said it to Andra yesterday. Daddy had more work in the office. ", cut Rania quickly while glancing at her husband who seemed to turn his face into a little sour.

" Kok daddy is not told if Andra wants to perform?. ", said Arsha a little disappointed.

" The mother said daddy will be busy again, keep daddy also home the night continues, so Andra forgot to say to daddy." said Andra plain.

" But daddy should still be told dong, can call daddy from yesterday. ", Arsha again glanced at Rania who seemed reluctant to talk to her.

" Daddy can go to Andra's clay school perform?. Andra tomorrow becomes a war soldier against the enemy ", Andra said with passion.

" Andra, let's eat breakfast first. Later you know, mother bribe ya let cepet eat him. ", persuaded Rania trying to divert the conversation Andra.

" Yes mother, Andra eats alone. ".

" What time is the show tomorrow?"., asked Arsha flatly.

" What time is mom?. ".

" Four ten Andra." said Rania calmly.

" Okay, Daddy just keep coming. ".

" Yes... Daddy can mommy. ", exclaim Andra happy.

Rania only smiled faintly, ignoring her husband who was still at home looking at her.

" Rania, can talk in the room for a second. ".

" I'm sorry mas, Andra is still not finished breakfast. ", reject Rania smooth.

" Andra will be left for a while. ".

Andra nodded obediently, "Yes daddy, Andra can eat alone really. ".

" I'll wait for you on Rania. ".

Rania sighed softly, then walked after her husband who had already gone to the room. Arriving in Rania's room immediately approached Arsha who was sitting on the edge of the bed. " What's wrong?. ", asked Rania uninspired.

" Sit here, Rania. ", Arsha patted the bed on the side next to her.

Rania according to sit next to Arsha, "Why not say that tomorrow Andra has a show at school?. ".

" I'm sorry, I know that Arsha is busy, so I deliberately didn't say. In addition, it is also a show of ordinary Kindergarten children. ".

" It's no ordinary and unusual for Rania... You can call or WA, if Andra wants to perform. ".

" Yes Sorry mas. ", said Rania briefly.

" Rania, are you angry with me?. ", Arsha shifted her seat and looked at Rania who was bowed.

Rania looked up at Arsha with a thin smile, "No, I'm not okay anymore. ", elak Rania tried to cover her anxiety. These two days she was indeed a little reluctant to meet her own husband. Just looking at her husband's face reminded her of him. Every morning she always prepared her husband's clothes and supplies, after which she immediately went downstairs without waiting for her husband to finish bathing like his usual day.

" Rania, I've told you once, if you're angry, throw it at me... ".

" Who is angry with Arsha, I am also ordinary from yesterday. ".

" But your attitude looks different Rania, I can judge for myself. ".

" She, please give me some time to calm down for a while, I've tried not to ask anything with Arsha, and vice versa. I'm like this also because of Arsha's own mas request right, who asked me to patiently wait. ", cut Rania quickly.

Arsha immediately fell silent, surprised by the words of Rania who seemed to feel her discomfort all along. There was a very clear tone of disappointment from the words Rania had said just now.

" Rania, do you really want to know everything now?. ", asked Arsha doubtfully.

" I will not demand Arsha to say anything before Arsha can overcome the confusion in Arsha himself. I will not confuse Arsha with the steps that Arsha has taken at this time. I will continue to wait, without asking anything about Arsha. ", Rania sighed increasingly heavy, "I said down first mas, Andra must immediately go to school. ".

" rania... ", Arsha gently blocked Rania's hand, which was almost standing from her seat, as if to hold her to remain sitting next to her, "I'm sorry Rania, I'm so sorry, I promised myself I wouldn't make you sad about this. But in fact you just seem more hurt because of this attitude of mine. ".

Rania smiled bitterly, for some reason there was a bit of disbelief in her heart after knowing the fact that Arsha was currently taking the woman to her apartment, although for various reasons that might have forced her husband to do so, but Rania still feels that Arsha's actions this time are really out of her mind.

" Mad, let me keep quiet like this first. Don't ask me why, because I don't know why my attitude is like this. We must realize that this marriage is basically just because of compulsion alone. From the beginning, the hope was very small to be able to understand each other. ".

" Mad, I'm not a pessimist... But I'm more realistic now. We were indeed from the beginning there was no feeling of being bound to each other, and it was very difficult considering our circumstances that were still overshadowed by the past. So from the beginning I never forced this situation to be what I expected. I really don't know what will happen in the future. If indeed someday mas Arsha is still confused with his own feelings, I will not be disappointed more deeply later. I will sincerely retreat from circumstances that will not bring happiness to my own husband. ".

" Rania, listen to me!. ", Arsha growled in annoyance as she tightened her hand on Rania's arm, "Don't even think of leaving this wedding in the slightest!. I will lock you up with my own hands if you intend to leave my side.

Rania was stifled to look Arsha sharp eyes, " Mas, it all depends on the attitude and responsibility of Arsha as my husband, just calm I will not run until Arsha himself who will release later. ".

" rania... I will never let you go!. Remember this oath!. ", arsha slightly shook Rania's arm as if he wanted to resuscitate his angry wife.

" If Arsha mas is sure of his own words, please immediately solve the problem. I will remain patiently waiting until Arsha can really escape the problem. ". Rania took a deep breath as she took a deep breath, trying to temper her emotions that were about to explode this morning, "I'm sorry, I have to go now, Andra has to go to school. ".

Rania unravels Arsha's hand, which is still blocking her arm, then steps away leaving Arsha, who is still sitting glued to her disappearance. This was the first debate that took place during her two-month marriage to Arsha. Actually Rania did not want to refute the words of her own husband, this was not the nature he had all this time. I don't know, maybe because of her pregnancy hormones affecting her current emotions, it feels like a rollercoaster running fast and suddenly slowing down on its own.

*

" Joko sir, can I change the song?. ", whispered Siska slowly, it feels long dizzy also along the way home from Bandung must listen to such noisy rock music.

" I'm sorry, ma'am, this is Mr. Arsha's favorite song"., replied Mr. Joko along with a whisper of fear.

" It's weird, it's just people bundles of music. ", both of them chuckle slowly.

" Who's the bundle?. ", asked Dani from the seat behind him, right next to Arsha.

" This is Dani sir, the music's like a bundle cassette. ", Siska glanced at Arsha who was still throwing her gaze towards the street next to her. From this morning like a person who is lacking in love intake, his face scowled no leisure goods for a moment. There must have been something to do with the woman's problem, or had a fight with Rania. But she tried to ask Rania, saying there was no problem with her husband.

" Replace aja, I was also dizzy from the earlier departure music noisy like that. ".

Siska immediately pressed the button to find the list of songs monitored, it turns out that almost everything contains rock rock music.

" Joko sir, is there another flash of music?. ", asked Siska again.

" There's mbak, it's in front of Mbak Siska. What you want online can also be. If Mbak Rania also has a flash reading the Quran, I now even like to follow Rania dengerin murottal, so his heart. ".

" Well yes, Mr. Joko, aja murottal, so that it can make people adem his mind, not spaneng think of things that are not important. All of you can clean the heart of people who are worried because there are more problems. ".

" You are doing it anyway, even on the whispers in front." Dani protested.

" This is Mr. Dani, he said Mr. Joko mending with a murottal, so you can make a calm heart and mind that is again bundled because of many problems. ".

" Had... Ma'am Siska could, the feeling earlier I did not say. ", Mr. Joko chuckled at Siska's words.

" Yes already spit on his murotal computer, let the demon on out of here. ", as long as Dani's origin.

Arsha snorted as if listening to a disturbing whisper next to her, "The devil is you two, so now you have to get out of this car. Mr. Joko, stop for a second, let them come down here aja. ", Arsha was upset.

" Boss, the hell of a time tell us to come down here. It is still far from the office. ".

" You two are too noisy, get out!. ", Arsha snapped at Dani.

" Boss... ".

" Go out on your own or want to be kicked out right now.

Finally Dani and Siska completely obey Arsha's orders, get out of the car with annoyance because Arsha just want to drop them on the way home.

" You are, for all the music!. ", Dani's murmur was upset with Siska.

" It was not that Mr. Dani himself said that dizzy with such noisy music, why now so follow me?!. Emang Pak Boss again thought about what problem Mr Dani, how from this morning did not seem to be in that mood?. ".

" Where do I know, again PMS times." replied Dani origin.

" Ishh sir Dani, ehh Sir.. is the woman still living in the apartment Mr Bos?. ".

" Where do you know?!. ", asked Dani in surprise.

" Oops... ", Siska spontaneously closed her lips with both of her hands.

" Hey.. Answer my question, how do you know Sis?. Does Rania know about this?. ", asked Dani suspiciously.

" Eh that's a taxi, a taxi!!!"., ", cried Siska loudly, and immediately walked away avoiding Dani while chasing a taxi that happened to pass by.

" Siska!. Answer my question first!. ", Dani followed after Siska who had now entered the taxi, then followed by sitting right beside Siska.

" Mister Dani, please don't tell the boss that Rania already knows the problem. ", Pinta Siska is hopeful.

" Okay, I promise I won't tell you, but you have to tell me everything you know first. ".

Siska immediately nodded obediently, inwardly regretting her own carelessness.