Not Love But Married

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Rania walked hurriedly to the Andra school hall, because today there will be an art performance where Andra will also perform on the stage. This is a performance for Andra for the last time in the playgroup where Andra is school, because Rania has taken care of all the terms of the move for Andra to playgroup school in Jakarta.

Rania quickens her footsteps, does not want to be late and makes Andra disappointed if she arrived late.

Earlier in the morning after driving Andra to school, Rania immediately went to the village office to ask for a letter to move to Jakarta. Because next week Rania had to move to Jakarta, she got a work call after she managed to pass the incoming administration as an employee at PT Wiguna in the administration. But it turns out that the queue in the village is quite long, Rania must be patient until her turn is called.

Rania walked slowly as she entered the school hall of Andra's playgroup which was already crowded with parents of students and the performing arts show seemed to have just begun. Rania breathed a sigh of relief. Rania looked for an empty seat that had not been filled by visitors and she finally got a seat on the right, four rows from the stage of the show.

Andra finally began, Andra this time featuring rabbit dance with her friends. Andra is so cute, wears a white rabbit costume and her head wears long bunny ear accessories that always sway when Andra moves her head.

Rania's eyes were warmed by the tears that suddenly welled up in her eyes, she was very moved and proud to see Andra who had grown bigger and healthier.

Andra's age is now four years more, and all this time Rania herself who takes care of Andra without help from others.

As soon as the dance performance was over, Andra and her friends immediately bowed in salute to the audience. Rania immediately stood up while clapping her hands, her eyes never separated from her favorite child.

"Mother...!!", cried Andra as soon as he got off the stage.

Rania spread out her arms wide, preparing to catch Andra who was running small towards her.

"Mother's child."., greet Rania when Andra hit her chest and immediately embraced Andra gently.

"So Mother saw Andra dancing, the dancing was good, Andra was great. Mother was very proud of Andra.", Rania took off her embrace, then held both cheeks Andra and stroked her softly, in her kiss Andra's forehead gently.

"Mother?" asked Andra when she saw a stream of tears on her round cheek.

Rania smiled at Andra, "This is called a happy cry dear, because now Mother is very happy and proud with Andra" said Rania Lirih smilingly looking at Andra.

"Mothers can not cry, Mother is already big, said Kung if the crying name is weak.", said Andra innocently as if he was advising his mother to stop crying.

"Yes, baby, sorry Mother cried. Let's go to daddy's house.", Andra nodded her head excitedly. Rania tightly held Andra's tiny hand and walked out of the hall.

*

Andra ran small towards the tomb that was neatly overgrown with grass on it, then she crouched down and her tiny hands were busy wiping the grass that was on top of her father's tomb.

"Dad, Andra came. ", he said plainly in front of his father's grave.

Rania follows Andra crouching beside Andre's grave

"Mas, I'm coming... Andra had just performed dancing, the dance was really good. Thank God Andra is healthy and very smart. Look at your son mas, he has grown bigger now.", Rania whispered softly while rubbing the navel that was named Andre Andika Putra, his tears were falling on the grass of Andre's tomb. The huge longing for her husband and the feeling of having seen her son who was so similar to Andre had now grown bigger and healthier.

"Next week Andra and I will move to Jakarta. It's time for me to work for Andra's future. But you take it easy, Andra will always be near me. I promise I will always take good care of Andra, Mas.", Rania looked at Andra who was still busy playing grass on her father's grave.

"Dad, Mother likes to cry tuh, even though it is already big. The word that Kung if it is already big cannot be crybaby, right dad... ".

Rania smiled at her son's complaint to her father, "So Mother was crying because she was happy... ".

" Now that Mother is also crying again... ", Rania directly rubbed her wet cheeks.

" This is because Mother misses Andre's father. ".

Rania had indeed told Andra early on about her father who had been called by the Creator. Rania also told a lot about Andre to her son, about the kindness of her late husband and also the ability of Andre. And he always diligently shows Andre photos and also always put Andre's photo near his bed, so Andra can always see the face of his father who has never met him.

After finishing praying, Rania told Andra to say goodbye to her father, and immediately left the funeral because it was very noon. Rania clasped Andra's tiny hand, stepping out from Andre's grave behind her. Rania is determined to step out of the past without having to forget Andre. Now is the time for Rania to start her life again after a long standstill since the events of five years ago.

*

The online motorcycle taxi that drove Rania and Andra from Salatiga to Jogja stopped right in front of a fast food restaurant.

"Mother, where is Aunt Siska?", asked Andra when she entered the restaurant.

"Mother hasn't seen either, let's find it there."

"Andra.!!!", Andra and Rania turned to a loud voice from inside the restaurant.

"Tante Siska.!", cried Andra when he found out that Siska was calling him.

"You have never changed from the old days, cried continuously like Tarzan everywhere.", Rania shifted the chair next to Siska who was now holding Andra and kissed Andra's cheek with anxiety.

"Tante kayak Tarzan city, hahaha... ", andra chuckles in Siska's lap.

"Ihhh Andra sneered aunty yaa.", Siska immediately pinched Andra's cheek with anxiety.

"Sis, aren't you looking for Gun?".

"Ishh, justin aja, I'm going to say goodbye to him.", said Siska with a sullen face after hearing the name of Mr. Gunawan who had been still chasing him even though he had often rejected when expressing love to him.

"Males but love right."., Rania's ledek who managed to make Siska's eyes glare at him.

"I mending to be single rather than having to love the bald bachelor.".

"Be careful, Sis. Now again the season of hate so love.", led Rania again while looking at Siska who is still pouting.

"Udah ah, make a badmood if it's name.", Rania smiled looking at her friend who is still at home menjomblo until now.

"Mother, Andra can play there?", Andra pointed to a small playground provided by the restaurant.

"Come, but remember. Andra should not go all the way play ya.", Andra nodded obediently and immediately came down from the lap of Siska, then ran to the playground of the children who looked lonely.

"Rania, are you really sure you want to move to Jakarta?".

"Truth, Sis.", said Rania briefly.

"Why don't we list our work in our office?".

Rania sighed softly before answering Siska's question.

"Sis, if I stay here, I won't go forward and be independent. I also want to be able to let go of my past here. I don't want to be shackled by my own trauma."

Siska looked pityfully at Rania who was considered like her own brother, "Rania... but later if I miss you how dong??", Siska's eyes looked teary.

Rania smiled at Siska who was almost crying, "You can play to Jakarta when you have a work holiday. The current era is also sophisticated, can be found through HP if we miss. ".

"But far away, Ra.", Siska hugged Rania tightly. Rania returned Siska's embrace, rubbing Siska's back slowly.

"We'll see you later, Sis. Just pray that Andra and I are healthy in Jakarta. If there's a chance to go home, I'll definitely see you."

Siska let go of her embrace, her cheeks were already soaked by her own tears, "Yes, Ra. Don't ever forget me. yeah...".

Rania smiled and looked at Siska who was very kind and sincere to her all this time. Convincing his best friend to sincerely release him moved to Jakarta.