NEMESIS SWORN BUT MARRIED (JANDaku)

JANDAKU (67) My decision

Mom walked into my inpatient room in a hurry.

"Gatots! You said what Eliza did?" panicked sounds hysterical.

I'm down.

Dad entered the room followed by Alifah.

"You...disconnect the relationship?" ask Mom again.

I can't answer. Silence is the safest course of action.

Hhh...

Alifah looked at me without blinking.

I don't know, I can't interpret his deep gaze. For sure I need to get this straight.

"Gatots! What...,"

"We'd better get it done at home!"

I totally agree with Dad. Again my eyes are like asking for help from Dad through his telepathy.

Daddy's! I'm sure you know my heart better now. I also want to be a wise grown man like you! Help me through your prayers, Father!

............

I'm not required to be anonymous. Only dehydration and low blood pressure and fatigue caused me to faint. Alhamdulillahot. I'm allowed to go home.

Last night I thought of the best way for myself and Siti Alifah. Even I also pray sunnah prayer for guidance from Allah Ta'ala.

I am 25 years old and above. You have to think clearly and be more mature in making decisions.

"Aliphah... Can we talk to you both?" askaku after the completion of the dawn prayer service.

"Are we going to the beach again?" ask him with a sparkling face but I immediately refused.

"No. We'll talk here!"

Alifah's face was tense. But he complied and sat on the sofa opposite me.

"Sorry Alifah...! Our relationship cannot continue!"

I know, these words of mine will make Siti Alifah shocked amazing. He nodded without taking out words.

"I... You're not marrying you!"

"Why? Why, Tot? Aren't you the same Eliza broke up? Why can't we put our love together? Why?"

"Because we're not meant to be a match!"

I, somehow, have the power from which to say such a sentence that I believe in the bottom of my heart.

"What... are we really not meant to be a match, Tot? I, you, have a great love for each other!" said again.

"Rubber. Suppose you cut this chest too, until now your name is still stored in here!" added me while pointing at the chest with a calm soul and a calm voice.

"Keep, what makes you so sure to say that we're not meant to be a match? Our steps are very close, Tot! We just stay married. Ijab kabul then legally become a husband and wife couple. It's that easy, Tot!"

I shook firmly.

Now this heart is so strong. Not like the old days.

"Why, Tot? Why?"

"Because we're just God's not going to make it sodara forever!"

"Huh? On what basis do you say that, Tot? After what we have been through as big and heavy as that, continue to lo now just give it up? Tot! Think again, Tot! Our love journey is so beautiful. God tested it so hard, until finally we are now reunited again in a state of problem in order. Everything is clear, Tot!"

"Toot!"

"Inget ga, what do our parents often say first? Once upon a time, from the beginning we knew?"

"What?"

"We always they say 'sodara'! Inget khan, Lip? Your mother, my mother... We are brothers. Then... Until finally I talak you, and meet again Papa at the mall when Papa anter Bryan shopping. Papa also knows me as Bryan as your cousin."

"It's just so Bryan doesn't do anything bad to you, Tot!"

"Even you yourself... In front of Mama Bryan also recognized me as your cousin. You forgot, Lip?"

"That's, that's what I mean to keep you safe from,"

"That's Lip! God has revealed our words. God wants us to be SODARA. You know what I mean?"

"Tot!..."

"Gue has prayed five times, istikharah is also tahajud. God turns out to be more ridho we become just aja, Lifah! Our relationship will be much better and will continue to be intertwined throughout our lifetime. Because SODARA won't be an EX, Lif!"

Alifah looked at me sadly.

"Tot! I'm sad, you can say that to me. Even though Papa trusts me, if lo it will be able to take care of me for the rest of your life. Because you're not gonna leave me! Hik hik hicks..."

"Papa's right, Lip! I will never leave you even for a second. Because lo it's my SODARA. I love you too Arif! My true feelings will not change until anytime. Even though we are not a match, my heart tetel says, I love you. And I'll always take care of Elo too Arif. Moreover, Papa took the mandate to me like that."

"Gatots!... Hik hik hicks...! I love elo. I love you, Tot!"

"Gue is the same, Lif!"

Alifah approached he grabbed my face but I immediately brushed it smooth.

"Don't do this again, Lifah! Nay! Don't fall for the self-esteem that I hold so high! I wouldn't be willing for any man to humiliate me let alone insult you! But I also do not like it for the sake of making my heart, you deliberately do not admit cheap tactics like gini. Please.., I said gini because I'm pure dear elo! If I just lust same elo, since our time in school.gue can aja gagging lo, Lif!"

Alifah was crying again. But now her crying is more controlled. And no longer embracing my body as it was then.

"Gue know, you must hate me for so many things. Hik hik... I'm sorry, Tot! Sorry..."

"Gue ain't fucking on, Lif! Hengga'! I used to blame myself a lot. Why I always fail to do dapetin elo. But now I understand. Now my mind is open. That's because we're not fooled. There is always a problem between us! I'm even a hundred percent sure now. We are destined for God to be just an idol!"

"Hik hik hicks... I can die without you, Tot!"

"In fact, you will still be my sodara until anytime! Love and love, eh? Do you really care about my happiness, right? Please, support me! Support me if you really love me and want me to be happy. Just like me, who always doain and call your name may God give happy!"

"Hik hik hicks... How should I continue? I don't know what to do!"

"Gue has adoptive parents in Bukit Intan area. They are good-natured couples who live together. I want to know you with them and you can apply for work in the puskesmas region there as a public health worker. Want ga? Lo is young. You can dedicate your knowledge and abilities as a midwife. And we're doing it because we're sodapani! What do you think?"

Alifah looked at me.

Her face was flooded with tears, but now there was a flash of happiness there.

"Really, Tot?" ask her with a soft voice.

I nodded for sure.

"Thank Gatot! Apparently, this is God's answer! Hik hik hicks...!"

"Lo want khan to take this sodara lo advice?" I murmured with a slow but firm voice in his sense of hearing.

This morning, we hugged. Brotherly hug. And my heart is so warm even though reality is not joyful.

Mom and Dad just got out of the room. They hugged us in turn. It seems, has been eavesdropping long enough and so be cool to mengepoin our chat earlier.

Hehe... Peace Well, Mom!

...❤BERCONNECT❤...