NEMESIS SWORN BUT MARRIED (JANDaku)

JANDAKU (19) I Prepared This Heart And Pouch

"I'm ready, Boss!"

"Good! That's just the name of the dashing young man of the nation's hope!"

I can only smile.

Last night contemplating alone without my dear Chattan Alifah.

I made up my mind, I have to work hard. Worked it right. Saving for the future.

I'm 25 years old. Alifah was a few months younger than me, but our thinking was no longer just love. You have to think far ahead. Moreover, my position and status, only the shadow of Bryan alone in the eyes of Alifah.

I don't blame him.

I don't hate Alifah.

For I myself am the one who asks to enter into this mysterious circle of relations.

I cannot be selfish. Asking my status and existence to MY JANDAKU, it must have even made Alifah more disappointed.

My goal is to be his last outpouring of hearts. Not to make Alifah suffer more. Not that!

L loved her. Sincere, pure unconditional.

Wanted it. Very, very very. But he wanted a happy self.

If being with Bryan was real happiness for her, I would.

But if he's unhappy, I'll accept him and try to make him happy. That's my aim.

My life once ruined his life. Not because I'm evil and cruel. But it's the circumstances that make me look like that.

As I grew up, I kept thinking about him. Alifah and only Alifah. Until the meeting that I did not expect, became the beginning of my happiness as well.

Bitter, sweet, sore, sad, disappointed. To be with Alifah.

She's already engaged. Soon to get married. And I was the ringleader who suddenly appeared to disturb his happiness. So, uh,... I have no right to take responsibility for this truly fatal heartbreak.

I called my Dad and my Mom. Tell him I'm moving domicile. Then send them my last photo in style in my cozy apartment room.

To further reassure my parents, we VC an.

Please pray for both of them for my success in the present and the future.

I was happy to shed tears. What makes me happier, Dad nodded with a smile while embracing his wife's affection. (That wife, nyokap lo, Dodol)

Dad..., be happy and hold on Mom! Stay beside him even though your age is now near dusk. Father.., pray your son becomes more or less the same man as you. Become a mighty man who has a high responsibility on his son and wife later. I want to be like you, Dad!

...........

Today, I moved out. Move office. It is getting northward into the capital region.

A few friends took me and promised to come back next time. Including Miss Aji, the guy who managed my former boarding house. He complained a little, a bit confused how to go dugem alone.

One by one my friends say they go home because tomorrow they have to work. Leaving me alone in loneliness. They promised to come tonight next week, stay overnight, curious to feel the sleep in the apartment.

I sighed, sitting in the room alone.

A different Eve, a little bit tormented me as well.

Lucky I got an apartment on the tenth floor. So the window when I opened it was much more relieved to breathe.

Two-bed room apartment, supposedly reported monthly rent of 2 million clean following garbage, security and others and so on. Fortunately, it was all handled by my boss. Hm..., safe!

A bit excited too, because I feel up to class. My career achievements are up.

But apparently, the expectations are not as beautiful as reality.

Hixes. My work is heavy and a lot.

Take care of the company's warehouse, serve freight forwader, loading and unloading goods, also supervise heavy equipment supporting the company's facilities.

It's really a heavy-duty bone-slashing job, cuy! Hix... Gini is so cool!

My job is really heavy. My time is long, almost non-existent. Even holidays sometimes have work too. Hadeuh!

Kuy is for mothers who have quality virgin children, choose Gatot as a potential ghost. Gatot is a hard worker, abstaining from going home before getting rich. Wkwkwk... Smp!!!

How else, just accept fate.

Three days, Alifah and I didn't call each other.

He seems to be the same as me. Trying to refrain from seeing first.

Either because of busyness, or indeed prestige. For sure we both survived the situation.

Honestly my heart misses her jokes. Cheers, nagging. It was all so ringing in the ears.

Japriannya the ngasal. His chirping is somplic. Ah.., every time I say his name in this heart, immediately mrebes mili. No cry for me!!! That in warteg mas Koming is just an amazing event that has just happened once in my life! Gegara song that played melow song that fits really, ngena' in the soul. Yes make me cry razzy! Hixes.

Why stay stylish in the apartment if I do not use the facilities.

Little style let there be the impression of a rich man, can dong! As long as you don't use deception Miss Netherlands son of Mr. Kaya Raya Landlords! Ahheys...

Now I'm learning to time.

Alarm hape and watch bekker I installed at 04.30 WIB. Intentionally to wake up my sleep right before dawn.

It's written on a neat schedule. Wakes up. Fajr prayers, morning jogging run at least 15 minutes after warming up.

Shower, breakfast, off to work.

Six o'clock, shower, maghriban, go to the gym. Or if you're involved, swimming in a pool is available on the ground floor of the apartment.

So-sook use the schedule, it turns out the time is right... All collapsed. Tousled with alarm hape and bekker hours until it can not be heard after taking two tablets of herbal medicine LEAP to treat insomniaku some days without chattan Alifah.

I ran after time. Pushing my bike from the garage of a special two-wheeler on the basement floor.

Do not be late for work on the first day. That's very embarrassing. Such as the early entry of High School with Siti Alifah.

Hhh... I remember Lifah again!

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