My Bow to the Destiny of Love

Ardian Baskara 2's

Ghibran sits pensively on his alphabet. After establishing tahajjud and istikharah, he had no intention of leaving his place of prostration. The image of Chayra's face continues to haunt her mind. Until now, not the slightest bit of his heart was willing to turn and look for a replacement for the girl. The name Chayra was still lingering in his heart.

"Allahuakbar.." he quietly exhaled while exhaling violently. "Do I have to go?" He bowed while trying to dive into the depths of his feelings. To get her heart straight, did she have to fight again.

Back to breathing in." Bismillah, I have to go see him. This is a form of my effort to get it. May God grant my request." Ghibran clasped his hand. Exit the house to heat the engine. He intends to get ready and leave immediately. If it delays, it is feared that Chayra has become a permanent possession of Ardian.

Since his return that day, Ghibran has not been in contact with any members of the Chayra family. Including Zidane who became his close friends, he never contacted again. If Zidane happens to send a message, he just reads without intending to reply to a message from his best friend.

"Where are you at the show, son? It's still very early in the morning and you've already warmed up the car's engine."

The newly-entered ghibran was immediately greeted with questions of his papi. His daydreams about Chayra instantly froze and were blown away by the wind. "Eh, Papi's awake?"

Mr. Marzuki knitted his brows. "The fire asks you, son. Where are you going, so early this morning already heating up the car?"

Ghibran just smiled. He deliberately switched the conversation so that his papa did not ask. However, Mr. Marzuki was even suspicious of his unusual appearance.

"M. Anu, Pi." Ghibran avoids eye contact with his papi. "I. I have an event out of town. So, I left early so I wouldn't get stuck later."

"Who are you going with? Why not just use the plane to get there quickly?"

"M. why. mm.." The ghibran rotates the brain so that the answer is not convoluted. Do not let papi and his mother know the real plan.

"Mm. I went with some Lecturers from Campus, Pi. M. they're on buses. But, I choose to use the car because there is business that I will finish before this." Ghibran smiled to make it look more convincing.

"But who's leaving so early, son? If you go by plane.. Papi maklumi's. But, this is you go by car, keep leaving so early. It's only three in the morning. You are really this." Mr. Marzuki is even more suspicious of the way his son looks different.

"Ghibran scratched his head. "I. I just want to get there fast, Pi."

Mr. Marzuki shook his head slowly. "The dawn prayer was at home. After prayers, you can leave." Mr. Marzuki passed after finishing his sentence. From his gaze, it was clear that his words were not to be refuted.

The ghibran could finally only take a deep breath. Back in the trunk to turn off the car. If this is the case, he should be submissive and should not argue at all.

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Ardian sat on the edge of his bed looking down. Grumbling is only limited in the heart. Mr. Sucipto sat on the sofa with his feet on. Look at his son sharply. Since the incident that night, Mr. Sucipto did not allow Ardian out of the house. The man just stayed in the room. His job was only to carry out the readings of the shahadah and sholawat that he had to read when the marriage contract was over.

In two days, the wedding ceremony will be held. Her papi repeatedly told her to read shahadah and sholawat. Mr. Sucipto does not want Ardian to make him embarrassed because it is not smooth to read the shahadah or sholawat later.

"Repeat again, Ardian. Papi did not think that just read the shahada you sweat cold like a person who runs a marathon. How about you recite the qobul later." Mr. Sucipto shook his head slowly at the cold sweat of his lap.

"Ashadu. an.laailaaha illallah.." Ardian looked at the papa. "What else to do, Pi?"

Mr. Sucipto breathed his breath out violently. "That's the new shahadat tawhid. His apostolic creed has not."

"What do you mean?"

"Astagfirullahal.." Mr. Sucipto rubbed his face rough. He remembered what Amira said at that time, about his son who did not know his Lord.

Mr. Sucipto stared at his son. It was as bad as her parents that she did not realize how bad her son's character was at the moment. "A.. do you also. do not know the prayer reading?"

The deg!

Mr. Sucipto swallowed his saliva, unable to say anything.

Seeing the reaction of her papi, Ardian smiled sinisterly. "I just wanted to go at that time. But Mama always forbade me. Mami says I don't get along with the neighbor's kid. Promise to bring teacher njai for me. Uh, but until now the promise was just a promise."

Ardian glanced back at his papi. There is still no reaction. He was more eager to bring up the mistakes of his parents in the past.

"Who will you blame now? Is Papi going to blame me for being like this? Is Papi going to blame Mami? Because Mami always limited my activities in religious matters. Or maybe Papi will blame himself? Because Papi who became the head of the family only gave materials to me. But not with religious science. How will I behave like a child. Papi and Mami never cared about it. Papi and Mami are just busy collecting money, money and money."

"Enough, Ardian!" Ms. Renata appeared from the door with an annoyed look on her face.

Mr. Sucipto and Ardian turned their heads simultaneously. "Why do you blame us for the evil that is happening to you right now? You're a big boy now. You should be able to distinguish between right and wrong. We have facilitated you with luxury goods. It's been a decent education for you."

"Yes, Mommy is right. I have been given a proper education. But, did Mami ever think about my growth process until I was as big as now? Who educated me until I could stand straight in front of you. You only give material, but not with affection. I need love, Mommy. Your son's ardian needs a mother's warm hand."

Ms. Renata rolled her eyes in annoyance. "A child as big as you is no longer worth hugging. You're so grown up asking Mami for a hug now."

"Enough, Renata!" Mr. Sucipto is rising. "Listen to your son's sigh. Don't cut it in the least or you'll throw me out of this room. You've been over." Mr. Sucipto sat back down after finishing his sentence.

Ms. Renata finally walked over and sat down on the sofa next to her husband.

"Shut up there and don't try to talk until Ardian's done." Said Mr. Sucipto threateningly.

Bu Renata nodded obediently. Hearing her husband's tone, she did not dare to argue.

"Continue, Ardian. Take out whatever you want to say. Tonight, we'll finish everything."

"I just want to be like everyone else, Pi. I just look tough, but I'm actually fragile. I pretend to always look happy, even though my heart is never at peace."

"Maybe my body wouldn't be like this if I was happy. There is no one who is at peace, has a thin, dry body like me."

"I just need you, not your treasure."

"Ja...." Miss Renata shut her mouth. Glanced at her husband who was also glancing at her. Almost his mouth slipped want to refute the words of his son.

"I want to be like everyone else. Their parents are always by their side at school events. While me? Not during the student meeting. Even when I graduated yesterday, you were not with me. Never mind, Mami and Papi think about how I feel?" Ardian shed his tears. The man who pretended to be tough, now revealed his true nature.

"That's it, to you my words will mean nothing. I'm just asking you guys. Don't blame me, if one day, this woman who will be my wife isn't happy with me. Honestly, I'd rather go to jail than marry him. But yeah, like Papi said yesterday, there's your pride that has to be at stake if I go to jail."

Ardian opened his eyes. Breathe in so you can control yourself.

Mr. Sucipto is down. He also quietly wiped his tears. His son, who was always independent, now demands his affection.

Right said Ardian. During this time, he and his wife were just busy looking for money. "M. forgive us, son. Forgive us for being too greedy with the material." Mr. Sucipto wiped his tears back.

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