My Bow to the Destiny of Love

Make up?

Ardian stood by the window with his back to the door. Zidane sent a message that Chayra was looking into the room. Repeatedly breathing deeply. Preparing himself and his feelings to meet his wife again.

Chayra did almost the same thing. For about ten minutes he was standing at Zidane's door. Breathe in repeatedly. What will he do when he opens the door.

Zidane just stared at his brother's behavior from a distance. Can only breathe heavily. Confused by all this. She was not married yet, but the household drama she had witnessed from now on.

Chayra walked slowly. His hand turned the door knob slowly. His mouth repeatedly recited bismillah.

Ardian looked down upon hearing the door open. His chest was pounding erratically. His feelings are mixed.

"As.. assalamualaikum, K.. Sis?" Chayra stuttered. His feet were locked in front of that door.

Ardian exhaled violently. He answered his wife's greeting only in his heart. Between turning around and remaining in that position. Her chest feels pained. A few moments of silence. Finally he just looked down, silent in his original position.

"K.. Brother, m. I'm sorry." Chayra's tears are flowing. "I'm sorry to say that. I would lie if I said I didn't love my sister. I couldn't sleep last night because there wasn't a big brother next to me." Chayra took a few steps forward.

Ardian is getting deeper. Hiding her tears that started to come out.

"Sorry, Brother..." Chayra stopped her steps because there was no Ardian reaction.

"What made you come to me, Chay? Am I not the person you did not expect? Didn't you ask me to marry you because I did that stupidity. I'm just your disgraceful cover husband." Ardian said without flipping his body. Still not ready if you have to meet his wife face to face. Somehow his heart felt increasingly bitter considering Chayra's words yesterday.

"I'm sorry, brother. I was wrong to say that."

"I don't mean anything to you, Chay. I'm just your disgraceful cover husband. There's only Mr. Ghibran's name in your heart."

"No..! Brother Ghibran's name has been moved by Brother." Chayra tried to move closer.

"That's just your talk when you feel cornered, Chay. When you're feeling the wind, you're going to re-corn me like yesterday."

"I'm sorry, brother. I'll try

correcting yesterday's mistake. I was wrong to say that. I'm wrong..."

Ardian took another deep breath and then exhaled violently. "I don't know, Chay, what to do." Grip the window curtains hard. "I love you, I love you, I also consider you the only woman who will accompany me until I die. I never had the slightest intention of looking for another woman. There's no other woman's name in my heart than yours, Chay. I've deleted the name of the woman who once filled my days. I can do that, Chay. I can..." Ardian closed his eyes. Her tears fell.

Chayra gulped at her saliva hearing all the words of her husband. "I'm sorry, Brother."

"Do you feel heavy putting my name in your heart? Open your heart, Chay. Open it up, just a little bit for me. I want to have you with your heart. It's not just your name as it is today. Your body is with me every day. But your heart is not mine. Your heart still belongs to Mr. Ghibran."

Chayra was stunned, unable to say anything. All Ardian's words cannot be denied the truth.

"You can't say anything, can you? Maybe I should just go now. I want to heal my heart first."

"Don't go, Brother." Chayra immediately hugged Ardian's body from behind. "Don't leave me."

Ardian forcibly took off Chayra's hand that was coiled around her waist. "You want what? If you still act like yesterday, I'm not strong, Chay. My heart is not as strong as you think. I'm also a man who needs happiness."

Chayra again wrapped her hands around her husband's waist. It doesn't matter if the man is in denial. "God willing, I will try to be the best woman for Ardian from now on. I'm pregnant with your child, brother. How am I going to look after our son, if Brother leaves."

Ardian took a deep breath. Raising his head, holding back his mixed feelings.

"Do I need to be calm so that Brother will forgive me?" Chayra said again, putting her face on Ardian's back.

"I'm a normal human being, Chay. I'm even a sinner. It's not appropriate for a pious woman like you to do that to me."

"I'm worse than Brother. I'm just a despicable woman who's still thinking of the names of other men in my marriage."

Ardian was silent. Enjoying the breath of Chayra sweeping her back.

"What do you want now, Chay?"

"I just want Brother to turn around. Said that Brother forgave me. Staring at me, hugging me lovingly."

"I'm..." Chayra let go of her embrace slowly. Walk back a few steps. "I just need support, brother. Everyone blamed me. I'm weak." said Chayra lirih. Suddenly, his vision was blurry and a little twisting. Nodding his temple behind the still reluctant Ardian turned around. Chayra's body suddenly sagged. Dizziness and unconsciousness.

"You're pretending to be dizzy to let me down and forget about your mistakes?"

Silent. There was no response from Chayra. Ardian waited for a while, but remained silent.

Ardian looked back a little. His eyes were round when he saw his wife's body lying on the floor. "Astagfirullahal'adzim, Chay.." immediately turned around and raised his wife's head. Lifting Chayra's body slowly and taking her out of the room.

"Mother, Brother Zidane.. Chay passed out, Mom."

There's no answer. It turned out that only the two of them were left at home. Ardian placed Chayra's body on the living room sofa. Hurry out of the house to seek help.

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"Wait outside, sir. We'll check on the patient first." One of the doctors rebuked Ardian for insisting that he would enter the IGD room.

Finally Ardian surrendered after a Security Guard also withdrew his hand.

"What's really going on, son?" Mrs Sulis who helped Ardian bring Chayra to the Hospital finally asked. From that moment the woman was curious. Ardian suddenly came to his house in a panic.

"I don't know either, Mom." Answer Ardian origin.

"Have you contacted your mother?"

"No, Ma. I'll call him later. I forgot to bring my phone. I. I panicked when I saw Chay suddenly go limp."

"It's a child. The nickname for his wife is sweet." Mrs Sulis pinched Ardian's cheek.

Ardian was very concerned about the treatment of Mrs Sulis. "Hehehehe..."

"Let Mother contact your in-laws. You just accompany your wife."

"I'm not allowed in, ma'am. The doctor can't do the check if I come in. Because I could've disrupted their concentration."

"You cry so much that you have to disturb their concentration. You looked panicked, that's why the doctor forbade you from entering. Try to be calm. God willing, they will let you in."

"Can you do that, ma'am?"

"You're like people never go to the hospital."

Ardian. Staring at the security guard who is still guarding the entrance of the IGD room. Get up and walk slowly near the security guard. "Sorry, Sir. Mm... can I see my wife inside?"

"Doctors are still doing the check, Dek. Just a minute. We'll be called when you can get in."

"But my wife is pregnant, sir. I'm afraid he'll worry if he doesn't see me next to him later. She's been very possessive since she got pregnant. I can't be far from him."

"Hmmm.. Wait a minute, I'll ask the nurse first." The security guard came in and spoke to one of the nurses on duty.

"Send to come in, sir. The doctor will talk to him."

Ardian walked in right away after hearing the nurse's words. Didn't wait for the security guard to come back to let him in. Sitting in front of the doctor who asked him to come out.

"Your wife is pregnant. Do you know that?"

"Yes, Doc."

"Your wife's attention is also very weak. He seems exhausted, lacking in rest, or maybe a lot of thought."

Ardian. Can't speak. He simply looked at the Doctor, waiting for the continuation of his words.

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